[The Little Secret]

Breast Cancer The Silent Killer

2011-11-14T02:31:00.001+09:00

I’m not sure of what’s the most suitable title to put above. But anyway, since my last update; many thing had taken place in our life. Our balik kampung trip to Sungai Petani and Langkawi, 1st Aidil Adha Celebration in Subang, and the latest one is we lost a family member, my Mak Lang because of breast cancer. I think this time I’m gonna keep the updates on former 2 still in pending. Actually I’m just relieved that finally I got to speak to my cousin through phone just now.

Anyway I want to rewind back a bit earlier on my Mak Lang’s story on her battle with breast cancer. She was hospitalized just after previous Aidil Fitri Celebration after experiencing difficulty to breath. Cut short, the doctor said that she had breast cancer stage 4. If I’m not mistaken half of her lung already got infected and damaged by cancer cells and the cancer was already starting to infect the other side of the lung. So most of times, she was getting insufficient oxygen supply to her body. The doctor treated her with some strong medication because her condition wasn’t strong and stable enough to start with chemotherapy. Throughout her stay in University Malaya Medical Centre (UMMC), she managed to go home for 3 days before immediately run to the hospital by ambulance afterwards due to difficulty to breath. Although she was provided with oxygen supply at home, but her lung couldn’t function well anymore for her body.

Her condition deteriorating since then and finally she passed away on previous Thursday, November 10th, 2011 at about 11.00 am. However Alhamdulillah although Mak Lang was sick and her lung was already in bad shape, but she didn’t feel any pain. She just faced difficulty to breath and due to her condition she felt fatigued. That’s all. I’m glad that she didn’t suffer during her last days. She wasn’t sick for too long. She was taken care greatly by her 2 children and especially Pak Lang who never left her side. She went in a good way anyone could wish. Mak Lang as if understood that her time would come that she complied when the doctor suggested for Yasin recitation moment for her. The doctor and Pak Lang managed to recited Yasin 3 times for Mak Lang. Before finally Mak Lang closed her eyes, her breath became slower and shorter, as her mouth slowly mumbling Syahadah and Allah Allah Allah then finally came to a stop when she took her last slow long breath. Innalillah!

Now back to the beginning as I said I finally manage to speak to my cousin. We didn’t attend Mak Lang burial as well as her tahlil yet due to lost of communication. We couldn’t get through any of the family members and they didn’t reach us also. Well, at times like this sometimes anything could happen. Diorang pun kelam kabut busy uruskan arwah, ditambah dengan dalam kesedihan lagi. So kitorang kinda left out. Kitorang called berkali2 and msged tak berjawab so jadi tak senang duduk sebab taktau apa2 updates. Tapi memang kitorang tak dapat pergi pun sebab weekdays. So Sabtu Ahad baru lepas ni hubby and I memang standby je kalau2 ada tahlil ke apa ke. Tapi tulah, silap juga kitorang tak terfikir langsung nak tanya other relatives. Tapi takpelah dah called tadi so dah tau A to Z. InsyaAllah this weekend we are going to visit Mak Lang’s grave in Pantai Dalam. This coming Thursday also ada tahlil tapi taktau lagi dapat pergi ke tak sebab hubby kerja. Rumah my cousin pun jauh di Klang. We will see how. Tak discuss lagi.

Glad to know that my cousin and her family are recuperating well. I kept remembering Mak Lang and wondering about the condition of her family she left behind. Sometimes I couldn’t sleep. Although personally I’m not that close to Mak Lang but I had been knowing her since small. If not much, of course I have a few personal memories with her. I also feel sad and kind of miss her presence. I kept praying for Mak Lang as well as for her family. But now, I pray that roh Mak Lang dirahmati Allah dan ditempatkan dikalangan orang2 beriman. Semoga Allah mengampuni segala dosa2 Mak Lang dan menerima segala amalan baiknya semasa dia hidup. I also pray that may Allah will give the strength and patience to Mak Lang’s children and Pak Lang to go on life. Mati itu pasti bagi seiap insan yang hidup. Cuma kita tak tau bila dan macam mana giliran kita akan tiba. Kematian tu adalah pengajaran dan peringatan. Semoga kita mengambil iktibar. Berbuatlah kebaikan seakan2 kita akan mati esok!

Al-Fatihah to Mak Lang.

Ihsan Loves To Read

2011-10-30T11:39:00.001+09:00

I have taken my bath and breakfast of oat with honey and banana. Owh, also a cup of 3 in 1 coffee with goat milk something. Ihsan is here playing with his toys. He is having running nose and refused to eat. But at least he keeps asking his milk as usual, phew! Now we are waiting for hubby to get up, give Ihsan his bath and get ready himself. I’m thinking of going to the Tesco later for groceries shopping. We should go earlier in the morning because the fresh foods are still abundant compared to if we go later. But I hope there will still be plenty for us. I hope to get everything done before Zohor.

Ops for got to tell that we arrived here from the north on previous Thursday, October 27th. But I will spare the stories about our balik kampung Sungai Petani and Langkawi later in another entry. As for now I would like to make a record on situations I witnessed on Ihsan previously just before we went balik kampung. I wished I had taken a video to be kept. But he is so interested whenever he sees my camera nowadays. Never mind I will try again later. Furthermore it has been quite sometimes since I last took interesting videos of him.

Scene 1

I was busy reorganizing the shelves tidying up our room just before we were about to go to sleep. Rajin kan Mama Ihsan nak tidur pun sibuk mengemas lagi hihi ;P As usual Ihsan would be busy body and wanted to ‘help’ me doing my work. I was organizing his books nicely and he took one of his favourite book and kept reading it using his own language. But I noticed the intonation was kind of familiar though.

Mama: Haa Ihsan baca buku tu je jangan usik buku2 ni Mama dah simpan elok2.

Ihsan: Gujugujugujuguju aaa waaa gujugujugujuguju #@$%^&^*%!!

Mama: Pandai Ihsan baca.

Ihsan: Gujugujuguju Heppp! Heppp!

Mama: (Terus stopped mengemas and tengok buku Ihsan) Eh Ihsan baca apa? Owh haah lah snake ni dia cakap Help! Help! Hahaha! (Mama LOL :D Mama pun terus baca satu mukasurat tu sampai habis untuk Ihsan. Lepas tu sambung mengemas semula). Okay dah esok kita baca sama2 lagi ye.

Pandai la Ihsan ni :) Ihsan naturally really lovessssssssss to read. I noticed this since he was an infant. Xtau la kalau dia suka sebab Mama sendiri yang selalu biasakan Ihsan dengan buku. Bagus la tu. Tapi kadang2 tu rajinnn sangat membaca sampai Mama xlarat nak layan kena sembunyikan buku2 favorite dia hohoho :P

Scene 2

At the living room at my parents’ house in Sungai Petani, I was resting on the sofa while reading the newspapers. Whereas Ihsan was playing with the unused phone beside me.

Ihsan: Eee ooo gujugujuguju !#@$%%!!!#(%# (Picking up the phone, dialling and hanging up the phone. He kept repeating that a few times).

Tak lama lepas tu…

Mama: Apa Ihsan buat tu? (Mula teringat nak perhati apa Ihsan buat).

Ihsan: Eiiiyooo. Ha… ha… ha…. Okiii abaiii! (Ha ha ha tu bukan ketawa but actually ya ya ya. So the conversation was like Hello. Ha ha ha. Okay bubbye!).

Mama: Owhhh hahaha LOL :D Macam familiar je.

Mak Tok: Iye la dia dok dengar Mama dia cakap tepon macam tu hari2.

Mama: Haah la hahaha! LOL :P Siap ‘Ha ha ha’ tu yang xtahan dengar hahaha! :P

Gelihati betul la. Macam2 perangai la Ihsan ni :D Mama Papa kena careful cakap lepas ni sebab Ihsan makin rajin tiru cakap :P

Oh-kayyy it’s already 10.35 am Papa is still in bed. Nanti semua kerja xjalan. Gotta wake him up!

Let’s Help Build Hiroshima Masjid

2011-10-24T16:41:00.000+09:00

When we were living in Japan, it was hard for us to find a mosque because Japan is not an Islamic country and the number of Muslim community is very small. Majority Muslim in Japan are from other countries and only a few are Japanese themselves. However there are a few mosques in Japan but most of them located in big cities where big Muslim community can be found. My husband and I were living in a rural area where we are the only Muslims there (no other that we knew of) and the nearest Muslims we knew were our friends in Matsumoto.

In short, what I’m trying to say is we are so used performing our prayers anywhere like under the tree, at the park, at the car park, at locker room, on the building roof etc. Either short or long distance trip, we always have to bring along our thin foldable prayer mat and a bottle of spray filled with water in order to ease us taking our ablution. Usually hubby will refer for the kiblat using the compass. I will wear already decent clothes before going out from the house but there were a couple of times I wore my telekung while praying in the public too. Obviously I instantly became the centre of attention hihi :P I knew there were a few locals taking my picture while performing my solat.

However most of the times we usually stopped at the Service Area (SA) or in here we call it R&R in order to perform our prayer. Because at the SA we could easily go to the toilet and take our ablution there. Sometimes there were pipe water in the park and that could be much easier too. But of course performing solat in public can’t be compared as performing solat in the mosque itself. Sometimes it was raining, the weather too was icy cold for example during winter or the place was too crowded. But we still had to perform our payer because we got no other choice. So, of course performing solat in the mosque far more convenient.

While we were in Japan, we would always check our route before starting our journey. So that we could plan our schedule and try to stop at the nearest mosque available so that we could perform our solat comfortably. We would always be happy if we could go visit any mosque in Japan. Because of that, I really support this effort towards building Hiroshima Masjid. I got to know from friends in Japan that the Muslims in Hiroshima are now collecting funds so that they can buy a building to be made as Hiroshima Masjid. The number of Muslims in Hiroshima I believe, is many. Also by the existence of this new mosque, the number of Muslim in Japan will surely increasing. The Hiroshima Masjid surely can be so beneficial especially in handling a lot of purposes for the Muslims.

Rayuan Tabung Projek Masjid Hiroshima.

Extend Your Hands Help To Build The 1st Masjid In Hiroshima.

Please Donate For Hiroshima Masjid.

So here I would to encourage dear friends to help donate for Hiroshima Masjid. Boleh derma seikhlas hati. Kalau tiada peruntukan, you can also help spread the words :) You can refer their FB page to refer and email the persons in charged to get more details. There are many Msians in Hiroshima too and if you have friend over there, you might ask if you want to be assured. If you browse the pictures in the FB page, you will find a picture of bank account statements with the name of Hiroshima Masjid. That’s enough for me as proof :)

Perhaps if the Hiroshima Masjid project could be realized, InsyaAllah that would be a victory to us Muslim too :)

Spending The Holiday In Sungai Petani And Langkawi!

2011-10-23T12:34:00.000+09:00

This is a scheduled entry. As you read this, I might already be on my way back to Langkawi. We are planning to go out early in the morning heading towards the north by car. We will stop once we reach my parents house in Sungai Petani. Then only we will straight continue our journey the Kuala Kedah jetty by car and take a ferry ride from there. Hubby’s kaisya Deepavali holiday schedule is a bit longer so he will start holidaying from Sunday to Thursday. So we decided to take this chance to go balik kampung as one family. Actually the original plan was my parents were planning to come back here in Semenyih spending their holidays with Ihsan from Sunday to next Saturday. However as informed by my mother, my grandfather on my father’s side in Langkawi is not so healthy lately. He’s getting very old.

The first time hubby met my grandfather was in 2005 during our wedding solemnization and next was right after that in Langkawi when we had our honeymoon there. Since then, hubby never got chance to go visit my grandparents anymore. So it has been 6 years in total they haven’t met each other. Only Ihsan and I went back to Langkawi during early of this year with my parents. Anyway at first we thought of spending our holiday in Semenyih and we already have a few plans to get settle with. Considering of my grandfather’s condition and coincidentally hubby’s schedule is already at the right time so suddenly hubby thought this is the best chance for him to go back Langkawi. So we immediately discussed with my parents and they agreed to change plan. Hopefully our journey tomorrow is going to be smooth and safe, InsyaAllah.

We are going to stay in Langkawi for 2 nights. Then on Tuesday we will be heading back to Sungai Petani and spend a night there before finally going back to Semenyih on Wednesday. So hubby could have a rest on Thursday before he starts working again on Friday and Saturday. So, seems like a few plans need to be postponed again. But it’s okay. It’s an obligation too visiting our grandparents. Furthermore we didn’t get to do that already in a long time due to time and distant constraints before this. I don’t have specific plan on what to do in Langkawi. But I just hope we could go take a walk around the village, along the beach, buy lots of chocolates, eat delicious foods etc. Owh not forgetting to take out my DSLR too and take many beautiful pictures. Dah lama tak ambil gambar sebab takde mood. Kalau kat Nihon dulu semua benda nak ambil gambar.

Below are the pictures I took during my last visit to Langkawi earlier this year March.

The view at the Kuala Kedah Jetty.

Sunset view.

The fishing boats.

My Tokwan’s house.

My grandparents kampung is at Pantai Pasir Hitam. Although this is going to be quite a short trip and going to look like quite tiring and rushing, I still hope we could spend a quality time together. This is going to be cum the first trip to us since last 3 months when we first reached Msia. I hope this could be an escapade for us to release stress too. Wish us a safe journey to and fro! And yeah… Happy Deepavali to all Hindus in Msia especially :)

Groceries Shopping With Ihsan At Tesco

2011-10-21T13:00:00.001+09:00

Hubby just went to work. He felt that he’s lack of rest so he decided to go to the kaisya a bit late today. Anyway yesterday I went to the Tesco alone with Ihsan. At first I was so nervous since it had been more than a week I last drove my car. Anyway, I’m still in the process of practising my driving skill. I got my car license in 2001. I only drove less than 10 times right after that and that were only in my house compound and once halfway to my hostel in University Malaya. That was it. The reasons why I didn't drive is because I was confused adapting with automatic transmission control after being so used with manual transmission during the car driving class. So looked so reckless and lousy while driving and I got scolded by my parents. I got fed up so fast that I swore to my mother I never care to drive ever again! hihi :P

So right after me when my brother got his car license, he was given my mother’s old Kancil. Which of course I would get it if I could drive :P In fact he was the one who had been my driver to send me to and fro until sometimes he got fed up. Yet, he took it as his obligation and in fact until now he always volunteer being the driver especially for my parents. He’s crazy about car. I always say that he finishes most of his times driving on the road. It’s normal that when I called him in the morning he’s in Malacca, in Semenyih in the afternoon and suddenly already in Sungai Petani in the evening. Again, so soon he’s already in Kuantan on the tomorrow of the day! Macam biskut kan? :P Anyway, after graduating I followed hubby to Japan. So of course I didn’t drive at all while living for few years in Japan. In total, it has been 10 years since I last drove. I even forgot which pedal is break and which one is accelerator!

However as years goes by, I always thought I could adapt myself in the driver’s seat through observation when others are driving. I also feeling salute looking at Japanese woman because they always drive very big MPV etc. Not a common sight in Msia. That’s why after I got my car recently, I didn’t find it hard to drive. But of course I’m still lack of confidence and has a lot of improvements to do. Alhamdulillah I’m getting used to it. I started practising with hubby and my mother. Although they are still scared when I’m driving :P But only very recently I brave myself to drive alone with Ihsan. We just went around the neighbourhood and tried new roads, went to buy kuih at the stall and yesterday to the Tesco to buy groceries. Because we went back to Subang previous weekend so we didn’t stock up our refrigerator. Alhamdulillah we made it safe and sound smoothly to and fro.

At first of course I was so nervous. I think I was more nervous about handling Ihsan alone. I kept imagining I have to just leave my trolley or put back all the stuffs before being able to pay because Ihsan is already screaming on top of his lung. That was my worst fear. But Alhamdulillah that didn’t happen. In fact Ihsan was being such a dear. I kept reminding myself the key is to be calm. I recited doa many times before starting to drive. Earlier before that I kept telling Ihsan that we were going out later so he has to behave. I described to him what was going to happen and what I expected from him in detail. He was also in good mood, got enough sleep and breakfast. I also brought his milk ready to drink in straw cup.

Once reached there, we headed to the toys department. I grabbed 2 books for him that I think very educative and interesting. Most important of all I didn’t forget to get him a set of number pieces. He’s so into numbers nowadays. So I managed to do my shopping in piece and at the same time listening to him reading all the numbers again and again. When we nearly to finish getting our things he started to feel boring and sleepy. So I handed him a bottle of chocolate so that he could play with by shaking it. Finally right before paying, I went back to the toy department and put back the toy. We always do this every time going shopping with him. Only then we preceded to the cashier counter. Few minutes after that we were already at home!

Overall, we took about an hour doing our shopping together. I’m so proud of my achievement. I know I sound so lame but let me! ;P Living in Msia isn’t the same as in Japan. It’s tough to run live if we can’t drive or don’t have a private transport in Msia. Still… I miss Japan because it’s very convenient to move from place to place. Very efficient, fast, safe and less hassle!

Summary On Weekend

2011-10-17T17:35:00.001+09:00

I’m in Subang and it’s raining right now. The house is quite because everyone is in their room resting or sleeping. Ihsan is asleep too. I thought of joining him just now but my mind kept thinking about blogging. So, here I am. I love rainy days except fierce thunder and lightning. But I noticed Subang is the only place I knew where I could see the most scary lightning and thunder. Perhaps there will be none today. We came back here yesterday after spending weekend in Semenyih and settled with few matters beforehand.

Earlier before that, on Friday my parents came back to Semenyih all the way from Sungai Petani merely to meet my father’s SIL in University Malaya Medical Centre. She has been admitted for nearly 3 weeks because of paru-paru berair or pulmonary oedema. Immediately after that they discovered she has breast cancer stage 4. She is very weak and now receiving medication to stabilize her lung before the doctor could suggest her what's next step to be done. It’s a big blow to her especially and family. I pray for the best of her. So my parents came because they felt uneasy until they could visit my aunty. Anyway my parents just came for 1 night.

Also on Friday hubby took leave to bring his car to workshop. The car shaking a few times while he was driving. Apparently it got problem with break system. Luckily my brother recommended a workshop nearby our house and the service was good. A week before that hubby already sent the car to other workshop for balancing. We spent a dough on his car. Perhaps there will be no problem with his car at least in near time to come. Then on Saturday hubby brought my car for the first 1000km service. He arrived late at the service centre so they didn't get to check my car’s speaker. We think there’s a problem with it. But it’s okay we can do it other time.

Other than that, we went back to my grandparents’ house with my parents on Friday night. So hubby and I managed to scour our boxes and bring back a few stuffs. I’m happy that my most wanted stuffs are already in the house. The stepper and exercise bike! My weight has shot up like nobody’s business since Ihsan weaned off from breastfeeding. So I need to do something before the situation becomes worse. I’m thinking whether I could get back in shape in within 2 weeks? Sounds nearly impossible for me. But, we will see. Besides that, we took some books, shoes, Ihsan’s toys and etc.

Owh… we are here in Subang because tomorrow Ihsan is going to have his check up and immunization at Klinik Kesihatan Puchong. We need PIL to help bring me and Ihsan there. I can’t drive us to go there ourselves as yet because the most far I have driven is to the Tesco Semenyih near our house hihi :P I have lots of practise to do before I can go drive wherever I wish. Secondly is I don’t think I can handle Ihsan alone. The waiting will be long and an active toddler in hand is a tough job. So I need extra hands and eyes. Ihsan is going to have his third Hepatitis B immunization tomorrow. Then it will be completed. After that he only needs to attend follow up every 6 months for general check up and worm prevention.

That’s the summary of the past weekend to start the week with :)

Transiting In Semenyih

2011-10-05T21:06:00.001+09:00

As some of you might have known, we are now residing in Semenyih. If you don’t know, Semenyih is in Selangor surrounded by Kajang, Bangi and Nilai. We are staying at my parents’ house. This is a new neighbourhood yet almost everything is here and you don’t have to go far outside to search for basic amenities. There are big Tesco, shop lots, KFC, McD, Pizza Hut and etc. This area is rising fast and we once considered buying our house in here but now not anymore. Well, maybe. Anyway, this house is already completed but my parents are not living in here. They are going to stay here after their retirement soon next year in June. So, all this time, my family just come back here during holidays etc. But my brother who is now working in Kuantan always come back here and he is the one taking care of the house. So much of taking care and the house somewhat has turned as his big car garage. He is kaki kereta, that’s why. Once, there was a car body on his bed in his bedroom. No kidding! But now it’s not that bad anymore :P

Anyway, we moved here from hubby’s parents house in Subang because both our cars were already at home. But there is not enough space to park all cars and we have to risk parking the cars outside. Almost every house has more than 1 car so it’s hard to find a good spot near the house because the spaces are already ‘occupied’ or ‘booked’ by other cars. Even MIL and SIL parked outside and recently SIL car got hit and run. Luckily a neighbour witnessed the accident and took the the other car’s number. The second reason is because hubby’s work place in Balakong is nearer to Semenyih. But funnily, the traffic in this Semenyih main road is very bad. Due to increasing populations thus the number of vehicles on the road. So, there has been many times hubby is stuck in traffic jam for so long although he is already so near to the house. If to be calculated he might take shorter time travelling from Balakong to Subang. Baik lah dok Subang ye tak? Yes, the traffic here is unbelievably so bad! Because there is no other alternative road and the road is narrow although the condition has been upgraded from time to time. Other than that, my parents are also kinda insisted us to live here at this moment. I like living with the in-laws. But living independently in Semenyih offers some other benefits too.

We have yet to find our own house. But we are taking our own sweet time surveying the areas. My parents kinda hoping us to live in Semenyih for at at least until next year. So, we don’t need to rush. Furthermore, we are so fussy. So better cari slowly sampai puas hati. So prior to our transition in Semenyih, I spent the first 2 weeks cleaning and reorganizing the house. Since my family usually come back during holiday so the house condition ada yang tak okay. Yelah bila balik sini sibuk jalan2 and balik kampung. Kemas pun mana yang patut je. Owh btw my mother’s kampung is here in Semenyih too. But in the kampung dalam2 sana lah. So, I started with cleaning up the fridge and kitchen because I couldn’t stand cooking in unorganized kitchen. Lepas tu kemas tingkat atas then tingkat bawah. Tu lah rumah Msia ni besar sangat kalau nak compare with rumah Jepun. Penat kemas xhabis2 banyak sangat! Luar rumah belum kemas lagi. When everything is in order barulah rasa selesa dan selamat. Nak buat kerja pun mudah tak tercari2 barang sana sini. Nak monitor Ihsan pun senang sebab InsyaAllah barang2 kurang selamat dah dialih ke tempat lain.

Alhamdulillah things are slowly running as expected although still far from perfect. I’m still trying to run our daily schedule as productive as we can. But it’s quite hard sometimes. So honestly I’m still struggling. I never thought settling down could be such a mega project. Well, at least to us. But I know I have to find our rhythm so that we could easily run our life feeling at ease and importantly happy. I can’t wait for that time to come, seriously.

Ahmad Izzul Ihsan’s 2nd Birthday!

2011-09-14T16:15:00.001+09:00

It’s better late than never, right? ;) I’m just making sure I won’t miss an important milestone of my dear Ihsan. So, a week before Syawal Ihsan celebrated hi 2nd birthday on August 21st, 2011. Alhamdulillah he’s growing up as happy and healthy kid! :) It was Sunday and we were in Semenyih at that time. This year we held 2 small celebrations only with the families. I wished to make him a birthday cake like I have been doing for hubby for already 4 consecutive years. However since we had to go back to Semenyih on that weekend because our goods from Japan had arrived, considering that it was still in fasting month and on top of all we are still not living in our own house. So I think it wasn’t the right time and uncomfortable for me take bake with peace. Actually boleh je. But I lagi suka buat di rumah sendiri dengan barang sendiri etc. Perhaps next year we could celebrate Ihsan’s birthday surrounded by the smell of lovely homemade cake by me. It’s not that I could make a very beautiful or tastiest cake for him. But I surely put on a special ingredient in the batter of the cake called LOVE. And I’m sure the cake would be the only one looking and tastes like that. Be it good or bad ;)

So, after done with our stuffs in Semenyih we headed back to USJ in the afternoon. We stopped at Baskin Robbin’s Taipan and I bought a Choo Choo Train ice cream cake. I had a hard time making decision which cake to choose but at the end I caught a glimpse of the cake right in front of me only a bit on a lower shelf. Apsal lah xnampak awal2 kan. Actually we planned to buy from Secret Recipe but we came across BR first so I just got in there. Taipan tu sentiasa jam and we wasn’t sure where SR is actually located at. But I have been hoping to try BR ice cream birthday cake for already quite some times. So, it was a correct choice actually. We also stopped by at a convenient store and bought a packet of balloons. Reached home, stored the cake in the fridge and we got readied ourselves for breaking fast. After breaking fast and praying, hubby and I rushed and prepared for cake cutting session. I took out my camera and hubby called out for others to join in.

Brief cake cutting session in between Maghrib and Isya. Lepas tu birthday boy ntah ke mana buat hal sendiri je :P

Birthday boy with balloons, new jinbei and school bag. At the moment school bag buat isi diaper masa jalan2 ye.

Calit2 kek yang dah tinggal separuh.

Siap sebut, “Oishii yo!”. Tu yang xsangka and xtahan dengar tu hihi :D

Macam ni lagi best.

We sang song, took some pictures and cut the cake. The birthday boy was the least to care about what was happening. We the adults who were busy indulging the deliciously sinful cake. I think the cake topping tasted so sweet. Xboleh makan selalu. The cake consisted of chocolate cake rolled with ice cream. It was mocha with walnuts if I’m not mistaken and it was so yummylicicous. After feeding Ihsan his proper dinner, SILs and I blown out some balloons and took out the cake again. We let Ihsan did whatever he wished to the cake and let him play with the balloons. I got a number of interesting pictures from that painstakingly tiring entertaining session. But it was so fun! :D Baru tau kerja kids photographer ni penat! But of course my pictures weren’t that beautiful. Yelah time ambil gambar baru nak practice. Waktu lain xnak belajar :P We got all sweaty from cheering up and throwing the balloons. We stopped after the birthday boy himself already became annoyed and cried hihi :P After that only we cleaned up everything, rested and solat Terawikh.

Potong sendiri sampai terpelanting topping kek.

Makan macam ni terus. Pak Ngah suap sebab Ihsan dah xsabar sangat.

Macam ni jadinya rupa kek.

2 orang Si Masams *smooches!*

Then on the 2nd Syawal before heading back to Batu Pahat we celebrated Ihsan’s birthday for the second time with my family in Semenyih. In the afternoon hubby went out to buy a cake but unfortunately the SR there was still closed so hubby got no choice but to buy a Black Forest cake from the King’s. We also blown out the a few balloons left and tied them to the dining chair. After that we prepared for the cake cutting session. I took a video and some pictures of Ihsan doing whatever he wished to the cake. He poked with his finger, pushed, stabbed and cut the cake with the plastic knife. Only after that we sang the song and ate the cake. Ihsan really liked the cake and this time I let him eat a lot. So that was it. Just simple celebrations with loved ones at homes. I pray that my beloved son will grow up as a Soleh, healthy, clever, successful and happy boy always InsyaAllah :)

Aidil Fitri Celebration 2011

2011-09-09T16:52:00.001+09:00

Alhamdulillah this year we managed to celebrate Hari Raya Aidil Fitri together with family here in Msia. Before this we had been celebrating Raya in Nihon for 4 consecutive years for me while 8 years for hubby if I’m not mistaken. We celebrated the first Raya as husband and wife in 2005 apart from each other. Hubby was studying in Nihon while I was also still studying in Msia. Then, during 2006 and onwards only we celebrated Raya together in Nihon. But Raya in Nihon at our place in Matsukawa wasn’t as happening as how Raya is usually celebrated in Msia. Only during last year, on 2010 we made an effort to celebrate Raya at the Malaysia Embassy in Tokyo merely the purpose to make it a proper Raya celebration for Ihsan.

As for this year, we celebrated Ramadhan and Syawal altogether in Msia. Although we haven’t been experiencing the happening atmosphere during Ramadhan and Syawal for a few years before this but we still went through Ramadhan and Syawal moderately this year. Xdelah beriya apa pun. Utamakan apa yang perlu je. Usually all these years we have been listening about couple arguing who’s kampung to go back to during Raya since we never experienced that Before. But this year we still didn’t argue because we planned our Raya holiday to be comfortable and fit our own schedule. However we have started finally felt for the first time how tensed was it to plan the schedule during Raya. Living in Msia means our life will always revolves around the family of both sides and so we have to consider them in whatever decision we make. Now not only our feelings that matter, but theirs as well.

Previously we spent our Ramadhan in Subang and Alhamdulillah this year we managed to attend Terawikh prayer at the surau, join the moreh, go to Bazar Ramadhan and experienced the joyous mood in preparing for Raya celebration. Unlike the previous years we only look forward on the usual ibadah that are synonym with the fasting month. Then, the 1st syawal would always turn out as other ordinary day once the Ramadhan end. But this year we have to take note on baju Raya, duit Raya, kuih Raya and etc! Bila dah lama xraya ni baru nampak the latter sebenarnya taklah penting sangat. Jadi lebih baik dititikberatkan perkara2 yang lebih utama macam ibadah2 dibulan Ramadhan and Syawal. This is a reminder to myself so that hopefully I won’t forget about this. Mana tau dah byk kali Raya kat Msia ni nanti dah lupa apa yang sepatutnya ditumpukan dulu.

Anyway… we went back to my parents’ house in Semenyih during the last day of Ramadhan since they arrived from Sungai Petani during a week before Syawal. Once arrived at Semenyih an unloading our stuffs into the room and rested for a while, we went to my grandparents’ house by car at a kampung nearby which is also in Semenyih. We went by 2 cars. My mother cooked Nasi Ayam and my grandmother also prepared a few other dishes. We broke fast together on that evening. My aunty and her children from Sungai Buloh also joined us. On that night we heard the Takbir Raya from the mosque nearby. It was a soothing melody we haven’t heard alive for years :) In my mother’s kampung, the villagers (usually men) will be divided to a few groups and each group will go to each house in the assigned area to hantar doa and takbir. So, after Isya we prepared some simple dishes and waited for them to come. We went back to my parents’ house right after that.

We celebrated the 1st Syawal in Semenyih. At first we thought to perform Solat Sunat Raya in the kampung but my mother got her gastric coming back the first time after a few years so we just Solat Sunat Raya in the taman. We went back to kampung after that and kept receiving relatives to the house. Just after Zohor only we went to a few relatives houses in the kampung. We went back to my parents’ house just before Asar. On the 2nd Syawal, we went back to hubby’s grandmother’s house on his mother’s side in Batu Pahat. We left Semenyih at about 3.00 pm and waited for hubby’s parents at R&R Ayer Keroh. Then we followed them until we reached our destination. Majority of Ibu’s sibling also came back to Batu Pahat so we got to meet almost all relatives there. The house was full and the cars were lined up in the drive way towards out of the fence. Kalau semua balik agaknya penuh kereta nak masuk lorong ke rumah tu. Owh by the way, we borrowed my Ayah’s car to Batu Pahat.

Ihsan clad in full Raya attire. Handsome kan? hihi :D Baju Raya tahun lepas je ni. Besar sangat xboleh pakai. Ini pun this year kena jahit sket pendekkan lagi. Agaknya tahun depan boleh buat baju Raya lagi. Jimat kan? haha :P

Pon pon! Ihsan nak gi Raya ni! My mother cooked laksa on the 1st Syawal. So as you see bekas2 kat belakang tu ready untuk dibawa balik kampung. My nenek just cooked lontong for this year xbuat lemang sebab xlarat.

Kat rumah Nyang penat ulang-alik depan belakang. I took out my brother’s buai masa dia baby dulu. Ihsan suka je sebab xpernah naik buai. At last tertidur nyenyak.

Pengantin xberapa baru :D

My family yang xcukup ahli. My nenek was in the kitchen. My another brother beraya di kampus je sebab cuti pendek sangat. Orang lain haa ada je bersepah2 dalam rumah tu.

We stayed in Batu Pahat just for 1 night. So we were the first to leave from Batu Pahat while most of the relatives stayed there for 2 nights. But Ibu, Abah and sisters in law followed us suit only a bit later during the midnight. We reached Semenyih at about 8.30 pm while the inlaws reached Subang at 4.00 am of the next day. We went back earlier because hubby has started to work on Friday and Saturday. My parents also went back to Sungai Petani on the same Friday. So we stayed in Semenyih until Sunday. Macam tu je lah Raya kami :) Ihsan got many duit Raya, Alhamdulillah. Dah selamat Mama transfer masuk Tabung Haji :D Owh it was the first time also we have to give out duit Raya. Nasib baik xterlupa nak tukar duit dekat bank and beli envelope. Alhamdulillah juga and semoga budak2 tu happy lah dapat duit Raya xseberapa and makin murah rezeki kami InsyaAllah hihi :D

Eh tapi Raya kan sebulan :P Hopefully we can still enjoy Raya mood everywhere. Banyak lagi Raya dishes yang xrasa tau. Siapa2 nak jemput open house haa sila lah. Kami xboleh jemput lagi sebab kami belum ada rumah sendiri hihi :D Ops before I forgot although it’s a bit late, I would like to wish Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri to all of you from me and my family. Maaf Zahir & Batin kalau ada salah dan silap sepanjang I menulis dan sepanjang kita berhubungan in the blog world ni :)

Thumbs Up To Kuroneko Yamato

2011-08-19T23:37:00.002+09:00

Obviously xtau nak tulis tajuk apa :P Right now I'am all alone in the house right now. Even Ihsan is out following Jiddi, Jiddah and Auntie Fatin to fetch for Auntie Husna from her school's hostel in Kajang. Later they are going straight to the Bazar Ramadhan at USJ 4. Although the latter sounds interesting but I didn't want to tag along because I feel quite unenergetic today probably due to the extreme heat. Today's scorching hotness really draining me up. It started since last night causing me kept waking up from sleep. Maybe it's going to rain soon. I hope it's going to be a downpour. Just now it was storming and I hurriedly took in my dried laundry. But actually the sun still shining brightly outside.

Anyway honestly I have lots of things keep wandering in my mind. That makes me just can't stop thinking. Thinking until feeling like crying isk isk! Sometimes this makes me so tired mentally and hence physically. Settling down is good but sometimes some things unfavorable are hard to run from. Like it or not you still have to deal with them. When I feel like at a junction, I would instantly reminisce my life back in Nihon. How my life was so bliss! Of course the life was still imperfect but at least I was happy. I hate to make decision when actually I can't decide which to choose. Before, there were excuses for me to not think about stuffs that I don't like. But as for now I can't run anymore. Decision has to be made. It's not that I'm not happy with my life right now. But this is the process towards achieving happiness. It has to start all over again. Just like how I went through it 5 years ago when I first reached Nihon. Well... I need to remind myself to be positive and never look back. Life must go on. It's hard to be positive when some times your motivation is low. Maybe I need to find good books and good routine to start with. Wah dah sebulan balik baru nak start ke? :P I mean... properly lah this time. Before this on and off je depending on my mood. But most of the times I just loved to procrastinate. So not good right? :P

Owh yes, all of them have come home. They brought some foods and chrysanthemum tea OMG! I have been salivating over that tea seriously since past 1 week. I was supposed to buy that tea already last week but I changed my mind during the last minute to sugarcane juice. Causing me to keep imagining of that tea every now and then. Yes... I may be craving for foods but NO... I'm not pregnant just yet. We have been busy since before we left Nihon and we just started to breath again recently. By other words we couldn't concentrate on our plan of expanding the family during last month. We are not in a rush but perhaps there will be good news for us in time to come, InsyaAllah. Tomorrow we are going back to my grandparents' house on my mother's side which is also in Semenyih. Because our personal goods already arrived from Nihon last week and will be sent to my grandparents' house tomorrow morning. We used Kuroneko Yamato moving service and Alhamdulillah we are just beyond satisfied and happy with the service. Barang xsampai lagi esok baru nak sampai dah puas hati haa camner tu? Pandai2 la imagine dia punya service macam mana :) It's a door to door and it saved us a lot of hassles. Tapi bukan sebab dia door to door tu yang menyebabkan I puas hati. Tapi cara diorang buat kerja tu sangat bagus.

There will be 42 parcels comprising of big and small size all together. I already told my grandmother the number of parcels but I'm sure she will be shocked to see how much spaces in her house will be consumed by our goods. Although her house is spacious but at least a little she must be feeling unhappy to see all the stacks of parcels. I don't think all of them can be put in one corner so it must be ugly to see the stacks of parcels at a few spaces. But she's understanding enough and I'm sure of that. Perhaps we can find a house suitable for us as soon as possible. The latest would be until early of next year before we could move into our own house. Anyway... we are going to break fast together with them tomorrow and will spend the night at my parents' house then later. I'm not sure yet whether my brother will join us. But I hope he would come home tomorrow. Ops before I forgot, Ihsan's birthday is on coming Sunday! But we are yet to have any plan due to we are still in fasting month and also on Sunday we are coming back here in USJ. I have a thought of making a cake for him but since we are not in our own house yet so I need to pass on that plan. But maybe we are going to order a cake for him and celebrate his birthday twice. First with hubby's family and later with my family during coming Syawal. Owh I will get some balloons for him too :)

Adapting Well In Msia :)

2011-08-16T00:00:00.000+09:00

Assalamualaikum... :) First and foremost Selamat Menunaikan Ibadah Ramadhan untuk semua. Although agak terlambat but takpelah better late than never kan? Alhamdulillah 17 Ogos ni genap sebulan kami balik ke Msia for good. Rasa macam dah lama sangat2 tapi sebenarnya baru sebulan? Kadang2 rasa xsangka juga. Rasa macam dah lama. Mungkin sebab banyak sangat things yang took place in within this 1 month period membuatkan I rasa terlalu pantas masa berlalu. Yelah kitorang balik haritu 2 weeks before Ramadhan. Sekarang ni diam xdiam kita dah dipertengahan Ramadhan. Okaylah kita flash back balik sikit towards our last days in Nihon. Haritu I stopped on last Thursday kan? So on last Friday and Saturday tu macam biasa keep repacking our luggage and cleaning up the house. In fact Saturday tu jadual sangat packed and kitorang mengemas rumah hingga ke saat terakhir before keluar rumah hihi :P Yelah sebab a few things nak taknak xboleh nak simpan atau buang terus sebab masih nak guna. Tapi dalam sibuk2 tu sempat lagi kitorang gi mandi sungai for the last time and makan tendon for dinner. Actually hari Sabtu tu juga ada matsuri kat pekan Matsukawa. Tapi sebab kitorang dinner kat Jusco so xsempat lah nak gi matsuri. Considering ada a few things lagi nak buat. Masa on the way balik tu cuma nampak Nihonjin masing2 tengah bersurai. Last time lah dapat tengok orang pakai yukata masa natsu :)

Balik je rumah kami terus proceeded buat apa2 patut. Malam terakhir in Nihon tu hubby langsung xtidur sebab dia buat kerja sampai tengah malam. Nanti subuh2 pagi dah nak bangun. Dia takut kalau dia terlepas xterjaga. I plak after tolong hubby terus tidur sebab kepala dah mula sakit. Nasib baiklah hubby memang xtidur sebab I pun langsung xsedar alarm dah bunyi 3 4 kali masa subuh tu. Kalau ditakdirkan dua2 tidur, harus kami terlepas flight haritu :P Nampak je lepas pos barang2 dengan movers tu macam dah xbanyak kerja nak buat. Tapi banyak lagi rupanya! Repacking luggage je dah berapa kali sebab ada je barang tertinggal lah apa lah sampai lah ke saat nak keluar rumah, cuci dapur, tukar kertas yang dah berlubang2 dekat pintu and tingkap tolak2 tu (Ihsan lah suka koyak2), cuci bathroom, giving out stock foods (penat juga buat kerja ni tau!) and etc. Tapi Alhamdulillah kami berjaya bangun awal. Sempat lah bergambar sikit2 depan rumah. Masa balik tu ramai juga yang menghantar kitorang ke tepi highway. Masing2 muka baru bangun tidur lagi. Bangun semata2 nak hantar hubby hihi :P Dah nak balik tu pun masih dapat duit drpd a few person. Pemurah betul orang Jepun ni bagi hadiah duit. Segan betul dengan diorang. Kitorang gi airport dengan highway taxi. It was actually a big van. Okaylah smooth journey cuma cara driver tu drive je xsmooth. Seksa betul menahan azab hoho :P Belum apa2 lagi Ihsan dah muntah kat Mama. I pun dah hampir2 nak muntah juga tapi nasib baiklah sempat sampai airport.

Sampai je airport Nagoya terus gi toilet cuci apa2 yang patut. Gi cari makan and sempatlah gi bergambar sikit2 kat skyway. Then terus checked-in. Alhamdulillah our flight smooth and very satisfied dengan SIA punya service. The stewardess pun very helpful sebab kitorang bawa baby. Rasanya Ihsan was the youngest sebab xnampak baby lain kecil drpd Ihsan. As for Ihsan okaylah boleh bagi full 10 markah. He behaved like a normal baby. Tetap menguji kesabaran and membuatkan Mama Papa drained out. Macam biasa ada orang pandang2 dengan keletah dia tu. Ihsan pun ada nangis2 sikit. Ada jerit2 sikit and macam2 lagi. But as long as he didn't behaved extraordinarily out of normal macam makhluk asing ke haa kira okaylah tu kan :D Adat lah bawa baby. Kira okaylah Ihsan xmembuatkan Papa Mama trauma ke. But still at this moment I rasa cukup lah naik long hours flight dengan Ihsan sebab penat nak layan dia. Tambah2 sekarang ni dah pandai ada kehendak sendiri. Nak jalan sesuka hati lah apa lah. So tunggu dia besar sikit baru jalan2 jauh2 lagi. Setiap kali teringat naik flight dengan dia je dah rasa letih. Biarlah letih tu hilang dulu haha :D Kami transit kat Spore and then sampai KLIA pukul 8.00 pm kot xingat. Lepas tu terus gi makan kat restoran and barulah balik rumah. Phew!

Pukul 4.30 am dah get ready depan rumah. Dah cerah masa ni. Tapi still boleh tengok bulan warna putih. Yelah subuh pun masuk pukul 3.00 am masa summer. This is right before leaving our home sweet home. The home which hold so many memories. Cukuplah gambar satu ni je dulu. Xsempat nak edit gambar2 lain.

At this moment we are still living in USJ Subang Jaya at hubby's parents' home sebabnya hubby pinjam kereta ibu dia untuk pergi balik kerja. Sesekali kitorang stay kat my parents' home kat Semenyih kalau diorang balik. Rumah Semenyih ni persinggahan je sesekali my parents and adik2 balik. Cadangnya bila dah pencen next year baru my parents akan menetap terus kat situ. Actually tempat kerja hubby lagi dekat dengan Semenyih tapi tulah rasanya lepas raya lah kot baru pindah sana. Rumah Semenyih tu xde siapa2. At least kat Subang ni Ihsan and I ada kawan so xsunyi sangat. I pun suka je dok rumah PIL. Lagipun ada urusan yang still xsettle so lebih senang duduk sini sebab PIL ada boleh tolong. I plak xmahir lagi drive and tengah nak belajar driving semula hoho :P Dah 10 tahun xpegang stereng okay. Dahlah xconfident. Tangok cara orang Msia bawa kereta lagilah rasa takut. Tapi nak taknak kena mahirkan jugak! So after raya ni InsyaAllah kereta hubby pun dah sampai and our second car pun dah dapat so bolehlah duduk Semenyih. Iye... kami masih duduk menumpang sebab masih mencari2 rumah yang sesuai. Rumah tu of course lah banyak tapi nak jumpa yang menepati citarasa and yang paling penting budget tu adalah susah. Kalau budget besar xpelah xpayah nak pening2 kepala sangat sambar je mana berkenan betul tak? hihi :P

Owh ye... Alhamdulillah we are adapting well in Msia although of course at times sangat rindu Nihon. Yet, life must go on. Biasalah first 2 weeks tu payah nak tidur sebab rasa panasnyaaa! Yet since balik dari Nhon pun time natsu so most of the times rasa Msia lagi sejuk je dari Nihon hihi :P Ihsan pun xbanyak masalah. Masa awal2 tu je ada runny nose sikit kami anak beranak tapi sekejap je Alhamdulillah. Seminggu pertama tu je dia cranky sikit2 sebab perubahan suasana tapi lepas tu okay dah. Riang gembira je dia sebab kat sini ramai tukang layan and asyik keluar naik kereta je. Masa mula2 balik haritu kami terus je proceed settlekan segala macam urusan. Gi Pejabat Pendaftaran Putrajaya untuk renew IC hubby, buat MyKid Ihsan, buat cabutan sijil kelahiran Ihsan, cari handset and line, gi bank, gi bank, gi bank dan gi bank lagi. Wah macam banyak je duit kan kerja pergi bank hahaha :P Bukannya urusan duit sangat tapi nak activate account lah, buka account lah apa lah segala mak nenek. Selain tu kitorang jalan2 juga survey kawasan (macam YB lah plak) rumah. Tengok rumah sana sini sinun. Kadang2 terjumpa rumah yang okay tapi kawasan tak okay. Itulah pentingnya kena gi tengok kan. Lepas tu gi showroom and booked for second car. Kereta biasa je sesuailah untuk I yang xmahir and nak belajar semula bawa kereta. Ambil yang murah je (which is xdelah murah kan sebab bukannya puluh2 sen tapi tetap puluh2 hibu :P) sebab at least kalau I tergesel2 bontot kereta (na'uzubillah) dengan pokok ke xdelah ralat sangat and xdelah teruk kena marah :D

So sekarang ni cuma tinggal a few urusan saja lagi xsettle. As for example sign up for insurance, apply for phone line and internet kat rumah Semenyih, a few more urusan bank, immunization Ihsan, urusan raya (wah 1st time after dah lamaa xraya!) and etc. Banyak sangat benda yang nak kena fikir regarding settling down ni. Penat jugalah. Tapi dulu pun banyak juga benda nak kena fikir. Tapi mungkin sebab semuanya hubby buatkan so xdelah rasa apa. Sekarang ni kena share sama2 buat itu ini so mungkin sebab tulah terasa busy and berat je. Dah banyak plak komitmen. Sekarang ni xboleh nak larilah kalau hubby minta tolong suruh settlekan itu ini. Kalau dulu boleh bagi excuse xtau Nihongo. Eh xpayah bagi excuse pun sebab automatik awal2 lagi hubby dulu yang pening kepala. Even though berkaitan dengan sakit puan macam contohnya masa pregnant dulu hihi :P Hmm banyak sebenarnya nak cerita. Tapi as for starting cukuplah ni dulu secara summary merangkumi semua. Nanti update lagi. Again, selamat berpuasa and selamat buka puasa :D

Last Thursday In Nihon

2011-07-15T01:52:00.006+09:00

Looks like I'm gonna keep going to sleep just after Subuh prayer everyday throughout this last week of stay in Japan. Thursday was quite productive I must say although we started late. As I mentioned in my previous entry I was having a bad headache. So I woke up late in the morning at about 10.30 am. Yet, I still felt restless. No doubt because I slept late on the night before. Anyway after waking up, we had breakfast then I straightly cleaning up the house. I just rearranged all the stuffs to a proper conditions at the right place and vacuumed all parts in the house. I couldn't delay doing that because Ihsan kept picking small rubbish and ate them. Then after that I had my shower, performed Zuhur prayer and had lunch with Ihsan. Hubby had lunch a bit earlier since he needed to go to the kaisya. After having lunch, I put Ihsan to sleep and we both had our nap together. Luckily I managed to sleep very soundly. I guessed I was just so tired from the insufficient sleep and added with the chores earlier. I realized hubby got home and he talked to me about money. But I just continued to sleep. Then he woke me up at 4.00 pm. Ihsan also woke up right after me. Done with Asar prayer then I started to prepare for dinner. While hubby went out again to withdraw some money. He also stopped at the supa to buy some fruits and reached home at about 5.00 pm.

I was done with the cooking at about 5.30 pm and straightly started cleaning up the kitchen before hubby joined later to sort out all the garbage into its respective garbage plastic and clean up the entrance area. I wiped all the electrical appliances like blender, flask, rice cooker, microwave oven and etc. I also sorted out the food stocks and divided them into the right boxes to be given to my friend R-san later. Then I cleaned up the side counter and rack. Lastly I cleaned up the fridge. I stopped to give Ihsan a bath, take my bath and perform Maghrib prayer and Yasin recitation as usual for dear 'Abid. Later after done with dinner and Isya' prayer I continued cleaning up the kitchen. I cleaned up the sink counter, threw expired foods stocks, rearranged the stuffs in the kitchen and etc. Done with the kitchen, I continued with organizing household stuffs in the rack at the washing area and ended by cleaning up the toilet. Everything was settled at 12.30 am. Then I have my rest by sitting in front of this laptop while finishing up all the leftovers and a mug of orange juice. The mild sweetness and cold juice tasted so delicious and it gave me a long Ahh~~~ :) But I hope I could lose back the extra weight I accumulated lately from the late night eating during the coming Ramadhan. Phew... now I'm satisfied because there are not many works left. There are things that I noticed we forgot to post along yesterday with the movers. But I still hope we could bring them back.

I need to see whether there is enough place in our luggage for us to bring back all the stuffs by ourselves. So later today I plan to start packing our luggage. Besides that I'm going to iron our clothes and finish up cleaning the entire house by tomorrow except the bathroom. Because that's hubby's job. So that on Saturday I could just relax and cherishing every last second of my time here in our home sweet home. I'm sure gonna miss this home which hold so loads of memories. Anyway... I wished I could make schedule entries for Saturday and Sunday because the wifi could be used up until today only. I'm not sure at what time it will be terminated. But my mind just can't think anymore. I'm running out of words. I wished I could write about our first and second home here in Matsukawa, our visit to Yamanshi previously and during the past Golden Week holiday or talk about hubby's birthday that held last week. But I guess I just might need to keep postponing until when I'm already in Msia. Perhaps I'm not gonna forget the important plots of the stories. I feel so sleepy right now. And good it's just time for Subuh prayer. So... until next time.

Last Wednesday In Nihon

2011-07-14T00:00:00.003+09:00

Ouch ouch my head is throbbing! Dia punya sakit nyut nyut nyut. Haa bayangkan lah. Ni gara2 xcukup tidur ye sebab gigih stay up nak update blog. Sekali update punya lah lama macam nak buat thesis kaedahnya padahal beberapa paragraphs je. I really don't know what's my problem. Ingatkan tulis in English je lama. Rupanya in Malay pun lama juga. Susah sangat nak buat ayat. Bukan susah apa pun. Tapi susah sebab diri sendiri ada habit cerewet and suka perhati benda2 kecil in detail. Nak fikir guna perkata 'je' or 'saja' or 'sahaja' pun susah nak decide wahaha! Itulah dia kalau orang skema badut perfectionist memang macam ni ye kawan2. So siapa yang susah, diri sendiri yang susah. Kawan2 cuma susah sebab susah2 je klik masuk sini tapi xde update baru hihi :P

Ihsan is already asleep and hubby too. I was the one who first got into the bedroom right after Isya' prayer and I thought of getting a nap to ease my headache before waking up again. Sekali bila my 2 heroes dah snoring away I still couldn't get myself to sleep. Tension betul lah. I memang jenis susah nak tertidur. Nak2 plak tadi dalam kepala asyik rewind lagu NHK in English version Try It, Clap Your Hands, Spring Has Come Up and etc dalam kepala ni. Ni akibat dok dengar Ihsan dok main musical book dia tu satu hari 1000 kali. Memang berhantu betul lah melekat dalam my CPU dalam kepala ni. Dok elak2 sambil baca zikir ke apa ke tetiba tup2 dia terselit masuk balik lagu2 tu. Sabar je lah.

Anyway siang tadi forwarders or movers tu datang kul 10.00 am. 3 orang saja termasuk ketua dia. Tapi okay lah 3 orang pun sebab itu pun dah penuh ruang dalam rumah ni untuk diorang buat kerja. Kalau lagi ramai silap2 kami kena dok luar rumah plak hihi :P Sampai2 je dah ucap selamat, hubby bagi arahan and tunjukkan sekali areas yang nak dipack. After that ketua dia bahagi2kan tugas then terus diorang start buat kerja dengan pantas. Nasib baik dah bahagikan bahagian yang nak dipack so senanglah diorang buat kerja. Diorang check juga satu2 apa isi kat dalam, bungkus satu2 mana yang perlu especially fragile things and senaraikan setiap parcel yang dah dipacked dalam list including with the description. Diorang tu tinggi2, besar and big built. As for ketua dia pun dah 20 years buat kerja ni. Jadi memang cekaplah zasssss je dah siap sekotak2. By 12.30 pm semua dah siap. Yelah 3 orang je kan. Kalau ramai lagi cepat lah. Barang pun banyak. Hubby hidang air kosong sejuk yang memang sedia ada dalam fridge tu je. Berpeluh2 diorang buat kerja basah lencun although dah pasang aircond and buka semua tingkap and sliding doors.

Owh by the way kami guna Si Kucing Hitam Yamato. Atau pun Kuroneko Yamato. Atau nama pendek selalunya orang panggil Kuroneko or Yamato je. Memang senang lah guna service movers yang macam ni sebab dia door to door. Cuma of course mahal. Sebab tu kami berkira2 juga bawa balik yang penting2 saja sebab dia kira ikut meter padu. Lagipun given kami balik xduduk rumah sendiri so xkisah sangat lah kalau banyak barang yang ditinggalkan pun. Tapi ni company uruskan. Kalau sendirian berhad uruskan haruslah ambil je 1 kontena and tanpa segan-silu boleh angkut je semua barang masuk penuhkan satu kontena tu. Cuma penat lah kena pack sendiri barang2 and dah sampai Msia until port saja then kena upah forwarder lain plak uruskan sampai ke rumah. As for us, xpayah pening2 dah. Tunggu je nanti sampai ke rumah. Diorang packed pun cantik so InsyaAllah barang2 selamat.

Overall semua tadi ada 42 parcels. Terlebih daripada yang dianggarkan. Asalnya dia aggarkan 35 parcels atau boleh kurang lagi. Terbalik plak :P Nanti barang2 tu akan dihantar direct terus ke my grandparents's house which is also in Semenyih juga. Hohoho sian lah diorang rumah penuh dengan kotak nak raya nanti. Tapi xpe dah minta izin. Nanti susun kat dapur bawah. Atuk nenek terpaksa pasrah demi cucu kesayangan hahaha :P Eh xdelah cucu lain pun kesayangan juga. So barang2 tu nanti kami akan angkut sikit2 je dulu depends on mana je nak guna. The rest memang tinggal situ je dulu until dah masuk rumah sendiri which is entah bila. But we target the latest until end of the year lah perhaps dah boleh tinggal di rumah sendiri. Takpun rumah sewa lah. Kalau ikut schedule diorang bagi tadi barang2 akan sampai on August 5th. Then kena tunggu custom clearance lah. Kalau cepat, cepat lah. Kalau lambat, nasib ler xleh buat apa. Memang tang part ni lah xsuka. Harapnya cepat2 lah diorang buat kerja and xperlu hold lama2. Paling lambat pun probably by August 20th lah more or less barang akan sampai rumah.

Hmm harap2 cepat lah sebab dah nak dekat raya. Owh ye before forwarders datang tadi I dah keluarkan lagi barang2 from our luggage. So InsyaAllah muat lah nk letak barang2 lain the rest including foods. Tinggalkan baju beberapa helai je. Baju raya kitorang termasuk Ihsan punya pun masuk sekali dalam parcel. Haa so kalau sampai lambat harus lah gelabah nanti nak cekau baju raya baru. Tadi lepas diorang balik baru kitorang solat, makan apa semua. Hubby plak terus keluar naik densya nak setelkan urusan. Sakit kaki berjalan semalam xlega lagi hari ni tambah lagi. Gigih betul dah jadi macam zaman nak mulakan hidup dulu hihi :P Dah lama xberjalan kaki or exercise haa semput lah! Nak2 plak tengah panas ni. Dia kata tadi dia hampir2 dah nak sewa kereta. Gigih dia berjalan jauh. Sekali bila dah sampai orang kedai cakap sumimasennn kereta semua dah kena booked tsk tsk! Xpelah kalau rasa nak nanti later boleh sewa 1 hari je. Boleh gi mandi sungai lagi like last week or gi ulang lagi makan sushi ke tendon ke taiyaki ke kan Yang kan? haha :P Harus dia xjadi nak sewa kalau baca ni.

Masa hubby keluar tu I tried to sleep. Memang rasa nak merangkak dah masa tu sebab kepala berdenyut2. Ajak Ihsan tidur sekali. Sempat lah I tidur sekejap tapi terjaga2. Xhilang sakit kepala tu. Tidur petang memang xbest sebab I susah nak tidur juga. Then dah lewat, bangun gak masak dinner segala. Ingatkan malam ni juga boleh settle kemas rumah yang bersepah2 ni. Haih esok siang la jawabnya. Hubby pun tadi joined I and konon jap lagi nak bangun semula. Tu dah sedap krohhh-ing away. Xpelah esok dia boleh bangun awal. Badan dah fully recharged senang sket nak kemas rumah. Plus dia ada urusan lain lagi nak kena gi kaisya. Owh ye cerita sampingan. Fake samurai sword yang hubby posted last week kena tahan kastam hahaha :D Tah pape je. Okay lah... memang dah kerja diorang kena berhati2 plus it's a rare thing pun kat Msia so mana lah diorang tahu apa2. Baik lah faham lahhh. Tapi sebab pedang tu banyak plak hal nak kena buat. Tunggu balik Msia nanti baru settle kan. Kalau malas sangat bagi je lah pedang tu kat kastam tu. Xkoser nak bersusah-payah. Serious! Murah je pun and kami pun dapat free. Cuma rugi lah dah bayar postage fees 4000 Yen. Boleh beli momo 12 biji. Lagi sedap!

Last Tuesday In Nihon

2011-07-13T01:06:00.003+09:00

It's 1.00 am in the morning. So yesterday was our last Tuesday in Nihon. Nothing interesting took place except just ordinary stuffs regarding going back for good. I'm already so sleepy but I don't want to miss updating the blog. Furthermore I'm using laptop so I can type faster without worrying of making noise. I usually type very roughly. Hubby always says that I damaged his keyboard. Because when I type, the sound of my fingers tapping on the keyboard could be heard loudly from afar :P The desktop has been sold off to second hand shop so I'm forced to use the laptop. Actually I'm more comfortable with the desktop because the monitor has big screen and the desktop can be left ON for 24 hours. But we both don't usually do that with the laptop.

Anyway as I said in the previous entry, hubby went to Nagoya in the wee morning of Tuesday right after Subuh prayer. So actually right after updating my blog, I performed Subuh prayer and straightly woke hubby up. I waited for him to leave before going to sleep. Then I only woke up at about 10.00 am. Hubby reached the port at about 7.00 am. After done sending the car, he left to Matsumoto. But his bus was at 12.00 pm. So he reached Matsumoto at about 3.30 pm. Once reached Matsumoto he rushed to the office and settled some more stuffs regarding car. Then only after that he got on the train and reached Matsukawa at about 9.20 pm. He got home at about 9.30 pm. He looked so obviously exhausted. Well, it was a very hot day and he needed to do a lot of walking right after sending the car. Luckily I remembered to put 1 spare shirt into his backpack and he could make a change because the one he was wearing earlier was drenched with sweat. My handset has been cut off last Saturday. So, hubby just emailed me from his Iphone and I kept checking my mail to know his status. I didn't get to ask anything since he was so tired. He took his bath, did a bit of his stuffs and straightly went to sleep.

As for me, today I did some more organizing, separating and checking all the things. I thought I have done a lot but there are still stuffs keep coming for me to work on. I also tried packing all the other stuffs into our luggage because I wanted to estimate the weigh of our luggage. I don't want for us to bring back heavy luggage and I'm scared we would be going over limit. Because I'm so sure there would be unnoticed stuffs appearing suddenly later and that would take some more space in our luggage. But the problem is I really don't know what else to take out. I tried to put only important stuffs into our luggage and left the rest for the shipping. Worst scenario might be we need to post a few stuffs by air mail. Actually, I bought a few Japanese foods and combined with a few more foods that I brought from Msia so those are the things that already consumed some weight. I need to bring them back home because of course I want to eat them later and another half of them are our supplements and Ihsan's. I thought we could ship them together with our stuffs but the forwarder officer already told us foods and a few other stuffs are not allowed. Hmm we will see how.

So just now I have just finished putting sticker onto the stuffs that ready to be packed. I just put on the white sticker without writing any note. There are a few places which I just put 1 sticker representing all the things put in that area. It's a hassle to lable even the very small things. Honestly there are still a few things I haven't sorted out like the shoes in the shoe cabinet. I need to ask hubby which shoes he doesn't want and etc but he wasn't around. But we can still do that tomorrow right before the forwarders come. Like hubby's tool box... pun xkemas lagi. I xsentuh pun because I thought dia memang nak kemas macam tu. But he assumed me to kemas rupanya. Mana lah I tau. Xde wayar bersambung dari CPU dia ke CPU I so xleh lah main assume2 je. I ni jenis kena detail and organize. Nak buat apa2 kena cakap jelas2 apa benda, pukul berapa dekat mana. Kan senang macam tu? Xpelah itu esok dia buat. I'm also already very tired. Malas nak fikir benda lain. My worry with luggage pun xsettle lagi hihi :P

Tadi petang my friend R-san came and she brought kangkung that she bought from supa. Dah selamat masak kangkung goreng sambal belacan. Sedap! Sempat lah sembang2 sekejap dengan dia. Lastly I cakap lah I dah nak balik. Rasa xsangka time flies. She brought his youngest son along. I cakap dulu T-kun ni kecil je macam Ihsan sekarang ni. Now T-kun pun dah besar dah sekolah. And she said yes lah. Sian dia nanti xde kawan dah kat sini. She is a good friend. Although I realize I don't really be a good friend for her... like jarang sangat pergi rumah dia etc. But I'm sure going to miss her. She is already like a big sister to me :) Okay lah nak tidur. Esok kena bangun awal. Forwarder datang pukul 10.00 am. Pergh malasnya! :P

Last Monday In Nihon

2011-07-12T02:06:00.003+09:00

Wah dah pukul 2 pagi tapi apsal xtidur lagi ni? Padahal sebenarnya mata dah ngantuk sangat. Konon nak tidur awal tapi huh xde maknanya. Dah termelekat depan laptop ni jadi terlama plak. Tapi tadi pun baru habis buat kerja semua pukul 12 tengah malam. So memang dah lewat pun. Kalau nak masuk tidur sekarang pun dah nak dekat subuh. Baik solat dulu kalau tak nanti terbabas. Actually since hari Ahad baru kami betul2 start mengemas rumah. So sampai setakat tengah malam Isnin ni Alhamdulillah banyak yang dah siap. Itu pun setakat asing2 kan je barang2. Sebab forwarder yang akan pack kan. Forwarder akan datang hari Rabu ni untuk pack barang. So bila diorang dah angkut barang2 baru akan start mengemas rumah plak so that boleh tinggalkan rumah dalam keadaan proper. Actually barang kami memang banyak sangat. Standard lah orang dah berkeluarga and ada anak sorang. Tapi banyak barang yang kami tinggalkan je. Macam barang2 elektrik and elektronik memang tinggal. Perabot2 memang tak bawa balik lah. Tilam2 pun tinggal. Banyak lagi lah barang2 asas lain yang tinggal. Kami bawa balik mana yang penting je. Lagipun kami balik ni bukannya terus duduk rumah sendiri.

Buat permulaan akan duduk rumah parents hubby kat USJ sampai kereta and barang2 sampai. Then slowly duduk rumah my parents dekat Semenyih. Rumah tu xde orang duduk. My parents and adik2 balik sesekali bila cuti. Tapi dalam rumah barang dah lengkap. My own room pun ada. So duduk situ lah dulu sebab lagipun Semenyih lagi dekat dengan tempat kerja hubby. Tapi kami ulang-alik lah sekejap dok USJ sekejap dok Semenyih. Ikut mood. Xsure lah berapa lama kami akan dok merempat macam ni hihi :P Rasanya sampai dah berjaya beli rumah sendiri kot. Sebab both families macam xsetuju kami tinggal menyewa. Parents hubby suruh cepat2 beli rumah. My parents pula dok insist dok rumah Semenyih. Haa elok sangat lah tu memang padan je dua2. Tapi nak dok menumpang rumah parents lama2 sangat pun xbest juga and xprivacy. Although parents of course suka je anak2 dok sebumbung. Jadi harap2nya kami akan cepat2 dapat jumpa rumah yang sesuai. Harap2 ada rezeki lah and dapat jumpa rumah yang memuaskan hati tapi sepadan dengan budget. Itu yang paling penting. Anyway... masa hari Ahad sebenarnya dah risau takut xsempat nak asing2kan barang. Tapi now dah lega sebab semua area dah covered. Tinggal siang nanti nak lekatkan label yang forwader tinggalkan tu. Untuk tandakan barang yang dah OK sedia untuk dipack. Ada gak lah lagi sikit2 nak kemas rak kasut and check balik semula barang2. Takut nanti banyak plak barang tertinggal terpaksa bawa sendiri naik flight. Risau plak kalau terlebih berat plak luggage nanti.

Malam tadi hubby gi party perpisahan dengan department dia. Dapat lah hadiah jam. Siang esok plak dia nak kena bertolak awal2 pagi untuk hantar kereta ke port. Then direct terus pusing ke Matsumoto naik bas. After that baru balik rumah. Fuhhh jauh tu. Nagoya tu kat selatan, Matsumoto kat utara, rumah kami kat Matsukawa ni tengah2. Apa2 pun harapnya semua urusan esok akan berjalan lancar and hubby selamat pergi balik, Amin. Maknanya juga dah tamatlah xde dah chance nak berjalan2 kat Nihon ni. Jalan kaki keliling kawasan rumah je lah. Yelah kereta dah xde kan. Hmm harapnya kereta kami selamat sampai Msia dalam keadaan baik and semua urusan berjalan lancar tanpa sebarang masalah juga lah, Amin. Risau juga kan. I paling xsuka buat urusan yang panjang macam ni and kena tunggu2 plak. Owh by the way kami akan balik Ahad ni, July 17th, 2011 dengan Singapore Airlines from Chubu Airport, Nagoya. Akan transit dekat Singapore for 3 hours then akan sampai KLIA dalam pukul 8 macam tu. Fuhh penat! Harapnya Ihsan behave saja. Dok doa semoga dia tidur je sepanjang perjalanan hihi :D Ni kali ke 5 naik SIA. Memang puas hati dengan SIA :)

Hmm sekejapan je masa berlalu dalam masa 2 minggu ni. Pejam celik je dah tinggal minggu terakhir kat Nihon. In fact yesterday was Monday terkahir kat Nihon. Dihabiskan dengan mengemas rumah. Owh Ihsan jatuh terlentang dari pelantar dekat balkoni onto the ground. Memang rasa nak gelak sangat2. Mama relaxed je walaupun sebenarnya risau sebab takut kalau2 ada batu kat situ. Tapi Alhamdulillah xpape. Rendah je pun. Yelah dia sibuk nak jalan kat situ. Dia dah jalan ulang-alik okay je. Tapi xsangka plak tiba2 dia terlebih undur ke belakang. Siap masa jatuh tu ada segenggam rumput kat tangan. Adoi asyik rasa nak gelak je bila ingat2 balik. Xpelah sekali-sekala jatuh :P Baru dia tau sikit. Tapi Papa marah sebab takut kalau apa2. Yelah betul juga. Kebetulan nasib baik xde batu kat situ. Yelah dah jadi pun. Nak cakap apa. Mama teruskan gelak2 saja. Tapi next time kena ingat lah and xboleh biar lepas. Selalu memang xbagi pun. Tapi tadi bagi chance sikit. Sian juga asyik2 itu xboleh ini xboleh. Macam mana nak belajar? Tapi tula kebetulan juga nak terkena tadi. So itu adalah kenangan hari Isnin terakhir di Nihon.

Rasa xsangka sangat cepat betul masa berlalu. Hubby even dia cuti since June 28th tapi dia pun asyik sibuk je. Tiap2 hari ada je benda nak kena buat berkaitan dengan kerja and hal nak balik Msia ni. Tapi bagus juga masing2 rasa busy sebab xsempat nak fikir sangat pasal sedih nak tinggalkan Nihon. Hubby xsedih kot tapi I memang rasa berat hati especially regarding one particular matter. Yang memang ikut blog ni tau lah kot sebab apa. Tapi xboleh fikir sangat kalau tak nanti sedih. Sebenarnya banyak sangat benda nak update especially perkara2 yang berlaku dalam masa 2 minggu ni. In fact perkara2 penting yang sebelum tu pun ada lagi xcerita. Tapi xsempat nak berblog. Bila ada masa xde mood plak atau pun dah penat and otak xboleh nak fikir. Nak buat ayat pun xterkeluar. Macam sekarang ni lah. Tapi sebab rasa nak update tu membuak2 so paksa juga diri menaip hihi :D Xpelah... walaupun dah lambat nanti tapi akan tulis juga benda2 penting tu semua supaya xlupa untuk ingatan and kenangan diri sendiri. Bukannya untuk orang lain pun. Okay lah dah masuk subuh. Nak solat then tidur :)

How To Wean My Baby Off From Breastfeeding - My Way

2011-07-06T01:44:00.003+09:00

Before this I have been contemplating whether to start weaning off Ihsan from breastfeeding. But now I think I have made a decision. Yes, I'm going to start weaning off Ihsan but in a slow pace. Perhaps this is the best and the easiest way. Because I still can carry on breastfeeding him until he reaches 2 years old soon and at the same time hopefully this will do the least damage to both Ihsan and I emotionally. So hopefully by the time he reaches his second birthday, he will fully graduate from breastfeeding eventually without he even realizes it. Although my original plan was to start weaning off process only after he reaches 2 years old. But due to the reasons I listed as in the previous entry, thus I decided to start a little bit early. Actually I have started a few small steps on weaning him off. But before that I want to do a bit recap on our breastfeeding journey.

Ihsan has been exclusively breastfeed until he was 7 months old. At this age I also introduced him solid food and plain water. Then right after that he has been fully breastfeed up until now, 22 months. At the age of 12 months, I have introduced fresh milk and juice to him simply to vary his list of drinks. I offered Ihsan fresh milk twice daily in straw cup, during breakfast and during tea time. Although the quantity is about 120ml but he rarely finished up his fresh milk. I think it's because he doesn't really like the taste. Then, when he reached 20 months, I started to offer him Dumex Dugro 1-3 Honey Flavor hoping that he could drink this milk better than fresh milk. Why I chose this formula milk was because Ihsan tried this milk once when we visited Ummi Murni's house. Ihsan didn't reject the milk at the first sip so I'm sure he could accept this milk. I introduced him this formula milk because, he always has trouble eating his meal. He always didn't want to eat. So I thought, the formula milk could at least replace his meal. However Ihsan still rarely finished up his milk although I made for him only 100ml every time. I think this milk is bought and half of the pack is simply to be dump. But still luckily he drinks this formula milk better than fresh milk.

Anyway, I just introduced those milks, fresh milk and formula milk simply to vary Ihsan's drink and not with the intention to replace breastfeeding. So, I don't mind if I don't follow the serving suggestion as stated on the pack since I still fully breastfeeding Ihsan. Some people might give Milo, tea, carbonated drinks, soy milk and etc during other time. But I'm more comfortable giving Ihsan to drink diluted fresh juice, fresh milk or formula milk. I still give him other kind of drinks like Yakult, Calci-Yum, yogurt drink and etc. Okay lah kadang2 bagi chance juga bagi minum air sirap or orange Sunquick atau apa2 yang merepek but just for a few sips. Kesian siapa jadi anak I kan? Xboleh makan and minum sesuka hati LOL :P Tapi I memang xajar sangat dia makan or minum foods and drinks yang manis sangat, banyak pewarna or perasa. Memang pantang! Masa kecil2 ni je lah boleh control pun. Dah besar nanti xdapat lah kan.

So after Ihsan has reached 22 moths very recently, I have started a few small steps of weaning off Ihsan. Ihsan is the kind who mostly all the time he needs to breastfeed in order to fall asleep. In fact he wakes up a couple of times every night for night feeding. So, I introduced Ihsan to bottle feeding hoping that he doesn't need me anymore in order to fall asleep. I made him formula milk of course because the last time I expressed my milk was long ago so I simply don't do milk expressing or pumping. Ihsan enjoyed the bottle feeding at first and he managed to finish up his milk a few times. But that only lasted for less than a week in total. Apparently he just got excited with the feeding bottle. Yelah orang xpernah guna botol susu so jakun lah kan. Padahal sebenarnya dia bukan lah nak habiskan minum susu tu pun. I tried to push the feeding bottle while Ihsan already asleep but to no avail. Dia macam tau2 je itu bukan Mama so dia xbuka mulut langsung. Actually I don't want to introduce Ihsan to bottle because he's already big and I don't want to struggle weaning him off from feeding bottle pula nanti. But at that time I was still searching for the right method to wean him off. Ihsan just drinks through bottle simply for fun.

Then several days ago, I actually got a big pimple on my n*pple. Of all places why on earth it chose to grow on my n*pple? At first I was so worried sick because it could be something serious. After surfing the internet, luckily I feel a bit at ease. The skin on the n*pple and breast is like skin anywhere on the body and is subject to a variety skin problems. So, because of this I avoided direct feeding with Ihsan and gave him only the other breast. However the infected breast started to engorge and thus causing blocked duct too. I tried expressing milk using hands then using breast pump. Unfortunately due to both methods of expression causing my breast to swell even more. I got hard lumps under the breast and it felt very painful. Selama 20 bulan breastfeeding Ihsan ni, rasanya xsampai 5 kali kot I guna breast pump. Tapi boleh kata each time mesti membuatkan my breast sakit and bengkak. Xtau lah kalau I salah handle the pump or simply because my breast xbiasa. Rasanya I guna pegang elok2 je pun. Takkan lah guna breast pump pun cerewet sangat kan? Ada sesiapa pernah experienced macam ni or dengar macam ni?

Whan I was still in pain I still offered Ihsan my breast a few times but he just couldn't drink his milk nicely causing me yelling in pain every now and then. I was so tensed and thus at that time I thought of weaning him off totally! :P So I put on olive oil mixed with garlic on my breasts. Seharian bau garlic je :P With the hope he didn't want to continue breastfeeding. Ahaa... dia merungut marah2 sekejap je lepas tu menyusu macam biasa. Nampaknya xboleh pakai la tips ni. Kena guna benda yang lebih extreme macam jadam ke sebab super pahit kan. Baru Ihsan trauma sikit. But I will use this once he reached 24 months nanti lah kalau dia still refuse to wean off. Because I have decided to wean him off slowly. Anyway, because of that I only offered him my other breast. At the same time my infected breast ended up on ice pack for the whole day and night. I also tried to clean up the infection and put on Bepanthen. When it got better then only I offered to Ihsan because direct feeding really effective on easing up the blocked duct too. Thus, the swell also slowly subsided. Alhamdulillah it healed a few days later.

After that I have discussed with hubby that we will slowly wean off Ihsan. I educated hubby a little bit about this too because I need hubby to understand and cooperate along the process. We have to be really consistent and determine. I think the hardest part of all is the need for breastfeeding to sleep and night feeding. So instead of me, I suggested hubby to start putting Ihsan to sleep while I wait outside the bedroom until Ihsan falls asleep. We changed sleeping position too. All this while I will always sleep in the middle. But now hubby sleeps in the middle. So far it has been a week of nights this step going smoothly, Alhamdulillah. Although there is still a few struggles and all but I could say that hubby has done a great job on his part. Ihsan sleep well until the morning although he still wake up during early morning a few times asking for milk. But I think Ihsan is progressing good too because he managed to sleep long hours before waking up for milk. Maybe I could tackle this by making sure he eats a lot during dinner and drink some milk right before going to sleep instead of during early dinner. But this is actually a bit tricky because Ihsan is naturally a picky eater and eating is his least concern too. Sigh!

Not only that, although I should try not to refuse when he asks for breast milk because this might disturb him emotionally. But I try to avoid voluntarily offering Ihsan my breasts so that he will not think about breastfeeding so often as before. I let him do what he likes and enjoy his activities. Try to always makes him occupied. I also offer him his meal right before he's getting really hungry. Because once he's so hungry or thirsty, usually he will nag for breast milk. Other than that, I also try to divert his attention to something else when he asks me for breast milk. I will hurriedly get his favorite tidbit like marukku, biscuits, raisins and etc and some drink. Or sometimes I will try singing his favorite songs or read his favorite books etc. Also, I don't forget to pray to Allah for the weaning off process will run smoothly. Skrip doa pun dah kena tukar dah :) However, despite of all the efforts sometimes I don't always succeed. He might still insist to breastfeed and I give in because I don't want to trouble myself having hard time ignoring of his request. Even some times I myself offer him because I need to ensure that he will not bug me later especially when I'm in the middle of running my chores and at times when my breasts are full and need to be emptied. I also breastfeed him for afternoon nap too when it's hard to put him to sleep.

I will surely miss the bonding moment during breastfeeding.

On top of that, I try to remember that I want to wean him off slowly. So, I don't want to be in a rush. Although ada waktunya Ihsan really pushes my button especially at times dia xnak makan his meal. To him, breast milk is his staple food. I paling tension kalau jadi situasi macam ni. Rasa marah sebab dia xnak makan so I play cold turkey. But the thing about Ihsan is dia takkan surrender and will keep on crying non-stopped until he gets what he wants. Bila dah lama2 I pun kesian but at the same time rasa depressed sebab it makes me feel like I'm a crap mom. Seriously, at times rasa sedih lah. Sigh! I think if Ihsan is a good-eater and has a big appetite this wouldn't have to be so rough. So ibu2 yang anak suka makan bersyukurlah ye. Jangan sekat kalau anak nak makan. Daripada nak paksa anak makan tiap2 hari, sadis okay. Anyway, perhaps eventually the number of breastfeeding session from day to day will decrease and he will eventually graduate by the time he's 2. Breastfeeding isn't simply about feeding or drinking milk to fill in the tummy. But Ihsan needs me for him to feel comfort, secure, entertained and loved. Because at times he seems so desperate for breast milk, crying buckets in front of me when I refuse. But when I give in and once he's in my embraced, turns out all he wanted is just to pacify himself. And there's a happy grinning baby babbling to me with his mouth full.

Breastfeeding is really a wonderful and sweet moments. I will surely cherish the last 2 months of our bonding sessions. Although I can say so far nampak gayanya kami ni tergolong dalam kategori susah untuk bercerai susu. But hopefully this journey will end with least damage and scar to both of us, InsyaAllah.

We Will Be Moving Out Next Month

2011-06-29T02:00:00.008+09:00

Yesterday hubby has officially started his holiday until the date we are going back for good. Finally we have gotten informed by the kaisya (company) about the details regarding the coming big move and things are almost confirmed too. So, most probably we will be going back on 17th July so hubby has about 20 days holiday in Nihon and another 10 days in Msia. In Msia later we still have lots of things to settle at first. So we gonna try to run all in within the remaining 10 days. But anyway as for now hubby still goes to kaisya for a few times because there's still a few jobs need to be completed. Besides that there are lots of matters he needs to settle. I have listed down the tasks that we need to do and I guess finally we can start packing our things! Well... actually we don't really do the packing but more to sorting and rearranging the stuffs only. Because the forwarders will come to our house on selected date, probably on 13th July to pack all the stuffs. But I think we still have lots to do on our part beforehand in order to ensure the packing process runs smoothly.

As of now we still lazing ourselves. The home is still looked as normal as like we are staying here forever LOL :D I hope I will gain my mojo on full level enough for me to start doing all the works. I'm always excited about mengemas. I think I inherited this from my father. Although my engine is slow to heat up but once I am, I just couldn't stop! But I only like to do this all in one go. Xsuka terberhenti2. Sebab tu lah kena tunggu semua dah confirmed etc baru mula bekerja. Hopefully by today I will start. Nampak macam lama but pejam celik je minggu ni pun dah dipertengahan. Ihsan pun sangat rajin mengemas sekarang. Haa mana nanti Mama kemas kat sini, Papa kemas kat situ tau2 dia kemas balik semula macam asal. Ohho Ihsan hobby dia mengemas things in the house ke tempat asalnya okay. For example kalau time memasak I dah susun siap2 bahan2 nak guna sekali bila nak capai ehh mana hilang white pepper aku? Botol mayonnaise Kewpie kalau dah tinggal sikit harus lah lembik and susah nak dirikan tegak kan? Ahaa tahan lah telinga dengar dia tension2 nangis apsal botol tu xnak dengar cakap dia berdiri tegak elok2 dekat shelf LOL :P Tapi toys dia je dia malas nak kemas. Kalau tengok gaya dia saja2 tabur toys merata rumah tu wah sungguh geram :P

Just now hubby just got out to settle some stuffs. He needs to prepare for some documents prior the big move soon. As for me now tengah layan Ihsan breakfast. Setahun nak habis. Then later on I'm gonna start processing the kitchen. Coincidentally today is very hot too. Fuhhh macam sauna dekat dapur tu. Wow... this is it. We are really going to move out. We have been staying here for more than 3 years and this house sure holds lots of memories. Owh as well as our previous house which we stayed in for about more than 2 years. It's actually in the same neighborhood. Dekat sangat boleh jalan kaki. Now I'm starting to reminisce the early days when we started to build our life from scratch. Maybe later I should spend some times to write about this. It's indeed very precious memory :)

Weaning Off From Breastfeeding

2011-06-27T13:29:00.000+09:00

No, not yet. But I have started to think about this lately. Now Ihsan is already 1 year and 10 months old. So in 2 months more, he will reach 2 years old on August 21st, 2011. Actually my original plan is to breastfeed him until he is 2 years old then only I will start thinking about weaning him off. However because of a few reasons, I kinda forced to consider about this a little bit earlier. This matter started to cross my mind when I thought about we are going to face a major move in our life soon. Since we are going back to Msia for good next month, many following matters are going to take place too. Settling down from a major move involves of a very big changes in every aspect of our life. Not only us as parents have to adapt to the new life but Ihsan too. There will be a new environment which includes new people, new place, new routine, new weather and etc.

Ihsan at 22 months. Mama ada beli stampede. Siang tu Mama cop dia. Ni malam Papa pula buat. Suka sangat dia siap belek2 muka dalam cermin. Layankan je :D

1) Sedangkan sebelum ni kami balik bercuti pun masa mula2 sampai Msia, kami ambil masa juga untuk adapt within the new new environment. Mama and Papa ambil masa nak sesuaikan semula diri dengan cuaca panas Msia pun ada lah dalam 2 weeks. Inikan lagi Ihsan hari tu lagi lah lama. So, inikan lagi kalau balik for good lagi lah macam2 benda nak adapt with. So, I think maybe it's going to be tough if I want to start with the weaning off process during this period. Surely there will be a lot on Ihsan's plate to take. I'm afraid Ihsan will be so pressured and stressed with so many things to cope. Thus only will give us both a very hard time. I read in the BabyCenter, one of the tips is to avoid launching the mission during major changes.

2) At the same time, the date we expected to go back will only be about 2 weeks before Ramadhan. In fact, Ihsan's birthday this year will again be celebrated during Ramadhan which is about a week before 1st Syawal. Furthermore this year is gonna be our first proper raya with the family in Msia especially after years not celebrating raya properly. So, mesti kami kena pergi melawat saudara-mara yang dah lama xjumpa. The grandparents pun surely sibuk nak bawa the only cucu diorang ni beraya. So, again macam xsesuai je nak strike the mission. Silap2 asyik tension2 nangis2 especially both Ihsan and I. Unintentionally we might hamper others mood pula masa hari raya nanti bila diorang tengok kitorang.

3) Besides, I'm not sure whether it's going to be a bonus or a disadvantage for me to start the weaning off mission in Msia. But of course I'm scared if it's going to be the latter. Although the families are understanding and supporting on breastfeeding Ihsan but one thing for sure they don't really have deep knowledge or real experience on breastfeeding and weaning off. I tend to be sensitive especially during hard times with Ihsan. I know their intention is good and they always wants to help. But sometimes their way isn't synchronize to my liking. I should just say usually we have different ways of raising our child. Like last time when Ihsan fell sick and nearly hospitalized, there were a few times I got depressed while my mother and I handling Ihsan together. Although of course I didn't regret it because she had been a great help after all. But I don't want to get more depressed added by unnecessary things if I decided to wean off Ihsan later in Msia.

4) While on Ihsan himself, he's still a very fussy eater up until now although I can say his appetite is getting a bit better than the earlier days. But at times he has the habit of refusing any kind of foods as if breast milk is his main food intake. Like for example he likes to refuse eating his breakfast and nagging me for breast milk. Since he is already a toddler and he needs a lot of foods for his energy source, taking breast milk alone is surely not enough. And definitely he tends to glue himself on me because he never could get enough of his milk. It's really tiring and bothersome when especially I have to run the chores. Since he's already a toddler so now he's getting good at nagging for what he wants and it's hard to make him cooperate because he doesn't want to tolerate. So, I thought maybe he could eat better after he's weaned off breastfeeding.

5) We think we are ready to start conceiving again starting next month. Since Ihsan is already big and we are going back for good soon, InsyaAllah. So I think it's the best time to try expanding the family. Furthermore I nak kejar umur and stop getting pregnant before I reach 35 years old. Added that my health is Alhamdulillah is still in good condition. So, I better rush and make a few more kids LOL :D Anyway... because of this, I dah kira2 which months yang sesuai to go with the plan. Nampaknya I ada 2 bulan akan datang ni for starting. Sebab 3 bulan seterusnya tu macam bahaya sikit because my estimated delivery date (edd) dekat2 dengan bulan puasa next year. Kalau boleh nak elakkan ganti puasa2 banyak. So kalau nak sambung trying to conceive (ttc) adalah masa bulan ke 6 dan seterusnya. Lambat lah pulak. Tapi xtaulah kot2 malas nak tunggu, gamble je macam Ihsan dulu. Pasrah je lah kalau kena ganti puasa sebulan juga :P Anyway, if Allah nak bagi rezeki cepat, most probably I dah start loya2 masa puasa. So, mana nak handle Ihsan lagi kalau nak wean off. Nak handle diri sendiri pun sure larat xlarat je nanti.

6) Now I have a little bit problem with one of my breast which is causing me in pain while breastfeeding Ihsan. Added that he rarely could stay still and nicely while having his milk so this cause me to endure more pain. So, membuatkan I rasa nak stop breastfeeding him especially bila dia xboleh nak bersopan-santun menyusu membuatkan I terjerit2 kesakitan. Next time lah cerita on this, itu pun kalau rajin.

Tapiiiii..... only now I realize how sad it is to wean him off from my breast. Selama ni I only hear other mothers telling how they were so sad when the time has come to which make me think sampai macam tu sekali ke? Now I realized memang xsampai hati and sedih sangat bila tengok my Ihsan nangis2 nak menyusu tapi I elak2 sebab my breast sakit. Kalau bagi the other side pun usually I will easily get letdown reflex membuatkan my already swollen breast to engorge lagi. Bertambah lah sakit tu. I tengok muka Ihsan rasa macam I buat dia rasa as like terpaksa berpisah buat selama2nya and I rasa cruel sangat. From the first day he was born up until now we have created a very strong bond between each other. He made me feels how much he loves and needs me. Ironically only recently because of this reason no. 6) causing me to realize how I never knew i needed him too. Eceh macam tajuk lagu Ne-Yo plak. Tapi I fikir jugak kalau I breastfeed him until he's 2 years old most probably I takkan rasa bersalah sangat. Sayang juga sebab lagi 2 bulan je to completekan penyusuan.

So, because of this too. I masih terfikir2 betul ke apa yang I buat ni? FYI I still haven't made up my decision. I know setiap decision ada pros and cons masing2. I have been thinking about all the reasons as I listed is because I'm kind of person selalu planned beforehand sebelum buat apa2. Maybe sebab I rasa itu cara selamat since I'm occupied with actions to be taken kalau jadi begini or begitu. Cara macam mana nak wean off pun I masih fikir lagi. Cara cepat ke lambat ke extreme ke gentle ke pun xdecide lagi. Ihsan ni I rasa macam jenis yang susah je nak wean off. Hmm xtau lah. However, I know only me can decide what's best for us. Hubby pula support je which decision I buat. Dia xkisah, jenis 'take it easy' or 'don't make it hard on yourself'. As much as you disagree with my opinions, please realize we are not the same. You lain I lain. Anak kita pun masing2 lain2. Apatah lagi situation masing2 lagi lah lain. So, please don't judge. Tapi kalau nak share pendapat or pengalaman masing2, I alu2kan :)

To Work Or Not To Work

2011-06-16T01:19:00.006+09:00

It's 1.25 in the morning and I'm still wide awake. Actually I've gone to sleep with hubby at 11.30 pm, the usual time we get into bed. But I couldn't sleep and keep tossing and turning around. I just couldn't stop my mind from thinking about stuff. So I woke up and turned the PC ON. Furthermore I thought of fasting tomorrow, so it will be easier for me to take my sahur if I just stayed up. Because the other day it was hard for me to wake up for sahur if I was already asleep earlier on. But I'm sure I'll be pretty sleepy tomorrow because I'll only get back to sleep after Subuh prayer. By the way nowadays the day is getting longer. So Subuh prayer is at about 2.45am while Maghrib is at about 7.05pm. So, I need to fast for about 16 hours and a half. Luckily I have only 3 days fast left to pay.

Anyway, on another totally different matter. We still don't have the exact date on when we are going back for good. Although most probably it will be in between middle of July because hubby will start working in Msia on 1st August. Thus, there's not much progress at home. I haven't started packing yet instead I have added a few more stuffs into the already cramped house :P There are a few more things I wished to get in order to bring home. But they are not really necessary so I don't really mind actually. Furthermore lots of money required for our big transition process soon. Moving and bulding a new life from scratch is really a big thing. Honestly, we can't wait to go back to Msia and keep counting the days. Maybe because we have fully accepted the fact and thus set our mind. So, I think it's gonna be hard for us if suddenly we are told the date is going to be postponed. It's really difficult to shift the mind. So, as much as we realized we gonna miss Japan but we think it's already enough living our life in here.

Since the day we got the news, I've been doing a lot of thinking. Such as where to live, what kind of house we like to buy (but not the soonest lah okay), what kind of second car that's suitable for us, the money we have, the budgets for all the plans, ways to make money, about Ihsan's well-being and a lot more! But one thing that surely the most mind boggling to me is whether I should work or not. Honestly, Alhamdulillah, thanks to Allah because without I planned on it; somehow Allah has granted something that I'd dream a long time ago. I wished of marrying a rich guy and becoming a housewife. But of course I never thought of that seriously and it just came across my mind as one of my most impossible wish. I said impossible because surely I have set my mind I would be working once after I graduated from university and becoming a successful career woman. In fact I took quite some times to shift my mind and adapt myself into being a housewife, which was very difficult to do. But I realized I wouldn't be happy if I continue working and living far away from my husband, and that eventually made me got through the phase.

So, without I realized it Allah has planned my life towards this path. I met a husband who's studying and then working in Japan which eventually of course lead me to choose to be by my husband's side. Only that my husband is yet a hartawan lah kan LOL :D So, since I'd already been living the life as a housewife for more than 5 years and then been given the chance to take care of my own child since the day he was born, I should realized already it has been one of my dreams come true! If I have to choose now, of course I wish I could stay being a stay at home mom (SAHM) because I don't trust others could understand and take care of my own child better than me. My child well-being is my top priority and of course I enjoy being occupied with house chores, ensuring things at home are organized and taking care the well-being of my husband and etc. I feel satisfied for being able to do such things. Sometimes when I pause and reflect on my life, I really feel I'm so blessed for being given a chance as a SAHM. Although I'm not saying being a SAHM is the best profession to be and I'm not the perfect SAHM either. I always believe there's always two sides of a coins. Same goes for being as SAHM there are pros and cons and I also have my own time of ups and downs. But at least to me, I'm glad to be one and I'm very happy with my life. I'm maybe not so bothered if I couldn't stay being a housewife, but it really affected me if I couldn't stay being a SAHM. So, noticed the difference already? Every mother wants to give the best to her child, including me. Only that maybe our ways of giving the best is different. I really love it being a SAHM. So, why bother working?

However... I realize it living in Msia is very expensive compared to Japan. Although after the conversion, price stuffs in Japan is about 3.7 times higher than Msia. But with the relative same amount of money in Msia we could get more of the same stuffs in Japan. Every month with the relative same amount of salary in Japan, at the end of the day we could still put half of the amount for saving. But when we went home to Msia, we could only save little and we couldn't really see where our money had gone too. Sebabnya banyak habis untuk basic necessities je, so xnampak sangatlah apa barangnya. Belum lagi pergi jolly katak. Agaknya berapa sen je lah tinggal kalau xberpada2. So, having this thought kind of forced me thinking about working. I don't dare to see the number our bank statement depleting so we have to find ways of keeping them increase. Furthermore, someday our family members might expand and nowadays raising even a child is already expensive. Because everything is getting expensive and everything needs money. Although money isn't everything but it's very important to have secured financial.

I've been thinking each kind of job like being a working at home mom (WAHM), being employed and work 8 to 5, doing a flexible business and etc. Each job has it's own pros and cons. So, I ve been evaluating what are my priorities and which job suits me best and I would enjoy doing it. I prefer being with my child or at least have flexible working hours. I already have a few plans in mind and still gathering resources. I will start slowly after everything else is settled. Hubby's new routine dah okay, Ihsan dah weaned-off, Ihsan dah boleh pergi nursery (merely the purpose is to let him socialize) and etc, then only I will slowly start doing what I'm planning to do. Actually I don't have specific plan pun but I still hope everything will run smoothly and easy for me. So, getting a real job and being employed is the last option in the list. If I needed to opt for this, I hope I have the courage to be one. Bukanlah xyakin yang I mampu buat. Boleh je. Cuma I think I'll be happier if I could at least continue as a WAHM. Well, we'll see. I pray that Allah will lead towards the best way for me and hopefully things will run smoothly. And also I'll keep praying someday my husband would be filthy rich LOL :D InsyaAllah... Eh free je berdoa pun bukannya kena bayar. Xsalah pun berangan kan. Mana lah tau Allah lorongkan jalan untuk kita berusaha ke arah tu :)

Ryokou: Chubu - Chugoku - Kinki - Chubu Part II

2011-06-06T23:59:00.001+09:00

Burp! Alhamdulillah baru lepas makan. Hari ni bangun lewat. Ihsan although dah bangun awal sikit tapi layan golek2 sebelah Mama. Bagus kan? Bagus lah sangat :P Actually last night tidur awal sket daripada biasa. Sakit kepala since the evening. Rasa berat je kepala and mata. So setelah berehat2 dgn puas baru rasa okay sket. Hari ni nak sambung pasal our recent ryoukou. Baru cerita separuh jalan kan. Kena cepat2 cerita takut nanti lupa. Cerita2 penting sebelum ni pun belum cover. Hmm kena cepat2 before terlambat. Bukannya nak cerita kat orang sgt pun tapi penting untuk ingatan diri sendiri, tu je. Okaylah jom sambung.

Day 2, 29th May 2011

After checking out from Sun Route Hotel Kanku, Osaka; we started our journey directly towards Shirahama, Wakayama. Kami cuma ikut jalan biasa drpd Osaka. Sepanjang perjalanan hujan makin lebat and angin pun makin kuat. Actually perjalanan kami ni semakin mendekati taufan. Taufan tu memang tengah bergerak drpd bahagian bawah Jepun and berpusing di area laut berdekatan Wakayama ni. Memang nampaklah awan taufan yang sangat besar bergerak laju. Rasa surreal lah. Selalu tengok dalam Discovery Channel je. Ni betul2 merasa ribut taufan depan mata. Rasa best jugak. Tapi risau pun ye jugak LOL :P Xlama lepas tu kami hampir sampai ke destinasi. Memang jalanraya dekat sangat dengan laut. Sambil2 tengok awan kelabu and air laut yang mengganas kitorang asyik teringat tsunami je. Hubby plak asyik cakap, "Ish macam mana ni kalau tiba2 tsunami?". Hmm sabar jelah :P Tapi memang kami dah terfikir macam2. Dok terbayang2 macam mana lah diorang yang betul2 mengahadapi tsunami hari tu kan. Kami masa ni pun dah risau ini kan lagi diorang haruslah takut sangat2!.

Nampak tak the grey clouds. Laju okay dia bergerak. Rasa macam ada big UFO kat atas :P

Anyway kami sampai sini around 2.30 pm. Hotel boleh check-in at 3.00 pm. Okaylah sampai ngam2. Asalnya kami xtau sangat pun kat sini apa yang menarik. Tujuan asal gi sebab nak merasa mandi onsen. By the way, "An onsen is a term for hot springs in Japanese language, though the term is often used to describe the bathing facilities and inns around the hot springs. As a volcanically active country, Japan has thousands of onsen scattered along its length and breadth. Onsen were traditionally used as public bathing places and today play a central role in directing Japanese domestic tourism." - Source: Wikipedia. So masa search, terjumpa kat sini hotel with private onsen yang paling murah and xjauh sangat. After booking baru sibuk2 search apa je ada kat sini. Barulah tau rupa2nya glamor juga tempat ni.

4) Shirahama Beach, Wakayama

"Shirahama is a well developed (hot spring) resort 100 kilometers south of Osaka. It's popularity as an entertainment destination and its proximity to Osaka caused Shirahama to become one of Japan's three biggest onsen resorts, along with Beppu on Kyushu and Atami on the Izu Peninsula." - Source: Japan Guide

Disebabkan Shirahama ni asalnya terkenal dengan onsen semulajadi yang ada, so kebanyakan hotel yang ada kat situ memang ambil air drpd onsen and disalurkan ke hotel masing2. Tempat ni ala2 macam Hawaii or Guam. Pasir pantai dia putih bersih and cantik. Air laut dia crystal clear membiru or green color. Usually orang datang sini selain nak mandi onsen also can enjoy activity air like swimming, snorkeling, diving , surfing, picnicking and etc. In fact masa on the way ke sini dalam dok ribut2 tu terserempak dengan mamat2 yang ger ready nak surfing. Kat sini juga ada beberapa tempat2 menarik to be visited.

So after that kami terus checked-in setelah sedikit kepayahan mencari hotel location. Sampai2 je terkejut tengok hotel :P Bukan terkejut apa. Xsangka sebenarnya rupanya hotel tu di lereng bukit sebab tengok dalam gambar macam lain. Dalam bilik plak hanya ada toilet and sink. So kalau nak mandi kena turun ke public bathroom. It was first time for me datang hotel macam ni so terkejut lah sikit. But actually expected lah kan. Hotel ni kecik je and rasanya masa kami sampai ada 1 couple customers sahaja. Before masuk bilik hotel owner terus recommend tempat makan. Kami cakap nak pergi Tore-Tore, tempat makan seafood yang famous kat situ tapi owner tu kata tempat tu tutup awal and lagipun out door so xsesuai untuk cuaca ribut macam ni. Tambah2 ada baby. Makan kat situ pun ada time limit. So kami pun setuju je and owner hotel tu booked lah tempat kat restoran yang dia recommended tu.

Kami pun masuk bilik. Okaylah biliknya. View from bilik sangatlah cantik! Suddenly hotel owner datang semula bagitau restoran tu tempat duduk basah so dia booked kan restoran lain. Kami pun okay jelah. Janji dengan hotel owner tu pukul 6.00 pm dia akan hantar kitorang ke restoran tu. So apa lagi lepas tu kitorang terus terjun masuk onsen. Kolam onsen tu daripada kayu biasa je. Saiz pun kecik tapi cukulah untuk kami bertiga. Permukaan onsen tu penuh dengan lapisan garam daripada air panas tu. Air panas ni daripada air laut. Selalunya orang kata bau onsen busuk. Tapi air onsen ni wangi. Very soft bau macam bunga and melekat bau kat badan. Masa mandi dalam onsen ni angin xkuat sangat and xhujan. So memang enjoy lah. Si Ihsan plak sibuk nak keluar masuk. Kitorang risau je sebab permukaan onsen tu kan kasar2. Si Ihsan tu bugil2 je. Kecoh betul :D Kami mandi jap je. Tapi lepas mandi memang sedap la badan and rasa mengantuk. Kami baring2 je rehat2 sebab lepas tu dah nak keluar gi makan.

Nak dekat pukul 6.00 pm kami turun. Sempat tinjau public bathroom. Hotel owner terus bawa pergi restoran. Kecik je restoran tu. Nak ambik gambar pun segan sebab sempit. Typical Japanese style restaurant. Hubby pun order lah foods. Kami makan nasi, nabe, ikan bakar, sashimi and hotate. Semuanya seafoods. Ihsan masa mula2 je okay lepas tu dah start merengek2. I dah xtenang dah masa ni risau je. Tried to breastfeed him lepas tu dia tertidur. Lega! Dah la nak bf pun susah sebab pakcik and makcik restoran tu rajinlah nak pandang2. Maybe sebab jarang tengok orang asing comel pakai tudung macam I ni kan :P Lepas dah makan, bayar, call hotel owner, dia datang ambil and kami pun terus masuk bilik. Masa ni hujan dah makin lebat and angin pun sangatlah kuat. Memang rasa nak terbang je. Yelah duduk dalam kereta pun rasa kereta terhoyong-hayang.

Shirahama Onsen Hotel. Hotel ni konsep Bali.

Bilik full with Bali furniture.

The onsen at balcony.

Subhanallah. The splendid view. Cantik sangat kan? :D

Sampai je bilik hubby terus mandi onsen lagi sekali. I plak bagi Ihsan makan onigiri dulu. Yelah dia kan xmaan lagi. Lepas tu I plak masuk onsen. Masa ni dah hujan so masa mandi memang kena tempias hujan. Sebab tu xbagi Ihsan join sekali. I mandi pun xlama sebab takut dengan angin yang sangat kuat. Dok terbayang macam2 je. Lepas tu terus kami tidur. Tapi honestly malam tu xdapat tidur sangat pun. Sebab angin sangatlah kuat menghentam sliding door. Sesekali dengar bunyi benda jatuh lah. Takpun bunyi air onsen terpercik keluar. So sesekali terjaga. Sebenarnya susah hati and terfikir macam2 :D Tapi sebenarnya okay je xde apa2 pun. Kebetulan hotel tu xterlindung and atas bukit so memanglah sedap je kena hentam ribut.

Day 3, 30th May 2011

Menjelang Subuh Alhamdulillah dah xhujan tapi angin masih kuat. Kami rehat2 je dalam bilik. Nak masuk onsen pun angin terlalu kuat and air onsen pun dah xberapa nak panas. Lepas breakfast apa semua Ihsan pooped plak. So hubby bawak dia mandi kat public bathroom. Xde orang so slumber jelah diorang mandi sesuka hati siap berendam dalam onsen kat situ. Lepas diorang dah balik, I plak gi. Memula tu segan nak pergi tapi badan rasa xsedap je nak lah mandi kan. I pun pergilah mandi laju2. Teringin gak nak berendam dalam onsen tapi takut ada orang datang. Turned out rugi je xmasuk sebab rasanya xde dah customer lain masa tu. Xpelah merasa gakla mandi public bathroom. Selalu dok tengok dalam tv and kartun je kan ;P

Lepas mandi and bersiap2, kami ambik gambar dalam bilik and dengan onsen. Lepas tu checked out and terus gi visit tempat2 yang menarik kat Shirahama Beach tu. Although sebelum tu hotel owner tu ada kata bahaya pergi tempat2 tu and minta maaf sebab cuaca xelok. Tapi kami gi jugak yelah dah sampai pun kan. Turned out memang ada je visitors lain. Maybe diorang pun sama macam kami dah datang dari jauh kan so kenalah pergi jugak. Lagipun cuaca dah semakin okay so bolehlah gi cuma kena berhati2 jelah.

Shirahama Beach

Beach under maintenance.

Kami turun jap je kat sini. Pasir kat sini putih bersih sangat. Dari situlah beach ni diberi nama Shirahama yang bermaksud 'white beach'. Masa ni ada maintenance work. Dekat area ni jugak ada 2 public onsen Shirasuna and Sakinoyu . Boleh masuk mandi beramai2 tapi xperlu naked. Onsen tu betul2 di tepi pantai and boleh menikmati keindahan pantai tu sambil berendam. Lepas tu kami gi ke Senjojiki.

5) Senjojiki

"Senjojiki is Japanese for "One Thousand Tatami Mats", which describes the appearance of these flat, sheet-like rocks. The Senjojiki are located along the coast, and visitors can walk out onto them." - Source: Japan Guide

Masa keluar2 je kereta dah rasa macam nak melayang. Memang gayat and seram je berdiri dekat2 dengan tebing. Tapi sebab nak bergambar kami gagahkan jugak. Ihsan plak memang xboleh lepas lah. Berdukung je. Kalau tak, melayang nanti. Cuma kalau cuaca elok kita bolehlah berjalan2 kat rock formation tu. Then kami terus ke Sandanbeki.

The rock formation.

6) Sandanbeki

"Sandanbeki consists of three steep cliffs with a large network of caves at water level. An elevator is taken down to the caves, which has a shrine inside and a network of tunnels." - Source: Japan Guide

At Sandanbeki cliff.

Also Sandanbeki.

Sebenarnya kami xgi pun masuk ke caves ni. Kalau nak gi ke caves tu kena naik bus from a station. Kami cuma gi station tu untuk beli souvenir and tengok tempat ni drpd luar. Then kami ke Engetsu Island.

7) Engetsu Island

"This uniquely shaped rock formation is situated off the western coast of the city. In the evenings of some days of the year, the setting sun can be seen through the hole in the middle of the rock." - Source: Japan Guide

The Engetsu Island. Stopped tepi jalan je ni.

Semua tempat yang kami gi kat sebelah jalan je. So stopped by kejap2 je. Termasuklah pulau ni tengok ambik gambar drpd tepi jalan je. Sememangnya rasa seronok sangat g Shirahama, Beach, Wakayama ni. Tapi tulah the weather wasn't on our side. Sedangkan masa tengok dengan keadaan cuaca mendung pun we were struck with awe kalau suaca elok lagilah 10 kali ganda terpegun :) Selain tempat2 ni ada macam2 lagi tempat menarik lain kat sini. So memang xboring sebab banyak attractions. Tapi kami xgi lah semua sebab ada yang kena bayar so xworth lah kan kalau nak singgah tengok2 jap je. Sebelum ke Nara kami singgah di Tore-Tore. Tempat ni is seafood market and tempat makan seafood. Tapi kami xbeli apa2 pun just makan. Ntahlah maybe murah jugaklah sket especially the seafoods semua fresh. Tapi standard lah harga makanan kat Nihon xdelah murah sangat2. Ingatkan kat sini bolehlah dapat pakai timbang ke kan :D

At Tore-Tore fresh seafood market. Ada bahagian pasar basah, tempat bbq, restaurants, souvenir shops, food court etc.

Ihsan buat apa tu? :P

Lepas tu kami terus headed straight to Nara Park in Nara Prefecture. Sepanjang perjalanan makin lama hujan dah kurang. Angin pun sama. Kami bergerak menjauhi taufan. Awan gelap pun dengan lajunya bergerak ke arah lautan Pasifik. So Alhamdulillah by afternoon dah boleh nampak cahaya matahari. Kami singgah sekali je dekat R&R untuk solat. Kam sampai Nara Park pukul 4.30 pm macam tu. Dah lewat. Masa sampai ni xtau nak tuju kat arah mana. I pun blur2 sebab xpernah datang. Hubby yang dah datang pun lupa2 plak cehhh. Besar sungguh rupanya Nara Park ni.

8) Nara Park

"Nara Park (Nara Koen) is a large park in central Nara. Established in 1880, it is the location of many of Nara's main attractions including Todaiji, Kasuga Taisha, Kofukuji and the Nara National Museum. The park is home to hundreds of freely roaming deer. Considered in Shinto to be messengers of the gods. Nara's nearly 1200 deer have become a symbol of the city and have been designated a natural treasure. Like the deer on Miyajima, Nara's deer are surprisingly tame, although they can be rather aggressive if they think you will feed them. Deer crackers are for sale around the park, and some deer have learned to bow to visitors asking to be fed." - Source: Japan Guide

Lastly we decided parking je kat mana2. Terus menuju ke Nandaimon Gate. Kat situ ada banyak budak sekolah xtaulah apa diorang buat. Saja2 singgah lepas sekolah kot. Kitorang plak terus ambik gambar dengan rusa2 yang ada. Jinak sangat! Ihsan pun suka sangat siap buat bunyi geram. Kalau lepas dia siap kejar2 lagi. Tapi last2 kitorang dukung sebab takut nanti kena tendang ke apa ke. Rusa2 tu memang dia kut je orang sebab nak minta foods. Tapi yang ruginya I lupa nak pegang rusa2 tu sebab sibuk ambik gambar :P Lepas tu kami terus jalan lagi ke Todaiji Temple tapi dah tutup. Yelah sampai lewat. Dapat tengok drpd luar jelah nampak bumbung dia sikit. Xpelah dah dapat ambik gambar dengan rusa pun dah okay. Nak singgah kedai souvenir pun xsempat sebab by the time kami pusing semula dah tutup. Budak2 sekolah apa semua pn dah xde. Then kami ambik gambar dengan Nara National Museum. Itupun drpd arah tepi kot so view xcantik sangat.

With rusa yang jinak. Diorang ni buat bunyi mintak makanan. So cute!

In front of Todaiji Temple gate.

Lepas tu hari pun dah makin gelap. Kitorang terus gerak. Singgah Saizeriya jap untuk dinner and bertolak lebih kurang pukul 8.00 pm and sampai rumah pukul 12.15 am. Asalnya nak ikut jalan biasa tapi check kat navi kalau jalan biasa pukul 10.00 am esoknya baru sampai. Pengsan lah macam tu :P So ikut highway je. Berhenti sekali je kat R&R sebab nak tunggu lepas pukul 12.00 am kot2 ada discount. Nasib baik memang ada discount :D Overall Alhamdulillah we had fun and selamat gi balik although dalam cuaca taufan. Tapi xpelah experience jugak tu bila lagi nak merasa taufan. Kat Msia xde taufan besar macam ni. But of course if diberi pilihan cukuplah sekali xnaklah saja2 nak rasa lagi :P Itupun haritu bukan saja2 tapi terpaksa. Sepanjang berjalan2 ni juga buat I terfikir2 macam2 and InsyaAllah dah ready and in fact xsabar nak balik Msia :) So that was our last ryokou in Nihon. Lepas ni xde dah. Jalan2 dekat rumah je and nak gi ziarah kubur 'Abid je for the last time and this is the saddest and hardest part of all. Sigh... Anyway... life goes on. Looking forward for days ahead :)

Ryokou: Chubu - Chugoku - Kinki - Chubu Part I

2011-05-31T22:10:00.037+09:00

Last weekend we spent 3 days 2 nights for our long road trip to 4 prefectures, Tottoriken, Hyogoken, Wakayamaken and Naraken. It was my first time going on a long road trip unlike hubby who had enjoyed such trip already a few times. We started our journey in the wee chilly Saturday morning right after Subuh prayer and reached home passed midnight on Tuesday at 00.15 am. Despite of a few glitches and the weather was quite a bummer, yet Alhamdulillah our holiday was still full of fun. So at least now I have reached 4 regions in Japan, that are Chubu, Kanto, Chugoku and Kinki Regions. Whereas the other 4 regions are Kyushu, Shikoku, Tohoku and Hokkaido. As for hubby he has reached all 6 regions except the 2 regions on the north.

The advantage of going on this kind of trip is you could go to several places all in one go so it is kind of time saving especially when you have short time limit. However of course this kind of trip is quite tiring, you spend more time in the car, you couldn't cover all attractions at each place because you constantly need to move to the next destination and etc. However, if you have long time limit for example a week, the weather is on your side and you have studied and planned your journey beforehand, I assure you this kind of trip is really worth it! :D

So, usually we would spend holiday at one place and visit all the interesting places at the place. But this time, we went to 4 prefectures, which were Tottoriken in Chugoku Region, Hyogoken, Wakayamaken and Naraken in Kinki Region. We managed to only visit all the main attraction at those places because we were constantly racing against times. Although we only visited 4 prefectures but technically we had to pass more than that along our journey. Starting from our home in Naganoken which is in Chubu Region, we have to pass Gifuken - Aichiken - Kyotoken - Osakaken - Hyogoken - Tottoriken - Okayamaken - Hyogoken - Osakaken - Wakayamaken - Osakaken - Naraken - Kyotoken - Aichiken - Gifuken and finally back to Naganoken. So overall the round trip made us passed 9 other prefectures besides our home prefecture.

The map showing our road journey.

Day 1, 28th May, 2011

After Subuh prayer we started our journey and headed straight to Tottori. Kami bertolak dari rumah suasana masih gelap. Sepanjang perjalanan cuaca memang gloomy je. Boleh dikatakan setiap masa drizzling. Sesekali je hujan berhenti. We reached Tottori at about 9.00 am but we first stopped at Nishimatsuya in Tottorishi to buy stroller rain cover and rain coat for Ihsan. Yelah xlarat punya nak kawal, mesti dia pun nak bergerak bebas. Kalau setakat berpayung memang kena hujanlah dia. Then only we headed to our first destination.

1) Tottori Sand Dunes

"The Tottori Sand Dunes (鳥取砂丘, Tottori Sakyu) are the largest sand dunes in Japan and Tottori's most famous tourist attraction. Located just outside the city center, they span roughly 16 kilometers of coast along of the Sea of Japan and are up to two kilometers wide and 50 meters high. They are part of the Sanin Kaigan National Park.

The sand dunes were created over thousands of years, as sand from the nearby Sendaigawa River was washed out to sea and eventually redeposit along the coast by the ocean's currents. Today, the constant movement of the tides and the coastal winds continuously shape the sand dunes and provide an ever changing landscape. " - Source: Japan Guide

There was horse cart. And the horse is very big and smelly. Dari jauh dah bau baja dia :P

On top of sand hill with coastline at the back.

Ihsan in the desert :D

Actually kami nyaris2 xjadi nak pergi Tottori Sand Dunes ni and nak terus ke Kobe je. Sebab dalam perjalanan memang hujan memanjang. So kami fikir macam mana nak tengok Sand Dunes tu kalau basah2 macam ni? Tapi nasib baik kami ubah balik fikiran and teruskan perjalanan ke Tottori. Turned out memang rugilah kalau kami xjadi singgah sini. Memang cantik sangat2! Macam dekat padang pasir yang sangat luas. Cuma takdelah unta and cactus. Ada kuda je :D Mula2 ingatkan kami jelah manusia yang sibuk berjalan2 masa musim taufan ni. Tapi bila sampai, rupanya ramai je Nihonjin bertali-arus datang. Xputus2. Masa mula2 sampai sini hubby kata, "Ini je ke???". To which I jawab, "Laa dah nama pun Sand Dunes memanglah pasir je nak ada apa lagi?". Memang tau dia suka buat spoil :P

Masa dekat sini sampai2 je Ihsan dah xtentu arah. Yelah nampak pasir terbentang luas. Dah macam masuk syurgalah bagi dia. Sibuk nak duduk and ramas2 pasir. Xlarat nak sekat2 dia kami pun biar je. Memang xsia2 bagi dia pakai baju hujan. Kalau tak harus dia dah salut badan dia dari kepala ke bawah dengan pasir. Tapi bila pakai baju hujan cuma kasut, socks and leg warmers jelah yang kotor. Itupun banyak juga pasir masuk dalam baju. Masa dekat sini kami berjalan panjat bukit pasir. Nampak je bukit tu macam rendah tapi bila berjalan and memanjat wahhh penatnya bila nak sampai ni?! Semput okay! Tinggi rupanya. Oasis pun ada kat kaki bukit tu. Nampak je macam dekat tapi bila nak pergi barulah terasa eh jauh juga rupanya. One time masa Ihsan tengah jalan atas bukit pasir tu suddenly dia jatuh terlangkup. Yang funny nyer kitorang tunggu dia bangun tapi xbangun2 kaku je. So I pun angkat. Sekali rupa2nya lidah dia terjelir2 tengah menikmati butir2 pasir kat kat pipi dia. Nasib baik xmakan. Memang expression dia masa tu buat kitorang xboleh tahan tergelak2 :D

Masa ni hujan sekejap2 berhenti. Suasana pun penuh berkabus sampai menutup pandangan. Memang dingin and cantik sangat. Dari atas bukit tu boleh tengok laut luas. Tapi warna kelabu jugalah sama dengan warna langit mendung. Cumanya kalau hari cerah rasanya lagi cantik sebab boleh tengok contrast warna air laut yang biru and pasir yang kuning. Kami xturun pun ke tepi laut sebab perjalanan masih jauh. Lepas puas bergambar kebetulan hujan pun dah makin lebat. Sempatlah ambil gambar dengan sand sculptures, basuh kaki dan kasut and beli souvenir. Itupun masa ni ramai je visitors yang baru datang. Btw, kalau korang datang sini boleh bawa boot dari rumah. Tapi kat situ pun ada disediakan boot untuk disewa. Sebelum bertolak terus ke Kobe, kami singgah Nishimatusya tu semula. Sebab nak beli sandal untuk Ihsan. Kasut dia dah basah Papa basuh sebab penuh dengan pasir :D

2) Kobe Muslim Mosque

Kobe Mosque (神戸モスク Kobe Mosque), also known as Kobe Muslim Mosque (神戸ムスリムモスク Kobe Muslim Mosque), was founded in October, 1935 in Kobe and is Japan's first mosque." - Source: Wikipedia

The oldest mosque in Japan.

Kami terus ke sini sebab nak solat. Hari pun hujan makin lebat so lebih selesalah solat kat sini. Lagipun I xpernah sampai sini lagi. Tapi hubby dah pernah datang. Kobe Mosque ni adalah masjid tertua di Jepun. Masa tahun 1995 ada earthquake yang sangat kuat di Kobe dengan magnitude 6.8. Ramai orang mati dan bangunan rosak. Tapi masjid ni miraculously survived walaupun bangunan sekeliling dia semua runtuh menyembah bumi! Masjid ni cuma mengalami kerosakan minor je. Boleh baca kat sini and ada gambar masjid tu masih kukuh lepas earthquake tu. Kami sampai sini dalam pukul 3.15 pm. I naik solat dulu. Dalam nak cepat2 kena interview dengan makcik Turki. Dia pun xpandai sangat English, Nihongo lagilah tak. So jenuh masing2 berteka-teki. Dalam dok xfaham tu sempat lagi dia tunjuk gambar family dia. And bagi jajan kat I LOL :D Last2 dia ajak I pergi jumpa menantu dia.

Rupanya menantu dia tengah ajar new Japanese muslimah Al-Quran kot. So menantu dia pun translatelah. Rupanya makcik ni datang melawat anak, menantu dan cucu2 dia. I assume anak dan menantu dia lah yang uruskan masjid ni. I pun dah sembang sikit2 lebih kurang, cepat2 minta diri sebab segan xpasal2 je ganggu orang dalam majlis. Lagipun hubby and Ihsan tengah tunggu dalam kereta. Lepas hubby solat kami bergambar sekejap di luar masjid.

3)Meriken Park

Lepas tu kami terus bertolak ke Kobe Port. Nasib baik dekat2 je jaraknya dengan masjid ni. Masa ni hujan dah makin lebat. Di Kobe Port tu selain kami ada lah beberapa orang berjalan2 kat situ. Maybe diorang pun datang dari jauh kan so hujan2 pun kenalah pergi juga sebab dah sampai kan. Papa pegang payung and Ihsan. Although Ihsan pakai baju hujan tapi dia nak jalan ikut suka hati dia je. Dia suka sangat tengok simulation earthquake tu. Tapi yang funny nyer mengekek2 dia gelak tengok video tu. Salah konsep betul budak ni :D Kitorang pula nak cepat2 ambil gambar. I la kesian berbasah2. Adatlah jadi photographer. Kamera pun sama basah. Nasib baik ada napkin Ihsan boleh cover kamera. Disebabkan cuaca macam tu, we walked around Meriken Park je. Tengok Kobe Tower, Kobe Maritime Museum, and Earthquake Memorial Park. Daripada Meriken Park tu boleh nampak Kobe Harborland yang ada Canal and Mosaic Garden.

The original damage by 1995 Hanshin Earthquake.

Kobe Tower and Kobe Maritime Museum.

Sebenarnya di Kobe Port ni ada macam2 tempat menarik. Dekat2 Kobe Port ni juga ada Kitano-cho and boleh tengok mansions pelbagai negara. In fact masa dalam perjalanan dari Tottori tu, kami lalu Arima Onsen, Mount Rokko, Nunobiki Herb Park and etc. Tapi xsempatlah nak singgah semua unless kalau destination nyer hanya Kobe sahaja. Certain tempat tu kalau nak singgah pun berbayar and xworth it lah kalau nak tengok kejap2 je. Anyway lepas dah bergambar lebih kurang, kami pun terus gerak ke hotel di Osaka. Kami booked Sun Route Hotel Kanku di Izumiotsu, Osaka. Daripada Kobe, jarak dia lebih kurang 50km je. Masa ni hari makin gelap. All of us pun memang dah kepenatan especially Papa. So kelam kabut sikit masa ni.

At the hotel lobby before checking out.

Before sampai hotel kami singgah makan dulu di restoran sushi somewhere around Osaka. Lepas tu terus gi hotel and checked-in. Kami dapat bilik tingkat 17. Sesekali terasa bergoyang mungkin sebab angin kuat di luar. Lagipun bangunan kat Nihon ni plak biasalah ada spring apa bagai so haruslah rasa gerun bila rasa goyang2 tu :P But honestly sangat puas hati dengan Sun Route Hotel ni. Rasanya ni kali ke 2 kami dok di Hotel Sun Route tapi first time dulu di Nagoya. Hotel ni selalu ada promotion and all. Kali ni pun kami dapat harga murah tapi bilik deluxe twin room. Agak besar compared to standard bilik hotel yang selalu kami gi. Yelah bilik2 hotel kat Nihon ni kan selalunya kecik2. So I memang suggestlah kalau korang nak berjalan2 cuba check out Sun Route Hotel yang berdekatan dulu :D

Anyway gambar ada banyak dekat FB boleh tengok situ jelah ye. Okaylah, I will continue with the second part of our ryokou in next entry soon :)

Rain Rain Go Away Come Again Another Day

2011-05-27T01:32:00.006+09:00

It's 1.30 am and I'm still not sleeping. Actually today, which actually means yesterday I was a bit busy preparing things for this weekend. I did mention previously that we are going for berjalan2 ke tempat a little bit jauh from our home. Tempat which both of us xpernah pergi lagi. But actually kalau hubby tu nak kata pernah sampai tu pernah la kot. Cuma dia xpernah singgah je. So, after Asar I baked upside-down pineapple cake dengan mini pizza bun then baru masak dinner as usual. Tadi pulak after dua2 heroes dah tidur I ironed all the clothes that need ironing. Actually dari semalam lagi dah mula kemas2 itu ini. Wah bunyi macam nak pergi bercuti sebulan je kan. Tapi biasalah xretilah main hentam macam koboi je. I kumpul siap2 baju kotor and basuh plus lipat kain sebab lepas balik berjalan2 baju mesti automatik berlonggok sebeban dalam bakul. Transfer gambar daripada kamera ke PC, lipat dan kemas baju-bajan yang nak bawak, pampers, bekalan ubat, health documents Ihsan, chargers, and etc. macam2 lagi. Kalau berdua dulu boleh tahan lagilah barang2. Ada anak sorang bertambah sebeban. Kalau 2 3 orang nanti xtaulah :P

Packing awal2 ni bukannya apa tapi sebab kami plan nak mulakan perjalanan tengah malam hari ni. Which means awal2 pagi Sabtu nanti. Bertolak waktu ni sebab dah masuk weekend toll exit kat mana2 pun 1000 Yen je which is sangatlah murah! Government Nihon bagi discount on weekends. Selain tu of course la tempat yang nak dituju tu jauh. So semua benda termasuk bekal dah siap tinggal nak kemas sket2 je lagi. Siang nanti tinggal nak kemas rumah je plak. Masak dinner awal esok and makan awal lepas tu tidur awal. Sebab nanti hubby nak drive I mesti xboleh tidur punya. Bukannya dia xbagi tidur tapi I selalu memang teman dia drive. At least boleh borak2 dengan dia and hulur dia sweets ke air ke apa ke. Kalau ikut plan, kami akan heading straight to Tottori-ken. Then terus ke Hyogo-ken. Lepas tu ke Osaka-ken and bermalam kat sana. Esoknya Ahad ke Wakayama-ken plak and bermalam kat situ. Hari Isnin baru pelan2 balik ikut jalan biasa sebab dah xde discount hihi :P Kalau sempat singgah Nara-ken. Kalau tak, balik terus ke Nagano-ken home sweet home.

Tapiiiii unfortunately ramalan cuaca nampaknya xberpihak kepada kami. Sekarang ni tengah ada taufan plak menuju dari bawah ke atas. Hari Sabtu tengok percentage boleh kata seluruh negara hujan except Hokkaido kalau xsalah. Ahad and Isnin mungkin hujan jugak takpun mendung. Tsk! Tsk! Camner nak jalan2 ni??? Semua tempat kami nak pergi ni outdoor and dekat2 dengan pantai. Kalau dah namanya ribut patutnya kenalah dok jauh2 dari pantai. Tapi hotel semua dah booking. Kalau cancel pun takleh refund balik. Kalau hujan sket2 bolehlah gagah2 lagi jalan2 berpayung. Kalau lebat susahlah comfirm lencun. Nak bawak keluar kamera pun takut. Huwaaa sedihlah pulak. Ni kira percutian yang lastlah kat Nihon. Lepas ni cuma nak pergi Yamanashi-ken lagi sekali kot untuk visit kubur 'Abid je. So takde dahlah. Xsangka plak nak jadi macam ni. So sekarang ni agak blur sekarang and terfikir2 macam mana nak buat ni ye? Nak kena cari indoor places ke untuk visit atau tukar destination ke apa ke? Hmmm esok pagi2 kena bincang dengan hubby. Sempat lagi sekurang2nya kalau nak selamatkan keadaan. Tapi 100% tu taklah kan.

I'm not complaining pun. Ada hikmahlah tu kat mana2. Actually memang sekarang ni perubahan ke musim panas so akan selalulah hujan yang lebat disertai guruh berdentum. Ribut pun selalulah datang. Kebetulan plak nak terkena. Kami pun this week je last chance sebab masuk bulan June dah susah nak berjalan2. Xpelah hopefully semuanya akan tetap dipermudahkan, berjalan lancar and kami selamat dalam perjalanan pergi dan balik, InsyaAllah. Takde choicelah kena enjoy je the moment. One thing for sure, gambar xberapa cantiklah kalau hari mendung. Ya Allah, lindungi lah kami dan rahmatilah percutian kami hujung minggu ni, Amin.

Please Wish Us Luck

2011-05-24T11:36:00.009+09:00

Finally I think now it's the right time to reveal what I have been fussing about in the previous entry and end the guessing game already. The matter that somewhat has been a mind boggling one since last past fortnight. Actually only now I feel ready to spread the news. So, it's just that... we are gonna back home to Msia for good very soon! :D Before this I have mentioned somewhere that the original plan was for us to go back in August 2011, which is this year. However after coming back to Japan from long holiday (for me and Ihsan) or so-called outstation (for hubby) in Msia, we decided to change the plan and delay the date to March 2012 which is next year. But suddenly right after the recent Golden Week holiday, we got the news that we need to go back to Msia soon due to unavoidable circumstances. Actually we could stick to our revised plan but still somehow it doesn't feel so right to proceed with the plan. Which then forced us to go back to our original plan. So, most probably we will be going back in middle of July since hubby is going to start working on 1st August.

Honestly at first we were rather shocked and a bit upset to accept the news. Although we already knew all the details about going back for good but we didn't expect that we have to proceed with the plan not at the time we wished. That's what what made us feel quite hesitated since we still have a few targets to achieve and there are a few holding-back reasons. Which they could be realized if we delay the date until early spring next year. So, we feel as if we are forced to go back although actually nobody is forcing anybody. However, accepting the news is somehow it feels like the correct thing to do. Truly, we feel mixed inside, so it isn't totally the feel of disagreement that we have. Deep inside we feel quite relieve for we are finally going back for good and we are going to start settling down soon! There are still lots of goodness that we can never find in Nihon except in Msia itself.

Settling down in Msia means 1. we can start our firm life root in Msia and preparing for the future days, 2. we can spend more times with families especially realizing that our parents are getting older each day so it's good to be nearer to them, 3. more suitable environment to expand the family and as well as children development, 4. Msia offers more life to us since everything is so familiar, 5. it's very comforting and relieving to know that during our ups and downs we are no longer alone, 6. Msia is Islamic country which is very important to us, 7. many more to list down and etc. Although at the same time we feel so heavy to leave Nihon since especially we are so used with life and culture in Nihon. Everything is so comforting and we feel so secure living in Nihon. There are many things that we will surely miss because there are things that we can never get in Msia. Yet, we still have to go back to where we belong to and live with the flaws. Although Nihon itself is also imperfect, I know some people might not bother going back to Msia ever. But it depends on what are the top priorities you put in your life. And everyone has different priorities.

I have waited 2 weeks to come to the term and fully accept the fact that we are going back to Msia. In within past 2 weeks I stayed up late and only sleep after Subuh prayer. Thinking about so many things that we will gonna miss soon as well as the new things we have to face in the near future. Nihon is very meaningful to us and has somehow set a place deep in our hearts. Yet, I'm gonna reserve that in another entry. Anyway, recently we started to think about so many things regarding to settling down like house, car, job, money, money, money and lots of other stuffs. So being me, I hate to be clueless so as usual I started gathering so many information regarding everything. Now I feel myself at ease for at least I have armed myself with necessary information. Life in Msia isn't the same as our life in Nihon and there will be a lot of uncertainties. In order for us to complete our life one by one we need the knowledge to run the strategy.

By the way, Alhamdulillah we are grateful for the path that has been set upon us. Although it was kinda a bit so, but we didn't actually mean to be ungrateful or trying to disagree with our fate. It was just that we are shocked. We already knew the plan except the time wasn't as we hoped, that's all. Honestly, our life ahead going to turn 180 degree from now. So many things will change. I don't think hubby is going to bother much about it. But for me, it's going to be big and I'm nervous with the days ahead. I just hope everything will run easy and smooth for us and at the end of the day we going to be smiling, feeling blessed, InsyaAllah. That's why I said earlier it was kind of mixed of emotion when it come to this news. As well as we could shout 'Yay!' but at the same time there is 'Yikes!' coming out. So maybe I should shout 'Yayikes!' instead? :P So, that's it.

And no I'm not pregnant yet if that's you earlier guess :P In fact we are still on family planning :) If it happened that the entry was actually meant of me being pregnant, it wouldn't go that way. The entry definitely would be asking everyone to lompat-bintang with me :D

Nemui~~~

2011-05-23T02:46:00.004+09:00

Now dah pukul 2.45 am and I'm still not sleeping. Mengantuknya! Tapi kena tunggu lebih kurang 10 minit lagi untuk solat Subuh terus. Kalau tak, confirmlah xsedar and terlajak jadi Subuh dinasour nanti. Actually I stay up sebab nak gather some info. Asalnya nak stay up kejap je tapi terlajak plak. Sebab banyak sangat info nak dicari. Info apa tu ek? hihi :) InsyaAllah next weekend kami plan nak jalan2 jauh sikit. Hotels pun dah booking online tadi. Since nak pergi tempat yang xfamiliar so kenalah tau apa yang menarik kat tempat2 berkenaan. Banyak sangat rupanya yang menarik. Cuma sempat xsempat jelah nak pergi. So tadi dah list down and pilih2 mana je yang nak pergi. Kalau nak pergi semua xsempatlah kot. Ahaa kami nak pergi mana tu ye? Nantilah I story. Truly nak jalan2 ni pun ada sebab sebenarnya. Tu pun nanti gak I cerita. Misteri entry yang lepas pun xreveal lagi kan? Ada certain yang I dah inform. Tapi rasanya boleh agak kot, no? :D

Haih banyaknya nak cerita tapi xtercerita. Memang xde ciri2 seorang blogger tegar apatah lagi blogger yang bagus. Bagus in term of frequency mengupdate bloglah okay. Hakikatnya I memang sangat baik, harap maklum ye LOL :P Hmmm dah banyak hari sebenarnya tidur after Subuh ni. So not good. Although I cuba tidur awal pun dah susah sebab xboleh terlelap even mengantuk. Kena cepat2 ubah semula. Again, ada sebab sebenarnya kenapa tidur lewat. Lately sangat banyak berfikir and gather info tentang macam2 perkara. So jadual pun dah jadi agak lintang-pukang semula. Anak I pun sedikit terabai sebab Mama sibuk dok buat 'kerja'. Xpe2, this phase is already slowing down and Mama dah takkan 'sesibuk' 2 minggu lepas. InsyaAllah akan cuba perbaiki keadaan sebaiknya. Owh dah azan. Nak solat Subuh. Hopefully lepas solat jangan xboleh tidur pulak sudahlah. Karang kesian Ihsan esok pagi merengek2 suruh Mama bangun tapi Mama xberupaya nak buka mata :P

Maybe This Is The Best

2011-05-09T00:26:00.008+09:00

I feel like blogging and that's why I'm staying up now. Although my original plan is actually to do other things. Banyak benda nak buat sebenarnya tapi malas pula and rasa no mood especially bila baru2 ni dapat 1 new surprising or should I say shocking news? It's more shocking rather than surprising sebabnya although we will get what we want at the first place but it is kind of not the way how we wanted it to be. Hmm somehow nak xnak kena juga settlekan all the pending matters. In fact nampak gayanya akan bertambah lagi akan datang ni. Tunggulah dulu. Pelan2 buat satu2. In the meantime nak kena grasp and digest the new input I just received. Hopefully eventually I will come out from denial state. Eceh denial tu. Macam apa je kan :P Anyway although belum 100% confirm tapi rasanya 95% InsyaAllah dah pasti. Kalau difikirkan balik xperlu nak terkejut pun sebab memang ini yang dikehendaki. Tapi tulah xsangka pulak it will be a bit... how to say ye? Sedikit berlainan lah somehow. It's so soon!

Mukadimah dah panjang tapi still xcakap apa benda kan? Entahlah xde hati nak sebut until dah 100% confirm nanti. To think back xpatut sebenarnya cakap macam ni sebab somehow Allah dah makbulkan apa yang diharapkan selama ni. Walaupun not exactly seperti yang dirancang but Allah tau apa yang terbaik. Mungkin ada hikmah disebaliknya. Memang. Mesti ada. Habis tu xreti2 nak bersyukur ke? Hmm Astaghfirullahhal'azim. Alhamdulillah Ya Allah :) I don't know. Thinking about this fact that I have to accept makes me feel excited of the interesting new life ahead, keep imagining of the things that finally can be realized and feel at ease for at least what I wished will come true. But still at the same time because of a few reasons, this also makes me feel like crying, so sad and tensed of all the uncertainties. And on top of all is because I'm still not ready for this to happen and I'm so scared of losing. Sungguh at times rasa kucar-kacir and bercampur-baur perasaan ni. Sigh... we can never get what we want all at the same time, can we? Siapa kata boleh? Memang xboleh okay. Walaupun mungkin kita ada pilihan tapi kadang2 keadaan dan situasi somehow jelas menunjukkan pilihan yang terbaik untuk kita adalah berlawanan dengan apa yang kita nak.

Uncertainty

Nampaknya kena lah pujuk hati, pikirkan dan pandang semuanya yang baik2 dan positif2 saja. I'm praying for Allah to make this smooth for me and my little family. Ya Allah, bukalah hati kami untuk menerima dengan sepenuh hati apa yang telah dibentangkan dihadapan kami. Tunjukkanlah kami segala hikmah disebalik apa yang bakal dilalui. Bimbing dan berilah kami petunjuk disepanjang perjalanan yang kami lalui. Semoga kami selalu sabar, tabah, kuat, gembira dan berbahagia selalu. Jangan biarkan kami memandang kebelakang dan mengeluh dengan nasib yang dah ditetapkan. Sebaliknya biarlah kami mengingat masa lalu sebagai kenangan berharga yang manis. Semoga kami redha dan sepatutnya bersyukur selalu dengan segala rezeki yang sudah ditetapkan untuk kami. Dan semoga hari2 yang akan datang akan mencipta lebih senyuman :)

Hai hati... redha dan bersyukurlah. InsyaAllah, mungkin inilah yang terbaik :)

Sakura Hanami 2011

2011-04-30T23:40:00.009+09:00

It's Golden Week holiday here in Japan. As stated in japan-guide.com website "Golden Week holiday is a collection of four national holidays within 7 days. In combination of well-placed weekends, Golden Week becomes three busiest holiday seasons, besides New Year and Obon week". So according to the calendar, the string of holiday has actually started yesterday, April 29th until May 5th. However for us, technically the holiday will only start tomorrow afternoon. It's because hubby was still working yesterday, today and half day for tomorrow. Actually for tomorrow he just needs to settle a few more works that unfinished today. Not only that, he is going to start working already on April 4th. Well... of course I don't like the feeling being stuck at home just like any other weekday when most people are enjoying their holiday. Although actually we don't plan to go holidaying anywhere but at least I wished hubby could spend time at home with us. But coincidentally he is tied with workload at the moment. Sigh :(

Anyway, since hubby is going to have 3 and a half days holiday from work, so we have planned for a few outings. Firstly, maybe tomorrow we are going to Nishimatsuya, Daiso just to find a few stuffs and grocery shopping at the supa. Furthermore it's going to be raining tomorrow for the whole nation. So we are gonna spend time indoors only. As for Monday, probably we will just stay at home or go the playground nearby. Owh this reminds me that I need to dome some sewing work. A few of hubby's clothes need to be altered. Plus we also have a a few stuffs to settle at home. Then on Tuesday, probably we are going to Yamanashi to visit 'Abid's place and stop by at Heidi's Village on the way back for hanami. Lastly on Wednesday maybe we will bring Ihsan to Iida zoo at the nearby city. The last time we went there was I don't know... might be more than 2 years ago. By the way it's just a small free entrance zoo. Hubby doesn't like it there because he said the zoo is stinky. Well, I told him of course because the zoo isn't a perfume shop so that's why it doesn't smells nice :P Anyway, since the weather is still chilly so I think it's quite comfortable to go to the zoo. I want Ihsan to see the penguin especially. I'm eager to see his reactions towards the animals. I bet he will enjoy it there :D

However all the plans are just plans and we will see how thing goes. Perhaps the main factor, the weather is gonna be on our side or else we might need to do some changes. By the way, a fortnight ago we went for sakura hanami at the Yotagiri Park nearby our house. At first we thought of enjoying the sakura at the riverside downhill of our housing area. But the place was small and a bit cramped with people picnicking. So we headed to the former park although a bit distant. The park is big and many people were picnicking, barbecuing, or simply resting, or just strolling around like us. We spent time letting Ihsan playing at the playground provided there. He enjoyed playing with the sands, climbing the stairs and going down the slide. We took a lot of pictures with the sakura at the same time. There's also river beside the park and Ihsan refused to come out of the water when it was time to leave. The water running down from the mountain was of course undoubtedly icy cold, yet feet dipping wasn't enough for him. If hubby didn't hold him I'm surely he would throw himself into the water :D

Full-bloomed sakura flowers.

Fallen sakura petals.

Cheeky boy :)

Actually the sakura at the Yotagiri Park wasn't fully bloomed compared to at the riverside's near our home. Then on last weekend we thought we could enjoy the remaining of sakura. Unfortunately due to the strong winds and series or rainy days before that, only a few sakura flowers left on trees and almost all the trees already grown with leaves. The ground was fully covered with fallen sakura petals. Just so you know full bloomed sakura tree only has sakura flowers and no leaf at all. But this most beautiful peak of sakura tree cycle usually lasted for a week. So, I guess this is my last chance seeing sakura in Nihon. I wished to see other type of cherry blossoms which I have yet to experience even once. O fcourse I have seen a few but what I mean is yet to take picture with them. Although I have been here for nearly 6 years. Perhaps who knows luck will be on my side next year just right before we leave Nihon, InsyaAllah :)

Setting Toddler's Sleep On Schedule

2011-04-21T09:04:00.004+09:00

Hihi tajuk yeye je kan. Hmmm okay from where to start? Hari ni kami bangun awal. Actually tiap2 hari pun bangun awal sebab nak siapkan bentou hubby but then join Ihsan tido. Bila dah cuaca just nice xsejuk xpanas ni sedap jela tido sampai nak dekat2 tghari baru bangun. Bila jadi macam ni Ihsan pun nap siang makin lewat sebab bangun lewat. So dia nap masa petang2 resulting malam dia tido lewat sama dengan waktu Mama Papa masuk tido. Inilah juga punca kenapa Mama kekurangan my 'me time'. Sebab sepatutnya Ihsan masuk tido paling lewat pun pukul 10.00 pm. So at least I could have 1 hour to 3 hours kalau stay up untuk buat apa2 yang I nak buat. Selalunya waktu tu la juga I boleh spend masa untuk have quality time with hubby nak bincang2 apa2 ke, study DSLR yang entah bila nak khatam, study Nihongo yang entah bila nak pandai sebab progress slow sangat, update housekeeping book, update blog and etc. Furthermore xsuka sebenarnya bangun lewat2 sebab not good for kecerdasan Ihsan. Seperti yang dipesan oleh orang city hall, baby bangun awal and tido awal akan jadi anak yang bijak :D Apart from malas baca buku lah apa lah haa itu lain cerita laa. Selain tu juga kan orang selalu cakap pagi2 rezeki murah :)

Actually jadual kami terubah since balik Msia hari tu. Awal2 tu okay je macam biasa. Then once hubby balik Japan I start to stay up until very late. Harus lah pagi2 mengantuk tahap gaban. So lama2 Ihsan pun jadi terikut dengan I tido lewat bangun lewat. Kalau dia dah ubah jadual adalah menjadi sangat susah. So I nekad la kena ubah balik. Tambah2 dlu2 zaman anak dara I memang bukan morning person. Once dah kawin pun susah sangat nak kick the habit. Bila dah ada anak ni je berjaya mengubah tabiat buruk ni. So kalau nak ubah jadi lebih baik kesimpulannya beranak banyak2 LOL :P Anyway sebelum keadaan menjadi lebih buruk so kena lah cepat2 ubah jadual kembali kepada sedia kala. Actually xsusah pun. Tapi sebab sebelum ni sejuk kan so memang xsanggup kalau xduduk dalam selimut. Dengan nak jimat minyak gas heater so potponed la hihi :P Hubby pun dah perli2 kan. Dia risaukan Ihsan je sbnrnya. I perasan itu je ubatnya kalau nak anak tido awal ialah bagi dia bangun awal. Nap siang plak paling lewat ialah tghari and jgn lbh drpd waktu tu. Kalau tak confirm time nak tido malam dah tutup lampu pun dia boleh cergas sorang2 lagi. Haih I xboleh la berterusan macam ni. Ini juga la sebab nape I slalu stress lately asyik nak marah je. Not good not good!

So Alhamdulillah hari ni berjaya lawan nafsu nak join Ihsan tido. Tadi pagi bangun masak nasi goreng. Then hubby dah gi kerja terus kejutkan Ihsan. Dia dok senyum2 sambil tutup mata dengar I nyanyi2 and panggil2 dia. Last2 bangun gak. Ni dia tgh layan Disney Channel. I pilih2 jugak. Selalunya yang pagi2 ni educational punya. Waktu2 lain I xbagi tgk pun. Sebelum tu td dia tengok NHK utk kids punya. Tapi dia xminat sangat. Maybe sebab xdibiasakan dari kecik. Dia lagi minat yang English. Mat saleh lah sangat kan LOL Tapi Dinsey Channel pun dia suka Mickey Mouse Club House, Winnie The Pooh and Handy Manny. Yang lain2 tu xberapa. So tadi dah breakfast. Lepas ni boleh buat activities dengan Ihsan. Baca buku cerita and main2 sket sampai dia ngantuk. Then baru sama2 morning nap. Then bangun balik before tghari and lunch apa semua. Lepas tu buat lah apa2 patut macam biasa. Hopefully dapat lah ikut balik jadual macam biasa and perhaps diperkemaskan dengan lebih manfaat, InsyaAllah! Distraction paling utama ialah internet yang sentiasa ON ni la paling bahaya. Mama kena dok jauh2 sket. If not banyak benda xjalan.

Hihi nak citer benda lain tapi citer pasal bangun tido awal plak. Nantilah citer pasal sakura hanami last week ke, pasal mimpi I yang pelik2 tapi menarik lately :P, pasal cuti2 Msia ritu pun xtercerita lagi and so on. Gambar pun dah lama xletak. Malas sbnrnya nak godek2 gambar :P Okay nanti sambung lagi.

I'm Relieve It's Spring

2011-04-11T12:27:00.004+09:00

Ahamdulillah although today is a bit windy but there is still sun shines. The weather during past weekend were also very good. Unlike past Friday which was quite gray and gloomy, with strong winds, raining and it was quite cold. Such atmosphere was surely not really convincing, which always would keep you to stay inside. I admit it I like cloudy and rainy days in Msia but it's different in Japan. Instead of happy, such weather I experience here is very somber and kinda lower the motivation. Especially when every Friday itself nowadays somehow kinda gives uncomfortable feeling. Honestly, since the March 11th, I don't feel as happy and as calm as before. Perhaps because I don't really feel safe and in my mind I keep feeling as like there is something going to happen. In fact 'something' is keep happening for example like the latest 7.4 magnitude earthquake last week. This feeling affects our mood if not much at least a little. We don't really feel like going out although we wished to. We have plans in mind but becoming not excited anymore coming with the plan. Well, I just keep praying that things will get better, Amin.

Anyway last Saturday and Sunday nothing much took place. Owh before that, Alhamdulillah hubby has recovered although he's still experiencing a little bit of headteacher every once in a while. I suggested him to go have a check at the hospital but he said to wait and see first. And that's what I don't like. But I hope the headache will vanish soon, InsyaAllah. Anyway, we just stayed at home on Saturday because hubby needed to go to kaisya to do his work. As I mentioned before, he's quite occupied at least until the end of this month. On top of that maybe next week he needs to go to Tokyo for 3 days and there's possibility that I'll be left at home alone with Ihsan. I hope I could survive the nights without him. Eheh I'm sure we could survive but it's just unimaginable and already felt so dragged. The nights surely would be the longest ones to end :P Owh anyway he's going to Tokyo again and it's regarding his previous course training.

While on sundae hubby decided to spend time at home. Then after Asar we went out to second hand shop and got Ihsan a few interesting toys, to the supa for some groceries shopping and lastly to the playground beside the river. We brought ball and tried to teach Ihsan kicking the ball. But as usual he was more interested wandering around, play with the dried grass and the slide. Budak2 zaman sekarang cuba kalau bagi IT gadgets laju je dia. Nanti besar sket ikut Papa main badminton lah belajar jadi sportive sket okay ;) Anyway, we didn't stay long there since it was already late. Owh by the way it was only us at the park. I don't know why the park is always deserted. Not many people go there. Somehow it always feels less fun. Because I believe the more people, the merrier it would be, right? :) I hope there will be more kids at the park then so that Ihsan could mix with others. Owh I got to see the sakura just started to bloom and perhaps next week we could enjoy the fully bloom sakura :)

Now a few are already talking about Golden Week holiday which is arriving in about 2 weeks. We have a few plans in mind but haven't really thought about them yet. Which also means we yet to have a specific plan. Furthermore hubby's schedule is also isn't confirmed yet so it's hard to plan anyway. Especially with this situation in Japan kinda hampered our mood to get enjoy. To add more, we just gone sight-seeing once we reached back to Japan recently. So I think maybe we just gonna stay at home or at least go to the nearby cities only. Hmm we'll see. But I hope we'll spend the holiday in a fun way. Lastly, the weather is becoming warmer and much more comfortable I must say. Not too cold and not yet warm. I feel glad and ironically relieve that spring is setting in. The days will be very clear and we'll see more lively colors. And thus perhaps brings more cheers in our daily life, InsyaAllah :)

Off The Track

2011-04-06T16:15:00.000+09:00

Today is quite a challenging day. Hubby is still on leave. At first we thought he was just having the normal headache. But his temperature getting higher by yesterday's evening and his headache hasn't gotten better. So this morning he went to the clinic. The doctor carried out the influenza test on him but the result was negative, fortunately. But his fever has yet to subside. So, probably tomorrow he'll need to go to clinic again because it could be influenza. But I really hope it's not. Possibly hubby would be on leave again tomorrow. Although I did mention I love having hubby around at home yet it's not fun seeing him being sick. I could see he's having terrible headache. When he was asleep during the noon today I noticed his forehead throbbing, seriously. That surely painful :(

Even hubby is at home I wished I could be more of a help to ease his pain or at least make him feel comfortable. Unfortunately I don't know why but Ihsan was being super clingy and easily irritated. He threw tantrum when he didn't get what he want or he didn't get thing the way he want it. Macam tadi dia marah I threw his dirty bip into the laundry basker. Nangis sedu-sedan okay! Bila I bagi semula bip tu dia usung rata tapi nangis jugak as like dah merajuk so dah xberguna Mama bagi semula LOL :P He immediately cried on top of his lung once he felt things has gone totally wrong. When this happened, he would demand for more attention which means more nursing, coaxing, holding, hugging, pampering and all. And he wanted only me to be with him. Even if I left him for a while he would start to cry, follow me, and he keep hugging my legs when I tried to walk. He wanted me to keep carrying him around wherever I go and never put him down. Like just now, hubby went to sleep as soon after dinner and Ihsan was only on my lap for good 2 and a half hours enjoying me hugging, rocking and lullaby him with the usual zikir. Serious kebas kaki. I hoped that I could put him to sleep early but no. Instead he really enjoyed me doing so perhaps because he felt that he was so much loved by me. I noticed that when he has had a rough time with me, he later would demand a compensation moment with me. Pasrah lah Mama oi!

Today also hasn't been quite a good day for me because I simply couldn't be a good person myself. I feel physically a bit unwell. Plus last night I kept waking a few times every time Ihsan cried. Lately he keeps waking a few times every night because he's angry with the blanket covering him, or he doesn't feel me near to him or he feels cold or he wants to be nursed and sometimes he feels like talking and playing. So since the morning today I have started scolding Ihsan because he kept disturbing me while I tried to catch some more sleep. Sounds selfish I know but I feel really tired today okay. He kept poking and digging my eyes and nose, kicking my head, pulling my hair and all. Honestly I don't mind but I really don't like it that he really likes to play with his feet on our heads. I've tried to teach him about this but he has yet to get the message that what he's doing is rude. Or maybe he understood but refused to listen yet? Anyway, while dragging myself out of bed this morning I thought that I wished I've stuck myself at an island where no one could disturb me and all I should think about is me me and me! In your dream! :P

To add more spices, Ihsan is being a little bit energetic today which of course not a good combo considering the parents conditions. So, I have been on top of my lungs a few times today. I regret it that I couldn't be much of a help to hubby and the fact that he needed to hear us screaming on and off. Sorry Yang :( I feel guilty towards Ihsan too for I couldn't fulfill his desires and play a lot with him. I'm biologically unstable at the moment and that of course affected my physical momentum thus both resulting me emotionally drained. So my patience was as thin as an onion's skin. Heck, I'm not a robotic mom. So bila bercampur2 semuanya mestilah semua serba tak kena kan. Anyway, I just hope that hubby will get better and be ready to start working again. He got lots of work to do and I'm sure he'll get tensed too having many pending works. On leave or not, either way isn't really fun lah macam ni. But I pray he will fully recover soon and eventually rejuvenates his motivation to face workload that's waiting for him. Well, pity hubby. Takpelah sakit pun, tanda Allah ingat. Sabar ye Ucuk. Plus boleh tido banyak2 kan best tu? :D

Get well soon, Papa!

As for my beloved little toddler, I hope he will slow down on the Terrible 2 syndromes. Especially part throwing tantrum tu Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, lembutkan lah hati anakku Ihsan. Aku tahu dia cerdik sebab tu dia banyak akal dan banyak kerenah. Aku bersyukur kerana diberikan anak yang pandai berfikir ada je idea nak curi perhatian Mama Papa dia. Tapi berilah kami kesabaran yang sangat tinggi untuk menghadapi Ahmad Izzul Ihsan, Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin. Perhaps Ihsan will be such a dear tomorrow and the day onwards sampai bila2 dan Mama pun banyak2 lah bersabar Mama oi, InsyaAllah! And last but not least, buck up Mama! Don't know what's waiting for you tomorrow but all best wishes to thyself :)

Monday Blab

2011-04-04T12:14:00.003+09:00

So it's Monday again. Last night I couldn't sleep although I already felt sleepy by the time we got into the bedroom. Both beloveds were already snoring in their sleep while I still kept tossing and turning around. I guess probably because I couldn't stop my mind from keep wandering around. Especially when I thought of not so beautiful stuffs of course the mind will work even more and left me more awake than before that. Lately I've been feeling a bit gloomy. Although sometimes I tried to ignore the feeling and manage to laugh anyway yet the unsettled feeling is still there inside me. I realized it's because I'm affected much by everything taking place all around me. Some things we couldn't really do anything about it yet it affects us before we realized it. Whereas some things we could actually work on it yet it's not easy as ABC especially when there are other factors related. Banyaknyer perkara yang merunsingkan. But actually adakah sebenarnya perlu dirunsingkan pun? Jeng jeng :P

Owh by the way last night this news really disturbed me. This boy was beaten by his warden teacher who apparently an ustaz (urgh what a spoil to the status!) for 2 freaking hours until coma. And sadly the boy is already dead after hours on life support machine. I really wonder what has gotten into the teacher's mind? The boy is only 7 years old, for God sake! That's not a way of giving lesson. I'm quite conventional and I support corporal punishment. Hitting on palms, bum or feet using cane is okay. Even slapping is okay. Personally I don't mind if that's what it takes to make my child a good person (yet, nauzubillah! harap2nya anak saya dan bakal anak2 baik2 sahaja, amin!). Of course that hurts but as long as it lasted as soon as the punishment is over and no prolong harm, I'm fine with that.

Anyway for this 7 years old boy who I believe he only reached his mumayyiz age, even if it's true he was guilty but violent punishment is totally unacceptable at any stages of age! That's imply uncivilized act! I wished the teacher could use reverse psychology. Or at least he didn't lost his mind and succumb himself into his rage of emotion. I can't imagine how the boy had to go through the most painful 2 hours of his life. Earlier last week I was disturbed again by another baby died at the nursery obviously because of negligence. I wonder what's wrong with our society. Obviously impatient and neglectful person shouldn't work as a teacher. Sigh! Semoga Allah lindungi kita semua dan keturunan kita daripada kejadian2 yang xdiingini, amin!

Ehhh where am I heading??? I want to blab on other things actually but looks like I'm already slanted far from my main point :P Anyway truly hubby has been busy since we came back and this will probably end only on the end of this month. By busy means he needs to work on Saturday and even if he's not working he still goes to the kaisya on Saturday and Sunday to do his works. Hence this also means Ihsan and I are left lacking of perhatian dan belaian kasih-sayang :( And on top of that hubby is super drained and yesterday already down with headache. Yet the good news is he's home already by now yay! Hubby balik sebab kepala dia sakit semula so he took half day leave. Tadi dengar bunyi kereta terus angkat Ihsan sambil kami menunggu depan pintu tersengih2. Siap yay-yay lagi LOL Padahal hubby muka dok tahan sakit kepala. Pelik je dia tengok kitorang LOL He's sleeping now after taking medication although I believe tido2 ayam je sebab banyak gangguan. Tambah2 Ihsan pun dok terlompat2 je excited tengok Papa. Orang suruh tido dalam bilik dia tak nak. Hopefully hubby will get better. And we too could top up our love meter by just seeing, hugging and golek-ing around Papa :)

Saturday Blab

2011-04-02T12:15:00.004+09:00

It's sunny and windy Saturday but it feels just like any other weekdays for Ihsan and I. Hubby is working today so we are bound by the same routine. I have plans in mind but looks like we need to squeeze all plans towards tomorrow. I wish I could get my plans settle by tomorrow. Owh I'm just so eager! It's nothing biggie actually but I'm just excited. Okay-okay actually we are going to hunt for Ihsan'a study table and chair. I've been thinking about this for a long time but the limited space in house keeping my idea postponed. But I'm not going to put it on halt anymore. I'm planning to make some improvement in Ihsan's routine. Perhaps this is going to give him more benefits.

Anyway, yesterday was 1st April which meant the beginning of a new year according to Japanese calendar has just started. Since I'm a bit late at starting my new year's mojo last 1st January so I should start already by now instead. Getting starting on things is very hard for me especially when you are the Procrastinator Queen :P Owh... just so you know, I tend to do things halfway too that's why I got many objectives not achieved LOL! :P However this time I should really disciplined myself. I'm going to make list of my resolutions as well as the short and long term targets. Eh baru nak list down ke? :P LOL No lah, I already have them in mind but writing them down will give a clearer view and at least I will feel 'forced' to work on them and 'guilty' if I don't kan? Good idea, right? :D And one more thing I realize is in my case I should never even give myself take a pause or else there will be the possibility for me to suddenly 'forget' and abandon what I'm doing. Or else, I'll have to start all over again.

Now on a different story, the past few days I've been feeling my motivation up and down like a roller-coaster. Especially when it's nearing the time of the month so it makes it hard to control the emotion. So I easily snap when things don't go my way. And there are so many things that making me annoyed! Sigh... Anyway... to cut the story short I found the famous Cikgu Shida videos on YouTube. When I was in Msia my mom really made a big fuss on her. She dengan penuh semangat dan gayanya bercerita about this particular Cikgu Shida. I tried to watch her videos back then but couldn't might be because she privatized her account for a while. Then, yesterday I got to see her and I had a good laugh! She is so hilarious! Okay, I'm not going to criticize her but personally I kinda salute her for her confidence. She's so dare and brave to make such thing herself. She doesn't care about what others thinking of her. But I envy her self-esteem (on the positive side). Although neither this means I'm against what's she doing nor I support her.

Then, from cikgu shida I stumbled upon Paku and Belacan and Bed Bradshaw, Americans who can speak Malay. As for Paku and Belacan their videos are nonsense yet entertaining while Ben's many of the videos he taught American slang to Msians. Watching their videos was kinda a slap on the face to me and has somehow given me the new determination to work on my stuffs. Owh I'm not gonna elaborate them here. No-no. It's nothing regarding Malay. My Malay is good and I'm proud of that. It's other thing okay. Although I know there are Msian who can't speak and write in Malay. And not even proud with Malay language at all. Shame on you! And don't call yourself Msian. I suggest these people go get themselves other citizenship.

Hmm that's my babbles for today. Go search those people on YouTube if you need something to lighten you up. I should stop. I don't know why Ihsan keep climbing on table, chewing on stuffs and owh why must he needs to keep bothering me! Ihsan bagi la Mama chance sekajap je. I need a break!

Shifting Back To Normal

2011-03-28T12:47:00.008+09:00

It has been nearly a month since we came back here on last 3rd March 2011. I should say that so many things had taken place within those period. Yet here I am only decided to make an effort posting something in this abandoned blog. As usual it's not that I don't have the like to update but maybe I should just say I haven't been in my blogging-self mode yet. Furthermore that a lot have changed too since my last entry. Among of them are firstly I refuse to stay up late at all because I think it's not good for my health, daily routine and beauty (LOL - yelah umur dah meningkat ni kenalah jaga sikit :P. I hate dark circles!). While the second reason is because nowadays I have little private assistant who always insists to help me with the typing and all (pantang tengok Papa Mama baru je datang dekat dengan PC or open the laptop dia dulu dah datang tersengih2 tanpa dipelawa). As I'm typing this, he's here beside me and I really need to gambatte in finishing this entry. Oh wow he's already upgraded himself on to the table. Good!

Thus, I'm still re-adapting myself back to our normal life. But it's so hard especially when it's so cold that always makes me so difficult to make a move. Just so you know it's still snowing once in a while in here. Anyway, I'm slowly trying to work the schedule in order to make everything runs. I have many objectives I need to achieve. So I hope I can make myself productive to the optimum level ASAP. Owh not 'that' productive ye. Not yet kot dalam masa terdekat ni LOL :P Honestly I don't really know from where to start. There are so many things I wanted to share but I believe almost all of them have gone outdated. But since just the other day hubby made a comment, "Ala takde cerita baru ke?" while he browsed my blog. Sibuk je kan? :P Only then I determined to make and update.

Truly, the past previously days had been quite depressing, unmotivated, worrying days for me. I have no mood in doing anything and kept procrastinating stuffs. But some things still need to run so I have no way to ignore them. But I worked on them quite slowly. Ihsan was on high fever 2 times in 2 consecutive weeks. And I don't know, there are a few issues with this little boy which a few times he drove me up the wall. He turned me into Banshee! Of course that was upsetting and stressful for me. But he is slowing down and perhaps I can resolve things with him one by one. Maybe it's the Terrible 2 symptoms? Uh-oh! :P And not forgetting the other factor which I guess most of you already knew why. Yes, the massive earthquake and terrible tsunami and now the still unsettled nuclear leakage. The significant 11th March 2011, Friday was indeed an adrenaline rush, surreal, sad, heart-wrenching and it's beyond words for me. Speechless. Until today I'm still haunted by the shaking feeling and I keep looking at my hanging lamp to see whether it's swaying or not. Sometimes it's really the small shaking but half of the time is only my feelings. This is so not good mentally and emotionally.

Anyway, Alhamdulillah we are safe from any danger. What we experienced was only the pieces of the natural disaster. My heart goes out to all those who affected. I had been watching TV non-stopped for the first 2 weeks and I got to see although a few of them were miraculously a happy ones but most of them are heartrending stories. Somehow I'm not regret wathcing TV because I learned magic values from the victims. I should say I'm impressed and moved. But too much exposure to the aftermath isn't good either. So, enough of too much TV. Now I'm just trying to limit myself updated with the nuclear reactor issue so that we could take preventive steps in our daily life. Sigh... that's another thing. I know it's never easy but I keep praying for some miracle to happen and it will settle fast. Even though the we are quite distant from the nuclear plant and the nuclear substance detected very low. But I'd rather choose not to take any chances at all if I could. Especially when we have a little child with us.

Complete 1 little family again - All the best to us for the days ahead.

In the meantime, I'm praying for everything to get better as per normal. And it's entering a new year according to Japanese calendar come this April. Perhaps I'll be highly motivated enough to endure coming days and get to work on my resolutions. Yosh gambare watashi! (I know hubby is surely laughing or at least smiling when he reads this. Tak suka tau! :P).

Speedy Recovery, Loves!

2010-11-29T13:53:00.011+09:00

Uhuk uhuk! Kita batuk dulu sikit :P Haih xsempat2 nak update. Siang tadi dah typed banyak sekali ni buka semula tengok2 aik tinggal 2 perenggan atas je? Mesti tadi terdelete tapi xperasan. Kurang asam betul! Anyway since last entry macam2 kisah yang berlaku. Tapi sebelum entry yang lepas pun memang dah macam2 kisah pun haha! :P Alkisahnya sekarang ni kami anak-beranak dilanda sakit2. Berturut2 lepas sorang2. Sekarang pun masih belum sihat sepenuhnya. bukan kami je. My mom, my brother, my MIL, SILs pun sakit2. Tapi xteruklah. Setakat batuk, selsema, sakit tekak je. Kami bertiga ni haa yang teruk. Tapi sebelum tu I nak rewind sikit pasal kisah sebelum tu. Raya Haji baru2 ni kitorang xjadi pun balik ke Kedah sebab my parents last minute suddenly decided nak datang ke rumah Semenyih. My parents tukar plan sebab I bagitau diorang hubby xconfirm lagi boleh balik ke tak sebab maybe kena kerja Sabtu before Raya Haji tu. Diorang takut lah xdapat jumpa Ihsan kan.

Ada hikmah juga lah xjadi tu sebabnya last minute tu juga kereta yang supposedly kitorang nak guna untuk balik Kedah rosak pula. Rosak dekat2 Subang ni juga masa my brother nak balik Semenyih from Klang. Bayangkan kalau kami jadi balik and kereta tu rosak tengah2 highway dalam perjalanan. Rumah dah lah jauh. Haa lagi susah kan? Elok juga lah kereta tu dah rosak awal2 padahal before that my brother kata kereta tu dah serviced and tip top dah. Kereta tu my brother yang guna selain kereta lagi satu. Memang ditinggalkan kat sini so that senang kalau my parents datang sini naik bas ada kereta nak guna. Dah tu pula hari yang sepatutnya kami balik Kedah tu hubby demam teruk. So sememangnya plan nak balik tu takkan jadi. Selain tu xsangka pula kami anak-beranak dilanda sakit2. So kalau dah berjalan jauh pastu nak balik sini semula dalam keadaan sakit2 kan dah susah. Elok lah duduk setempat je kan.

Masa my parents datang kitorang duduk Semenyih la lebih kurang dalam 2 minggu. Masa raya haji tu kitorang balik kampung belah my mom dekat Semenyih juga. Tapi hubby xberaya pun sebab dia kerja. Kitorang pun xdelah beraya apa pun. Balik kampung lepak2 makan je lepas tu balik. Lagipun masa tu Ihsan dah start batuk teruk. Ihsan actually dah banyak hari sebelum tu lagi batuk2 on off sejak balik dari Nihon. Batuk tu mula since dia ada selsema on off hari tu lah. Tapi petang Raya Haji tu dah macam makin teruk. Doctor kata ada infection sikit baru start so doctor bagi ubat semua including ubat demam untuk stand by. Then hari Ahad lepas Raya Haji tu Ihsan dah start demam. I pun dah demam sama masa ni. Mula2 berhingus and sakit tekak je tapi lepas tu dah panas menggelegak. My brother pun sama xsihat. So Isnin pagi tu my parents bawa kitorang gi klinik dekat2 taman tu juga tapi yang lain.

As for Ihsan doctor kali ni kata disebabkan dah lama batuk so paru2 dia dah dimasuki kahak. So dah ada infection disitu sebab tu dia demam. Condition Ihsan taklah teruk tapi kalau dibiarkan takut jadi Asthma or Acute Bronchiolitis. Doctor kata kena buat nebulizer treatment sebab dia dah ada wheezing. Paru2 dia berat nak bernafas sebab penuh kahak. Doctor suruh buat every 6 hours. So kami berulang-alik lah ke klinik sehari 3 kali. By this time nasib baik lah my parents ada so diorang handled Ihsan sebab I pun memang dah lembik xbermaya. Nasib baik lah I demam xlama. Masuk hari ke 3 on nebulizer treatment doctor pelik kenapa Ihsan progressing very slow. Dia tanya rumah ada pet ke, berhabuk ke, ada karpet ke? Doctor suspected dia alahan dengan habuk. So lepas balik klinik kami buat operasi kat rumah, vacuumed rumah, gulung karpet, buang habuk etc. Doctor pun ada bagi ubat alahan sebab nak cepatkan dia sembuh.

Nebulizer treatment Ihsan dragged sampai 5 hari. Masa hari ni I dah naik risasu tahap petala langit ke 7. Sebab dah 3 hari Ihsan langsung xnak makan. My mom and I paksa dia makan macam bagi ubat guna syringe. Most of the times dia tidur je. Kalau bangun pun sekejap2 je and nak berdukung pangku kepala kat bahu. Kalau I lepas dia, dia akan stayed macam tu je lah langsung xbergerak siap termenung. I suspected maybe sebab nebulizer and ubat buat dia jadi macam tu. Lagipun xmakan kan so mana nak ada tenaga. Buat lah lawak apa sekali pun dia akan pandang dengan muka xde perasaan xberkelip pun. Haa sampai macam tu sekali! I dah fikir bukan2 and sangat takut. By this day juga dah total 13 kali buat nebulizer! I dah rasa xsedap hati nak bawa gi hopsital minta warded ke apa ke. Biarlah doctor cucuk drip ke apa ke asalkan sihat balik kan. Hubby pula awal2 lagi suruh bawa gi hopsital. Tapi actually condition Ihsan xteruk maybe sebab tu dcotor xsuggestedkan pun suruh warded kan dia.

Hari ke 5 tu dah hari Jumaat so I dah nak kena balik Subang semula sebab my parents dah nak gi Sabah pula. So PIL datang ambil. Masa last nebulizer treatment dengan doctor kat klinik tu doctor kata Ihsan punya wheezing xteruk pun cuma lambat nak lega. Masih ada dengar wheezing tapi sikit. Masa PIL ambil kitorang we decided nak singgah kat Klinik Pakar Kanak2 An-Nur kat Bangi. Punya lah lama nak tunggu turn. Hubby pula masa hari tu balik kerja awal sebab dia dah start demam teruk semula. Sekali dah sampai rumah tapi kitorang still kat klinik. Dia xde kunci. So dia menunggulah sampai tertidur2 dalam kereta. Kesian :( Haih macam2. Then bila dah jumpa doctor, dia kata supposedly kalau dah hari ke 3 xde improvement elok warded je and upgrade treatment Ihsan. Dia pun terkejut sebab Ihsan dah kena nebulizer banyak kali sangat. So dia terus buat surat refer ke Hospital Putrajaya for further action. Sebab kitorang dok jauh daripada Bangi. Insurance kitorang pun xcover kat Msia ni so sebab tulah xleh gi SJMC je ke even dekat dengan rumah :P

Sampai2 je rumah Subang I terus kelam-kabut angkat and kemas barang. Budget nak kena warded lah kan. Mandi, solat makan apa semua segala. Pastu tukar baju Ihsan. Hubby hanya mampu melihat sebab dia pun dah flat xbermaya. PIL bawa kitorang gi hospital by that time dah nak 12.00 midnight. Sampai2 sana xdelah ramai sangat orang. Mula2 checked kat bilik triage. Lepas tu doctor suruh masuk ke bilik semi kecemasan buat nebulizer lagi dulu. Masa tu ada lagi babies sorang sebaya Ihsan sorang lagi baru berapa bulan. I pun tunggulah buat nebulizer kat Ihsan sampai kan gas tu dah lama habis tapi xde pun doctor yang attended kitorang. Padahal I tengok ramai je doctor kat dalam tu. Maybe doctor yang berkenaan agak occupied la kot kan. Then I dah rasa macam kitorang ni macam dilupakan. Elok2 I nak bangun gi tanya, sekali ada doctor datang bawa surat refer Ihsan.

Dia tanya apa kisah Ihsan ni. I pun cerita daripada A-Z. Dia pun checked lah Ihsan tapi jeng jeng jeng dia kata dia dengar paru2 Ihsan clear! Memang lah doctor dah nama pun baru buat nebulizer :P I tanyalah doctor betul ke ni? Xmembimbangkan ke? Anak saya dah lembik ni. Kot kalau boleh warded boleh bagi dia drip glukose ke apa ke. Mana larat nak paksa setiap kali bagi makan. Bagi ubat pun berkuntau. I tanya lagi xperlu x-ray ke sebab xtau what's happening inside him? Doctor checked Ihsan lagi cuba dengar tapi memang dia xdengar wheezing dah. Doctor kata lagi Ihsan pun xde tanda2 semput sebab chest dia turun naik kurang 40 kali. Dia bernafas pun xde sampai nampak tulang. Air pun cukup xdehydrated sebab bila dia tarik kulit Ihsan kulit tu kembali ke asal immediately xkendur. Ihsan pun dah xdemam although suhu tinggi sikit. Kalau x-ray pula doctor kata macam xcukup syarat je nak di x-ray and probably xterdedah kepada radiasi yang xperlu kalau andai kata memang xde apa2.

Disebabkan I macam insisted doctor pun gi lah tanya pendapat doctor2 lain kot. Then he told me confirmed lah Ihsan was OK. Dia ambil berat Ihsan apa semua then I tanya2 lagi itu ini dia jawab. Then kitorang pun keluar. Kat luar my PIL dah risau habis apasal kitorang kat dalam lama sangat. Diorang ingatkan ada apa2 ke. Sekali I keluar cakap xde apa2. I cerita semua kat diorang. Then tunggu ambil ubat. Pastu balik rumah semula. By that time dah pukul 2.00 pagi. So Ihsan dah stopped ubat lama and continue dengan ubat latest. Owh btw free je ye! Jadinya xperlulah banyak2 complain kalau kena tunggu lama ke apa ke. Standardlah tu kan. Orang sakit pun ramai. Gi hospital kat Nihon pun kena tunggu berjam2. Kalau nak cepat sangat buat hospital sendiri. Nak kata doctor checked sambil lewa xjuga. Kesimpulannya I puas hatilah. Lagipun malam tu I tengok 2 other babies tu diorang kena x-ray, dripped etc. Maybe sebab diorang lagi teruk.

Then on Saturday Alhamdulillah sangat2 bangun2 je pagi Ihsan terus sengih kat sebelah I. Dah banyak hari xtengok dia senyum macam tu. I rasa sangat2 bersyukur. I couldn't imagine kalau lah dia dok tidur je sekali... hmmm na'uzubillah. I xsanggup nak hadapi kehilangan lagi. Terfikir macam ni je pun dah boleh rasa nak naik gila. Memang I xboleh nak elak terfikir bukan2 time Ihsan flat je hari tu. Siapa xrisau weiii! Sekarang ni Alhamdulillah Ihsan dah makin sihat. Masih on medication. Masih ada sikit2 saki-baki batuk tapi dah xdengar bunyi kahak sangat. Hingus pun dah kering ada sikit2 je lagi. Makan pun dah makin lalu. Dah aktif semula macam biasa. Alhamdulillah! Tapi Papa Ihsan pula masih lah demam xkebah2. Sabtu lepas supposedly dia kerja tapi xgi sebab dah xlarat sangat. Pastu ganti Ahad. Sekali badan dia panas balik sampai lah sekarang belum betul2 kebah. Hari ni pun gi kerja kejap je. Agaknya sebab kerja teruk sangat xcukup rehat. Dengan persekitaran and cuaca lagi sebab tu lah xlega2. Haih xhabis2 susah hati. Harap2 cepat lah sihat kami anak beranak sepenuhnya, Amin; InsyaAllah.

Buah-buahan hati cepatlah sihat hendaknya. Moga Allah limpahkan kembali kepada I in my days ahead dengan lebih rahmat senyuman and tawa riang seperti sedia-kala daripada orang2 dalam gambar ni as in the picture, Amin.

Okaylah nanti sambung lagi. Dah ngantuk. Esok sampai tulat my PIL and SILs xde sebab gi Melaka. I xnak ikut sebab Ihsan baru nak sihat plus doctor kata jangan bawa dia keluar sangat. Hubby pun xberapa sihat. Nanti balik daripada Melaka diorang gi jalan2 Langkawi pula. Lagilah I xnak ikut. Lagipun nanti hubby dah balik Nihon I akan duduk Kedah and gi Langkawi juga. So sekali harung jelah nanti malas nak ulang-alik jauh2 banyak2 kali bawa anak kecil. Nanti I nak share information yang I gathered sepanjang Ihsan sakit hari tu. I rasa penting juga lah especially kalau xde pengalaman kalau dah baca nanti boleh lah keep in mind xnd xdelah tergagau2 sangat bila anak dah sakit. Some things tu sometimes kita take for granted or awal2 lagi dah misconcept so dah mempengaruhi kita buat keputusan which is sebenarnya menerukkan lagi keadaan anak. I also nak share some amalan or petua elok untuk anak sakit batuk berkahak and selsema ni. For my own reminder juga. In next entry lah ye. Last but not least, take good care of yourself and stay healthy! :)

From Msia With Love ;P

2010-11-12T05:20:00.000+09:00

Hello hello! Dah ada yang rindu ke? hihi ;P Perasan je kan. Siapalah yang nak rindu kat I. Anyway, esok genap 1 bulan since we arrived in Msia although honestly I rasa macam dah lamaaa duduk sini. Bila tengok kalendar balik ehhh xsampai 1 bulan pun lagi rupanya?! Time is really moving so slow. I xde pun menghitung hari ke apa tapi mungkin sebab dah macam2 benda took place so rasa macam dah lama. At the moment we are now living at my in-law's place in USJ Subang Jaya. Bila hubby dah balik Nihon nanti baru I stay dengan my parents pula. Setakat ni I pun dah jumpa my parents and grandparents on my mother's side tapi jumpa sekejap je lah. Itu pun sebab my parents datang sini all the way from Sungai Petani, Kedah sebab nak jumpa Ihsan. Saudara-mara lain and kawan2 masih ramai yang belum sempat nak jumpa. Baru jumpa beberapa orang je. Yelah hubby balik sini bukan sebab bercuti tapi bekerja. I pun xdrive so kena tunggu my drivers free baru boleh berjalan.

My drivers usually hubby la so kena tunggu weekend baru boleh keluar dengan dia. Itu pun kadang2 Sabtu dia kerja so Ahad dok rumah je bagi dia rehat. Sian dia busy kerja keluar rumah gelap balik pun bila dah gelap. If not kadang2 my brother rajin offer diri tanya nak pergi mana kalau dia xkerja. Sementara xde gf ni rajin lah tanya. Dah ada gf nanti xtau lah kan haha! :P Tapi I suka keluar dengan my brother sebab dia very rajin, pandai, relax and yang paling best cool melayan Ihsan. I boleh tinggalkan Ihsan without worries at all and pergi shopping. Lagi senang macam tu. I boleh concentrate cari barang cepat2 lepas tu balik. Jimat masa. Kalau dengan hubby I still risau sebab kalau xbanyak mesti dia akan stress dengan Ihsan hihi :P Kadang2 terstop2 masa mencari barang tak pun last2 tu balik je sebab malas nak cari barang sampai habis. Nampaknya my brother memang sangat berbakat menjaga budak lah hihi :P Selain tu my FIL and MIL pun rajin bawa kitorang jalan2. Selalunya ikut diorang jalan2 dekat2 je. Owh xtau la kenapa I xdrive. Memang I xpernah drive since dapat lesen kereta. Lesen tu I simpan je buat azimat. I tunggu hubby bagi sebiji kereta baru I akan drive balik hihi :D

Btw hari tu kitorang balik naik Singapore Airlines (SIA). Keluar rumah pukul 5.30am and sampai rumah in Msia pukul 9.00pm. Fuhhh memang lah. Memang letih bawa budak kecik yang baru dapat kaki ni. Lagi senang bawa dia masa baby dulu. Dah la malam sebelum tu tidur lewat sebab asyik dok punggah-packing barang. Sebabnya barang kami banyak sangat kuang kuang! :P I rasa dah reject mana yang xperlu pun still dok berat lagi beg2 tu. Nasib baiklah boss hubby memang sengaja nak balik sama2 dengan kami. Dia pun awal2 dah cakap barang kitorang mesti banyak so dia boleh la tolong sama. Boss bawa 2 bags kecil je. Tapi even kami dah checked-in sekali masih berlebih barang haha! Tapi agak pelik disitu sebab I baca kat website SIA kalau ada baby sepatutnya boleh tambah extra 10kg. Hmmm entah. Sepanjang perjalanan boss banyak la tolong bawa barang or dukung Ihsan. Si kenit tu pula kerja dia nak berjalan sana-sini. Memang kena mengikut bontot dia je. Dia pun xnak sangat duduk dalam stroller. Kalau nak dukung lama2 pun memang senget bahu. Sudahnya lepas je biar dia nak buat apa pun and ikut je mana dia pergi. Sekejap dia berjalan, sekejap dia merangkak, sekejap dia duduk. Asalkan dia xkacau orang and buat benda pelik2 sudah.

Masa dalam flight stewardess reservedkan 1 row seat belakang untuk I. So kami ubah tempat. Nak bf pun senang sikit. Awal2 tu Ihsan banyak tidur. Tapi lepas2 tu dia pun dah xlarat nak tidur. Adat la bawa baby umur setahun ada gelak2, merengek2, menjerit, menangis. Pastu dia pooped pula adoiyai! But Alhamdulillah as an overall Ihsan boleh dikategorikan sebagai normal la kot haha! Kalau dia baik sangat tu dah macam anak patung pula kan. Tapi Ihsan xdela bagi horrible experience to Mama Papa and especially other passengers. So okay la kan. But I think boss pun agaknya serik kot ikut kitorang. Sebab seriously our hands were full! Although hand luggage xbanyak mana tapi memang penat bawa toddler. Tapi kitorang sangat2 terhutang budi kat boss. Dia sangat2 concern, very understanding, xberkira and caring, Alhamdulillah. Segan pula dengan dia. Tula Mama xreti2 ke pack barang sikit2 je?! Haih entahlah ek. Xde pun bawa benda merepek2. Memang bawa apa yang patut je rasanya. Bila dah sampai rumah hubby tanya I boleh ke nak bawa Ihsan balik sorang2 nanti? I jawab sendiri fikir la. Setakat nak sampai ke destinasi tu memanglah boleh, xmati punya :P

Mula2 sampai Msia hari tu during the first week Ihsan asyik grumpy. Sebab masa tu cuaca panas sangat. Bukan kami je yang xtahan. Semua orang pun xtahan. Nasib baik minggu lepas2 tu hujan turun. Alhamdulillah hujan rahmat. Selain tu biasalah kan keadaan and situasi rumah xsama macam kat Nihon. Kalau kat Nihon xperlu nak larang Ihsan itu ini sebab rumah dah baby-proofed and kami masing2 pun dah kenal segenap sudut rumah so boleh biar Ihsan explore je sesuka hati. Kalau kat sini rumah besar and memang banyak benda menarik untuk diexplore. My MIL kata takpe biar je dia biasakan diri dengan benda2 tu. Sebab anak2 dia dulu pun macam tu juga kalau usik pun sikit2 je. Tapi cucu dia ni curiosity terlebih. Dalam nak membiasakan diri dengan benda2 tu semua puas la dia ketuk2 hentak2 bagai. Kalau dilarang pun dia memang jenis buat xhairan je! So sebelum benda2 tu semua jadi arwah and ada yang makan hati baik hubby and I sesuka hati je alih2 barang2 berkenaan ke tempat lain. Ikut hati I xkisah je barang rosak sebab bukan barang I haha! So nasib lah my MIL kena redha je. Which one dia prefer. Barang dia hancur ke or rumah dia jadi xcantik sebab barang2 dah kena ubah tempat? hihi ;P

Actually mula2 tu I stressed juga dengan 2 matters above. Disebabkan benda2 tu juga I xdapat nak function at normal pace. Kalau kat Nihon I boleh buat 3 4 kerja dalam satu masa. I boleh masak Ihsan's food and dalam masa yang sama mandi, basuh kain and bagi Ihsan tengok educational videos. Tapi sekarang ni keadaan and situasi rumah xsama so xdapat buat macam tu. Tambah2 bila kita kena function dengan penglibatan orang lain secara langsung ataupun xlangsung so proses2 berkenaan kadang2 jadi terganggu. Well... adat lah kan. Hence, that's why I xupdate blog. Masa tu ada je sebenarnya tapi kadang2 tu kurang privacy or I simply dah xde mood nak ngadap laptop. Selain tu, life kat Msia definitely lah xsama dengan Nihon. Of course lah happy balik sini. Cuma benda2 remeh diluar kawalan such as, kotorrr tolong lah jangan buang sampah merata2 boleh?!, traffic jam yang sememang2nya xhabis2, some Msian drivers attitude yang menyusahkan and membahayakan orang lain on the road, customer service or front line service yang macam @#$!X&*!!!, xefficient, so slow, rude, malas so on and so forth. Haih macam2 hal lagi lah. Entah lah. I nampak Msia ni bukan lah kolot sangat tapi mentality and sikap masyarakat masih ketinggalan jauh kebelakang. Padahal kemudahan apa semua kebanyakannya dah maju. Jadi jom sama2 ubah sikap maju ke depan boleh?!

Anyway so far life kat Msia ni okay je. Dah dapat makan macam2. Tapi banyak lagi yang belum makan. Kami pun xde lah terkejar2 nak makan itu ini. Ada ada lah. Xde xpe xkisah. Entah lah ek xde perasaan sangat. Maybe sebab dok rasa banyak masa lagi. Bila kat Msia kadang2 rasa malas nak keluar. Sebab panas kot. Lagipun tu lah nak g mana2 pun kena naik kereta then jam. Kalau kat Nihon kuar 2 jam tu boleh setel macam2. Tapi kalau kat tempat kitorg ni jangan mimpi lah. Tapi biasa lah kot macam tu area KL and Selangor. Entah lah ek honestly I xtau kenapa I xrasa excited sangat. I'm happy to be home in Msia. Tapi tulah maybe I can's stop thinking living in our own home. Plus I macam still xpercaya and xdapat terima I can't fully enjoy my last year in Japan as I wished. Kalau nak tau I memang tertunggu2 autumn and winter this yeat sekali melepas sob sob! Xhabis2 kuciwa lagi ke? hihi :P Somehow at the moment I'm slowly getting my routine to the optimum level. Dah makin getting used living life with others' present. Sebelum ni nak buat apa2 xperlu kisah orang lain. Tapi now kena lah consider. Besides ni dah nak 1 bulan I risau dengan jadual Ihsan. Nak kena reschedule semula for him untuk 'belajar'. Buku pun main baca ikut sempat je. Banyak tengok educational videos je dia. Xelok tengok videos banyak sangat. Nak kena beli new toys juga for him to learn. Yang penting Mama also has to be consistent and rajin!

Btw next week dah Raya Haji. Mula2 I plan nak balik Kedah beraya dengan my parents for 2 weeks. Suddenly hubby xsure pula takut kena masuk kerja Sabtu ni. So my parents dah decided diorang datang sini. Diorang pun dah rindu Ihsan so takut lah kan kalau xdapat jumpa. So most probably we will be staying at my parents house kat Semenyih. Tau ke kat mana? Semenyih tu dalam Selangor juga. Dekat2 dengan Kajang. Bukit Broga tempat Dr. Muzaffar and Dr. Harlina captured wedding pics dekat Semenyih lah. Ehh tetiba pula sebut nama diorang. Somehow Selamat berhari raya haji lah untuk semua. Kali ni no pics sebab malas nak upload. Faham2 lah ye internet slow macam siput sedut. I guna wifi je ni. I banyak benda nak update. Ihsan punya milestone pun xupdate lagi. Nanti2 lah. Slow2 cari mood and start blogging balik. To those yang nak contact me nanti msg lah I bagi phone number. Ada rezeki kita jumpa. If not tunggu I balik for good next year senang I ajak datang rumah je. Dah xlama dah pun :) Okay take care peeps!

Jya Mata Nippon!

2010-10-14T11:00:00.004+09:00

This is scheduled entry. I buat entry ni 1 day before balik. By the time korang baca ni rasanya kitorang dah berada di awan biru. Silalah bayangkan I makan nasi lemak daun pisang ke, roti canai ke, kuih muih ke and teh tarik esok pagi ye. Owh itu lambat sangat. Sila bayangkan I makan apa malam ni. KFC ke, McD ke, nasi goreng pattaya ke and air cendol ke. Cepat2 bayangkan! hahaha :D

Well... tonight is gonna be the last night for us sleeping at our home sweet home. Belum apa2 dah rindu kat rumah. As of persiapan nak balik... Alhamdulillah semua dah settle. Ada la sikit2 lagi yang memang kena tunggu nak keluar pintu rumah baru boleh betul2 settle. I dah buat check list. Hopefully xde apa la yang tertinggal, InsyaAllah. Honestly perasaan nak balik ni hmmm entahlah xtau nak cakap macam mana. Memanglah suka sangat2 sebab dapat jumpa orang2 tersayang yang dalam dirindui tapi I can't lie that actually I rasa xteruja sangat macam balik sebelum ni. I cuba elak rasa macam tu tapi dia tetap ada. Funnynya hubby pun rasa benda yang sama. Bila I tanya kenapa dia kata maybe sebab dia rasa baru je balik Msia hari tu which is end of last year. Tambah2 pula masa tu 1st time nak bawa Ihsan balik so excited sangatlah kan. As for me pula maybe sebab bila fikir balik je mesti xboleh elak terlajak fikir pasal kena duduk sana at least 5 months lepas tu without hubby pula. So dah spoil kat situ.

Bukannya xsuka balik lama2. Tapi keadaan dan situasi tu yang I xprefer. Kalau balik for good ada rumah sendiri and xperlu berpisah dengan hubby okaylah juga. Jenuh juga nak spend time kat Msia nanti. Disebabkan tempoh yang panjang ni banyak perkara yang berlegar2 dalam kepala ni. Ada a few things yang I expect I might be facing. Somehow rasanya I have to find a project for myself. Memang ada dah plan dalam kepala ni. Tengoklah macam mana nanti. Haih bila xdapat balik nak balik. Bila dah dapat balik susah hati pula kena balik lama2. Macam2. Ada je yang xkena. Bawak2lah bersyukur :P I know I kena elakkan fikir bab yang xbest tu. Furthermore I bukannya ada pilihan lain. InsyaAllah ada banyak sangat hikmahnya ditakdirkan perjalanan hidup kami for a few months ahead jadi macam ni. So instead of whining I should appreciate the moments I will be having soon. By looking from the positive perspective, there are good reasons for me to be really grateful:

I will be able to spend loads of times with my parents, PIL and adik2. Selama ni kami tinggal abroad and semestinyalah kami dah lost banyak moments dengan diorang. Tambah2 macam I ni yang since form 1 duduk hostel and balik rumah sekejap2 je banyak masa I xdapat luangkan dengan parents and adik2. Hubby pula stay hostel since form 4. Kadang2 kesian my parents anak2 semua jauh2 tinggal yang bongsu je jadi peneman kat rumah. So masa ni lah kami dapat ganti balik masa yang hilang. Walau pun mungkin xbanyak jasa and sumbangan yang mampu kami bagi tapi sekurang2nya dapatlah gembirakan parents dengan kehadiran kami especially Ihsan kat rumah.
Masa ni lah kami dapat buat jasa kat parents. Tolong menyenangkan hati and memudahkan urusan diorang. Jadi peneman diorang. Selalunya dah kahwin bukan senang2 saja2 nak duduk lama2 dengan parents. Jadi ni dah ada peluang so manfaatkan sebaiknya. Duduklah berkepit dengan mak ayah sepuas2nya. Konon2 jaga diorang jugalah kan. Nanti dah balik for good dah ada rumah sendiri takkan kerja nak balik rumah mak ayah macam orang xde laki or bini kan? Silap2 mak ayah halau suruh balik rumah sendiri hihi :P Mak ayah pun mungkin segan nak lepak rumah anak lama2.
Ihsan pun dapatlah kenal Tok, Tokwan, Jiddi, Jiddah, uncles and aunties. Selama ni kenal Mama Papa je. Balik ni dapatlah limpahan kasih sayang mencurah2 daripada semua orang.
Ihsan pun akan dapat pendedahan yang lebih banyak dari pelbagai segi so I think it's good for Ihsan's development.
Dapat jumpa datuk nenek yang dah tua sebelum terlambat and saudara-mara.
Dapat jumpa kawan2 and gi berpoya2 :P
Dapat rejuvenate mental, physical, spiritual.
Dapat sambut raya although raya haji je.
Dapat buat benda yang xdapat dibuat di Nihon.
Dapat jalan2 Msia.
Rasa senang hati. I tau duduk Nihon ni selamat kadar jenayah kurang apa semua. Tapi bila duduk dekat Msia realizing that kita dekat dengan kaum keluarga and benda2 yang sangat familiar to us, boleh buat kita rasa satu perasaan 'peace of mind'. Xtau nak describe macam mana. Yang pernah duduk abroad je kot rasa macam ni. Anyone agree?
Dapat makan sedap2 banyak2 hahaha! :D
Etcetra.

Sebelum ni I rasa suam2 kuku je tapi bila dah listed down all the good things I rasa best pula. I should think more of those :D I harap sangat dapat tolak jauh2 perasaan2 xbest tu. At least hopefully berkurangan la by the time we nearly reach home, Amin. Yelah xbestlah kan rasa macam tu. Bukannya I ada choice pun nak postpone ke apa ke. I have to face it whether I like it or not. Anyway we will be boarding Singapore Airlines from Chubu Airport Nagoya. Kami bertolak dari rumah by bus. It's gonna take about 3 hours. Actually 2 hours je tapi dengan bus lambatlah sikit kan. Bertolak dengan bas pukul 5.00am lebih kurang. Sampai airport pukul 8.00am lebih kurang. Flight depart kul 11.00am sampai Singapore kul 4.40pm. Transit for about 2 hours before boarding flight to Msia pukul 6.45pm and sampai Msia pukul 7.40pm. Fuhhh that's a long journey. Tiba2 terasa panas. Harus I rindu sejuk2 kat Nihon ni nanti. Hopefully Ihsan xde masalahlah nak adapt. Dia kan Jepun celup. Xtahan panas :P

Honestly I nervous bawa Ihsan. Dia dah besar so faham2lah budak besar macam tu. But I pray hard he's gonna be a good boy. I keep telling him about Thursday's event and how I hope he will behave. Semoga semuanya dipermudahkan, dilancarkan, dijauhkan dari sebarang masalah and kami selamat dalam perjalanan pergi and balik Nihon-Msia-Nihon. Semoga sepanjang peninggalan kami, rumah, kereta and harta benda dilindungi Allah dari sebarang gangguan dan bencana. Rumah and kereta memang orang kaisya akan selalu tengok2kan. Kereta pun tinggal kat kaisya. Semoga Ihsan akan jadi anak yang memudahkan, menyenangkan hati, memahami dan bekerjasama towards Mama and Papa setiap masa. Semoga we will be having all the good times and happiness throughout our stay in Msia dengan orang2 tersayang. Semoga kami especially I sabar and tabah mengharungi a few months life ahead in Msia. Semoga Allah melindungi kami and merahmati kami keseluruhannya, Amin, InsyaAllah. Wah xsabarnya nak balik! :D

Okaylah guys do miss me okay. I memang dengki korang dapat enjoy autumn and snow. Harus I nangis air mata darah tengok gambar2 koyou and snow yang menggiurkan kahkah! Tapi xpe I boleh dengkikan korang balik dengan tayangan makanan yang best2 nanti hahaha! Buruk perangai :P Doakan kitorang ye. Keep in touch. I will try to update blog selalu. Yeeekee? :P Boleh je sebenarnya. Tapi entry I akan jadi macam entry ni lah and a few entries before this. Dah lari dari salah satu objektif I buat blog hihi :P Take care ye semua :)

I Don't Like Packing

2010-10-12T14:10:00.005+09:00

Woah from where to start? So many things to tell but so little time. Well, okay last weekend hubby worked on Saturday. On Sunday we went to visit Nuha-chan's family in Matsumoto. Nuha-chan baru dapat adik nama Wafa-chan! Nuha-chan dulu lahir besar tapi adiknya sama gang dengan Ihsan chiccai 2.5kg kawaiii! Rasa suka pula tengok baby kecil2 ni. Halus je gerammm! Yelah dia takkan mengecil. So xpelah lahir kecil pun nanti membesar kat luar. Bila tengok Wafa-chan baru terasa wah besarnya Ihsan. I asyik tanya2 hubby 'Eh betul ke Ihsan kecil macam ni dulu?' hihi :P Rasa macam xpercaya sebab nampak Wafa-chan kecil sangat! I cuma bawa sikit2 barang baby and stok makanan I. Ihsan macam biasa 'Ihsan xkisah' :P Dia sibuk main mainan kakak Nuha. Tapi bukannya nak main dengan kakak Nuha ye! Pandang pun tak. Pastu sibuk kacau Aunty Nisah. Mama penat tunjuk baby dia sikit pun xhairan and xpandang okay.

Eh eh tetiba kami jadi 5 beranak hihi! ;P

Mama dengan 2 anak dara instant :D

Tengok Ihsan tu memang buat hal dia je.

Wafa Rushda :)

Ihsan memang xmalu suka kacau mak orang. Tamak betul xcukup ke dah ada Mama sorang? haha! Teringat last week masa gi ambil 2nd ke 3rd ek? Polio immunization Ihsan. Kat bilik menunggu tu ada ramai mak budak, baby baya Ihsan, yang kecil sikit and yang besar sikit pun ada. Macam biasalah dia langsung xpandang 'kawan2' dia tu even ada yang datang nak tegur. Dia sibuk merangkak and berjalan dengan lajunya ke hulu ke hilir. Sibuk nak usik barang orang pastu sibuk nak berpaut and suruh mak orang dukung dia! Mama yang malu je kena ikut bontot dia kejap ke hujung sana lepas tu ke hujung sini. Sambil ke sana ke mari tu mulut dia dok buat bunyi geram. Then ada one time tu dia berajalan dengan lajunya lepas tu menjerit and gelak hakhakhak macam tu as like saying 'Lihatlah dunia aku dah boleh jalan!'. Kahkahkah Mama dengan Papa punya la nak tergelak :D Agaknya dia sangat jakun sebab tengok orang ramai and bilik tu sangat luas. Yelah rumah kan kecil je.

Owh back to cerita hari Ahad. Kami singgah rumah Nuha-chan kejap je sebab kami actually nak gi kubur. Xpuas betul bersembang and mengulit Wafa-chan. Terkejar2. Tapi bila masuk je highway nak bertolak ke kubur tengok kat navi ehhh kul 5.00pm baru akan sampai. 5.30pm dah Maghrib. Ingatkan dari Matsumoto tu dah dekat. Rupanya kena pusing balik sikit sebelum turn arah ke Kofu-shi. Macam sama je bertolak dari rumah kami kalau macam tu. Makanya xjadi la pergi. Xde rezekilah nak visit kubur 'Abid. Salah Mama and Papa la lambat bertolak dari rumah. Memang plan nak keluar pagi2 tapi kesian kat Papa penat Saturday tu dia occupied pagi sampai malam. Xpelah Mama Papa tiap2 hari doakan pun untuk 'Abid. Actually memang kalau nak gi kubur kena spend time khas untuk dia je. Sebab agak jauh and alang2 nak pergi boleh spend masa lama sikit buat apa2 patut. Xpelah next time ada lagi. Ihsan pun dah besar masa tu. Actually before buat keputusan finally nak gi kubur tu memang Mama sangat buntu berbelah bahagi nak ikut Papa sekali ke tak. Akhirnya xjadi juga. Allah knows best :) Kalau tau awal2 xjadi gi baik lepak lama sikit main dengan Nuha-chan and Wafa-chan. Then on Monday hubby kerja.

Today Ihsan and I woke up late. Itu pun sebab Ihsan pun bangun lambat because last night dia tidur lambat. 'Tolong' Mama and Papa kemas rumah and barang. 'Tolong' la sangat kan. Kalau dia x'tolong' lagi cepat kot Mama siap kerja hihi :P Actually sepanjang last week I busy dok mengemas rumah. Eh banyak okay nak kena kemas. I kemas kabinet dapur yang penuh dengan stok makanan, pilih2 foods untuk bagi orang and yang nak dibuang, lap kabinet dapur yang dah lama xlap and ada banyak kotor2, cuci sink and counter, kemas almari baju yang besar tu, basuh mainan and segala barang2 Ihsan yang dah kena macam2 foods tumpah lah apa lah, vacuum siling rumah yang rupanya ada banyak sawang tersembunyi, kemas almari buku yang ada banyak benda2 yang xberguna, basuh kipas2 yang dah berhabuk, check and buang segala benda yang xberguna kat semua cupboards dalam rumah ni, kemas almari kasut yang dah penuh segala habuk, cuci fridge, cuci bathroom and toilet and macam2 lagi okay. Penat! Nampak je sikit2 semua tu. Tapi bila dah kumpul2 cuci, kemas, susun benda2 yang jarang2 disentuh banyakla jadinya. Dah rasa macam ala2 berkemas untuk balik for good pun ye juga. Huish xsanggup bayangkan waktu betul2 nanti :P

So by yesterday baru I started packing. Banyak barang nak bawa balik sebab nak balik lama kan. Kalau ikutkan hati semua benda dirasakan penting. Tapi nampak gayanya ada yang nak kena keluarkan balik. Nant beli lain la balik Msia. Bab ni yang malas nak mencari2 balik yang menepati kehendak. Omiyage kami beli foods je jajan2 macam tu. Nanti nak balik for good pula so masa tu lah cari omiyage yang best sikit. Lagipun sebelum2 ni dah banyak bawa balik macam2. Itupun jajan2 je dah penuh 1 bag. Memang xmuat bag nak sumbat semua. Silap juga sebab bag kami kecil. Dah ada extra baggage seorang ni patutnya kena upgrade la juga saiz bag. So rasanya kena beli 1 lagi bag besar untuk tukar dengan yang kecil tu. Pening kepala I nak packing. Nanti nak kena check and repacking balik. Actually ada lagi saki-baki benda yang perlu disettlekan. Memang esok kena siapkan semua2. Mesti tinggalkan rumah dalam keadaan puas hati. So xdelah risau2 nanti teringat itu ini.

Okaylah. Actually I wished boleh buat 1 lagi entry before bertolak balik. So, esok I tulis entry pasal balik ni, InsyaAllah :)

Ihsan's 13 Months Milestones.

2010-10-07T12:24:00.000+09:00

Wah cepatnya masa berlalu. Xsangka baby kecil dalam rumah ni is no longer really a baby anymore. Rindu masa dia kecil2 dulu before banyak bergerak sebab dia masa tu berisi. Sedap je pegang sebungkus je. Masa tu kiss2 pun sedap je bau baby. Tapi sekarang hanya ada bau mashammm. Nanti balik xtau la orang2 kat rumah tu nak kiss dia ke tak tambah2 bila time comot berpeluh berlengas nak2 pulak dengan air liur menceceh2 hihi :D Tapi Mama dengan Papa suka je kiss Ihsan bila2 pun. Bak kata Papa kiss kat leher Ihsan tu yang paling masam tapi paling sedap hihi :P Tapi even bau masam skrg pun best juga sebab Ihsan dah pandai macam2. Tengok keletah Ihsan yang bermacam2 hari2. Tak lupa juga menambahkan lagi challenges dalam hidup Mama and Papa. Bila dah besar ni ada je benda interesting yang baru tiap2 hari. Kalau nak dibandingkan dengan masa kecil2 dulu kurang la sikit kan.

Tambah2 sekarang bercakap dengan Ihsan dah more towards 2-sided conversation. Ihsan pun dah pandai bagi feedback. Kalau dulu Ihsan banyak dengar je. As of 13 months kadang2 xterkejar nak ingat satu2 progress Ihsan. Sekarang akal pun dah makin banyak. Ada je aksi2 dia tu yang buat Mama cair tapi dalam masa yang sama gerammm sangat. Nak cerita pun kadang2 xboleh sebab xreti nak cerita. Kena tengok sendiri. But I think kalau tengok pun orang lain takkan rasa apa sangat kot. Unless kalau Mama Papa sendiri yang tengok kadang2 teeny-weeny thing pun can really fascinate and surprise us. Maybe sebab dengan anak sendiri our own flesh and blood membuatkan kita rasa ada chemistry gitu. The feeling is much stronger, no?

He already has 8 teeth.

Baby besar yang manja.

Cuba teka dia berjalan ke menari ni? :D

Now, here are updates on Ihsan as of until September 21st, 2010:

Tinggi Ihsan 72.5cm. Ku sangkakan lagi tinggi rupanya sedang2 saja hihi :P Berat Ihsan pulak dah 8.4kg. Xnaik banyak sangat but okaylah naik juga. Alhamdulillah sekarang ni dia pun selera makan okay je. As long as he keeps eating that's already good to me. I bukan apa, xsuka dia mengurus tu je. If not nanti I susah hati :P
Ihsan is such an attention seeker. Lately makin manja, makin kuat membebel, makin pandai marah and menangis kalau kiter xbagi attention kat dia. Sekarang ni pantang kita ralit tengok internet dan2 tu dia datang meleseh, merengek, jerit2 or nangis. Although I can say that he is actually quite independent pandai main and entertain himself but bila datang angin dia tu, dia asyik nak orang mengulit dia je.
He likes to grind his teeth lately. Kuat sangat2! I wonder xsakit ke? I yang dok dengar pula sakit hati je rasa. Bukan apa sebab I tengok ada 1 gigi dia tu dah senget sikit sebab dia suka dok buat macam tu. Entahlah maybe sebab gusi dia gatal kot ada lagi gigi nak tumbuh? Air liur pun asyik menceceh2 je sampai basah baju. Hopefully xberterusan la habit ni. Nanti xcantik gigi.
Ihsan makin eager to bye-bye and clap-clap. But dah xnak buat cak cekur dah. Instead dia suruh I yang buat pastu dia letak tangan dia tengah2 in my palms so that I genggam lepas his hands. Salam pulak dah lamaaa xnak buat. Chu-chu (kiss) lagi lah xpernah buat langsung. Kiter sua pipi or kiss pipi dia pun cepat2 je dia nak berpaling. But sekarang ni I tengah nak ajar dia amin and raise his finger when I call his full name. Funnynya yang amin tu pun sama gak dia suruh I yang buat on my own face or his face.
He likes to tepuk2 skrin tv, CPU, kipas and selongkar wayar2 kat kabinet TV. Dia suka panjat meja atau pun tolak2 his toys basket pastu jalan celah2 tu pegi ke depan TV. Adoi xlarat la bab ni. So now hall rumah ni dah ada 2 kubu pertahanan dibina dengan 2 blankets tebal. Dari meja PC ni bersambung ke hujung lagi satu. So that dia xkacau PC and xpanjat meja or lalu celah2 meja untuk gi ke TV. Boleh la kot bertahan sementara dia nak pandai lalu ikut bawah meja kan. But hopefully at that time dia dah xberminat la dengan benda2 alah tu semua.
Satu lagi hobi terbaru is menjilat. Jilat cermin. Jilat kerusi. Jilat meja. Hmmm pandai dia tolong Mama 'lap' perabot.
Kalau kena marah Ihsan akan merengek2, cebik2 pastu slowly nangis although dia akan sambung buat benda ygang kita larang tu. Kadang2 tu bila I angkat tangan kat dia konon2 nak babab, dia akan kelip2 mata takut I tepuk dia even actually I xtepuk pun lagi. Yang funnynya kadang2 tu dia pula yang ala2 nak tepuk2 I balik. Owh kadang2 tu kiter marah dia tapi dia jerit2 nangis marah kiter balik okay! Amboi2! Owh tapi lately kan dia makin manja. Kadang2 I bebel sikit pun dia dah cebik2. Auta je dia ni :P
I ada kumpul2 videos untuk Ihsan download from YouTube. Untuk Japanese videos ada 1 video lagu iklan Tarako. Kalau tengok sorang2 Ihsan akan end up nangis. Dia akan cari Mama or Papa mengadu2. Bila I gi tukar video lain baru dia tengok TV balik. Xtau la kenapa dia xsuka. Dia rasa takut kot hihi :P But I jap je ni. Before this dia dengar certain lagu pun macam tu juga tapi dah banyak2 kali dengar dia okay.
Ihsan sekarang seems to appreciate his toys more. Makin pandai main his toys. So toys yang ada tu dah boleh make full use. Xpayah nak tambah sangat dah. Anyway hari tu Ihsan dapat baby push walker daripada Umi Murni. Dia suka sangat main benda alah tu. Thanks to Umi Murni ye.
Ihsan suka main dengan bantal dia. Kadang2 senyap je dok dalam bilik sorang2. Rupanya dok mengulit bantal.
Semakin rajin 'tolong' Mama mengemas waktu Mama masak kat dapur or waktu Mama mengemas rumah. Makanya makin 'cepat' la sangat kerja Mama siap.
Hobi kegemaran is mestilah chewing on labels. I ada beli wristlet2 baru untuk dia. Untuk menambahkan lagi koleksi 'mangsa' untuk dia 'makan'. Aummm!
Suka buat bunyi geram. Sebab dia kerjanya asyik geram kot?
Owh how can I forgot! This should be the first thing on the list! Ihsan is offcially can walk and he's getting more stable. Dah berlangkah2 dah dia jalan. Kerja ikut bontot Mama and Papa. Dia pun rajin buat inspection sana-sini tawaf rumah. Although actually he started to make his 1st step when he nearly turned 1 year old the other day. But Ihsan still crawl at times especially bila dia nak cepat2. Sekarang ni dia suka sangat jalan2 kat luar. Kalau dia nampak gaya kiter nak keluar tu siap pegang tangan Mama lagi suruh angkat dia. Pagi2 bila Papa gi kerja selalunya dia nangis sebab xdapat keluar sama. Kalau waktu dia dapat keluar pula bukan main laju dia jalan. Mama yang penat mengikut memimpin dia. Yelah xboleh betul2 lepaskan lagi sebab dia belum betul2 stable. Nanti kena gi taman yang ada rumput la. Boleh lepas dia bebas.

Well itu jelah yang terlintas dikepala. Banyak sebenarnya latest things nak cakap pasal dia. Tapi xsempatlah. Anyway since Ihsan dah cecah 1 year hari tu I dah xambil gambar dia everyday. At first macam susah juga sebab dah terbiasa. But now okay dah. Cuma kena ingat ambil his pictures on his monthly birthday.

What's Wrong Baby?

2010-10-04T10:40:00.005+09:00

Okay sementara Ihsan tidur boleh la I memblog sekejap kalau tak nanti memang xsempat. Ikut2kan selalunya time Ihsan nap pagi ni memang I pun sama tidur sekali. Tapi ni nak curi sikit2 buat apa yang nak dibuat. Kalau sempat nanti I join sekali. Kalau xjoin langsung nanti petang I pula yang mengantuk. Yelah malam2 I bukannya tidur awal. Sebab tu usually I akan nap juga sekali waktu siang which is selalunya pagi la sampai tengahari. Sebab I jenis susah nak tidur petang. Some more petang2 banyak kerja nak kena buat. Weekend lepas kami xbuat apa2. Satudar hubby xjadi gi kubur sebab hubby ada report nak kena buat. Tapi konon nak buat report dok lengah2 itu ini last2 xgi buat pun. Tapi hubby ada gi buat Pjotobook Ihsan sebab ada dapat free coupon. On Sunday hubby gi buat report kat kaisya I dok rumah dengan Ihsan. Lagipun I ada buat makan2 untuk my friend. Itu nanti cerita kemudian.

By the way Alhamdulillah Ihsan dah sihat. Dah xdemam dah. Actually demamnya sikit je and sekejap je. Sehari lepas demam tu Ihsan dah ceria balik. Tapi lepas tu sampai la yesterday Ihsan jadi super cranky, clingy, whiny and fussy. Kerjanya menangis je on off. Mama hilang sekejap menangis. Bukan tu je. Kerjanya asyik nak melekap. Sampai tertidur2. Tapi tu pun ada waktu bukannya dia menyusu betul2. Just nak main2 and comfort himself. Bila I xde kerja boleh la I sua je sebab I pun xlarat nak dengar dia merengek and menangis. Tapi kalau time terpaksa buat kerja memang berperang gak la. Dia nak berdukung je and nak diulit2 je. Dia pun langsung xceria and xnak gelak2. Kiter main2 dengan dia pun kiter balik yang kena marah. Honestly hubby and I rasa buntu and stressed ya amat! I xtau apa yang xkena and apa yang dia nak. Kalau boleh cakap senang la kan. Ni jenuh nak berteka-teki. I checked juga la sakit kat mana, xselesa kat mana, nak apa, nak macam mana and so on. Sampai kan dah naik penat rasa give up. Kalau hubby ada xpe lagi. Tapi kalau time hubby xde memang I xboleh nak buat apa2 langsung and dah berapa kali lost control I pun ikut sama menjerit sekali.

Memang la I xsuka buat macam tu. But I simpan2 pun xboleh juga. So I need to release off some steam itu pun bila betul2 dah xboleh tahan sabar. Better I buat macam tu daripada I lay my hands on him. At least dia terkejut dengar suara I berdentum je tapi xdela sakit physically. Selalunya lepas tu I tinggalkan je dia biar la dia nak meraung ke apa ke. Nangis la lagi kuat2! I gi buat apa yang I nak buat and bila dah cool down baru I datang ambil dia balik. Even so pun I feel so bad but at least okay la daripada kalau I pukul dia ke apa ke lagi la I rasa much worse. It's really upsetting bila tengok anak buat perangai macam ni and even depressing bila xdapat nak solve. Nasib baikla bila I dah jadi macam ni hubby pula still can bertahan. Kalau dua2 dah xtahan payah la kan. Yelah kesian kat Ihsan sama I know dia bukan sengaja nak buat macam tu. I told hubby I'm sure there's something wrong somewhere but kiter still xdapat nak cari apa puncanya. Kenapa? Kenapa? Kenapa?!!!

At the same time Ihsan xde selera sangat nak makan. I have to coax him. Right after demam tu dia ada muntah ala2 muak. Tekak dia tu senang sangat tercekik. Then after that I masak mashed potato. Dah soft macam tu pun still dok nak termuntah. So since yesterday I xmasak. Bagi nestum je. Kalau dia xnak makan pun I xde la sakit hati sangat. Tu pun jenuh nak pujuk. Besides that I bagi fresh milk. Nasib baik dia nak minum. Pastu bagi biscuit Ritz yang dia suka tu dengan keropok ikan la apa la. Asalkan dia nak makan. I terfikir juga dia ni sakit tekak ke apa ke. I tried to check his mouth kot ada ulcer ke apa. Ada nampak benda tapi xsure. Bila hubby tengok dia kata biasa la lelangit memang macam tu. I dok fikir nak bawa Ihsan g klinik dah. Bila jadi macam ni I terfikir2 kat mana yang kurang, kat mana yang xbetul, apa yang I dah buat and apa yang I perlu buat. Mungkin Ihsan just demands for attention or maybe it's just a phase. Yelah bila dah besar otak pun makin cerdik and angin pun berubah2. Sebab bila tidur malam pun dia asyik terbangun2 menangis2 sampaikan kitorang ended up xcukup tidur and rehat. In fact kalau baru cakap sikit 'Eh' je xmarah pun lagi dia dah nangis! Manja and cembeng sangat.

Setakat ni I try turutkan je kehendak dia. Dia nak diulit so I ulit2 la. Kalau semua xjalan I bawa dia keluar rumah. Surpisingly kalau keluar rumah dia elok je happy! I pula tertanya2 eh yang nangis2 tadi tu siapa? Maybe I need to spend more time and do more activities with him exclusively which is lately I kurang buat sebab I ada banyak benda lain nak buat. Cuba ceriakan dia balik and main2 dengan dia. Lately I cuma main sambil2 je dengan dia sambil buat kerja. As of today xtau la Ihsan dah okay ke tak. But until before he slept je now semua berjalan lancar. His mood seemed getting better. Although ada la nangis sikit2 bila Mama hilang sekejap. Hopefully he will get back to his cheerful self. I don't to brag but truly usually is very nice. Dia very independent pandai main sendiri bila Mama buat kerja, cooperative, charming and very cheerful. I can't hold on seeing him being upset all the time and I can't be so patient myself too. It's sad seeing your baby behaving like that. And it's more frustrating when it ends up with all hells break lose. Okay enough about Ihsan.

As of now it's confirmed we will be going back on next Thursday, October 14th, 2010. We will be boarding Singapore Airlines from Nagoya Chubu Central Airport. Hubby's ticket dah beli pergi balik and tarikh balik Nihon semula is on early January. But he could prolong his stay in Msia depends on his work. Kalau dah boss kata kena extend so lagi lama lah Ihsan and I will stay in Msia. If hubby balik Nihon bulan January, we will follow suit in March. But if hubby balik Nihon in March, we will follow suit in May. I have decided akan still follow hubby back to Nihon xkisah la even for a short while only. Besides of all petty things, I baru realized that I MUST come back here because I need to visit my first son's place at least for the last time. And I need to bring Ihsan too. He need to see where his late brother laid rest at least once although he might not really understand what it's all about. Okay enough talking about this. I can be so depressed talking about this. Because I can't imagine years ahead facing the fact that I can't visit my son's grave which is by then will be thousands miles apart across the seas. I realized about this when I remembered usually on Raya morning people go to visit grave but I can't do that. And honestly this fact fiercely ripping my heart. Even it's just a grave. But that's all I have left to see.

Anyway... talking about going back, I have started kemas2 barang. I have settled with the almari baju, book shelves, kitchen kabinet and a few other things. But I still got many other things to do. Yang mana kalau difikir2kan rasa risau pula kalau xsempat kemas. I want everything to be in tiptop condition. At the moment I'm still in the middle of managing the kitchen. Yesterday I buat makan2 for my Chinese Msia friend. Dia la satu2nya kawan Msia yang duduk setempat dengan I. She came with her sons. I buat nasi ayam and murtabak lapis je. Lepas makan dia tapau some bawa balik. So I dah pass kan kat dia 2 big boxes of food stocks. Actually 1 box lagi tu yang dah baru expired I nak buang. Dia nak angkut sekali haa ambil la lagi senang kerja I. Actually selalunya I makan je foods yang dah expired. Tapi tengok la jenis foodsnya. Kalau yang kering2 macam rempah tu I makan je. Tapi kalau yang basah2 or makanan kering yang banyak perasa macam perencah I buang la. Haih pening kepala nak clear kan dapur especially fridge. Jenuh nak menghabiskan and makan. Sekarang ni tinggal sikit2 je lagi. Masih terfikir2 macam mana nak buat. Sebab I fikir nak simpan sikit some of the foods sebab malas nak bawa balik segala mak nenek nanti. Dah la nanti berapa bulan je lagi kat sini. I fikir some of the foods nanti nak simpan dalam bekas letak kat luar. Nanti kan sejuk. So hopefully xrosak la. Sebab sama la macam letak dalam fridge.

Okay lah Ihsan dah bangun la pula. Xsempat Mama nak join tidur. Hopefullu Ihsan dah okay la. Kalau nak menempek berdukung je lagi xsempat la Mama buat apa2.

PS - Nanti I upload pic photobook Ihsan :)

Ihsan's 1st Fever

2010-09-29T09:55:00.007+09:00

I planned to update on his Ihsan's 13 months milestones. But I think I'll get back to that later. Furthermore I'm lazy to upload the pictures. Anyway, Ihsan is having slight fever. Although actually now the temperature has subsided to 37.0 degree C yet the baby is still not emotionally healthy hihi :P He has been cranky since the whole day yesterday. In fact I nearly lost it in the evening while cooking dinner. I already noticed that he seemed warm a bit than usual but ignored the feeling. Only after hubby came back I mentioned to hubby before hubby took his temperature. It was 38.1 degree C, confirmed he's having slight fever. After that hubby hurriedly called the clinic but it was already late and the doctor wasn't available. So he rushed to the pharmacy instead and brought back a pack of Anpanman forehead stickers and a bottle of strawberry flavor medication for fever. But Ihsan kept pulling off the sticker from his forehead and I needed to use the force method to give him the medication syrup since he refused the civil way.

At the moment as I'm typing this he's sleeping on my lap. Since yesterday he keeps whining and crying on and off. But he remained active although seemed a bit moody. He climbed and walked at every here and there. He even managed to laugh in his cry hihi :P Obviously because we tried to make funny as an effort to cheer him up. But the tiring part of course to listen to his non-stopped fussing. He also wanted to be pacified all the times especially while sleeping. So I felt cramped here and there because I couldn't move or else he would cry suddenly if I stopped nursing him. I wonder what's the real cause. It might be because of the weather. But I suspected because there's new teeth coming out. Because he keeps drooling so much and drenched his clothes. He even keeps chewing on his new wristlet that I bought him. It's okay. As long as if that can help you get healthy fast. I've also consumed lots of supplements. So drink your milk a lot okay Ihsan. I will keep pampering you although my legs cramped because obviously you are heavy. Anything to comfort and satisfy my big baby ;P

Poor my bayyybeee! Btw that's Papa at behind and excuse the kain batik also. I use that to cover the couch because Ihsan likes to bite and eat the fury couch cover.

Truly, this is the first time he caught fever since he was born. Before this he still got his body a bit warmer than usual, a few colds and coughs, a few diarrheas and the worst were nappy rashes. Alhamdulillah he never fallen sick badly. So I guess his record isn't that bad. Perhaps Allah will always keep him healthy and protect him from any harm, Amin. Anyway I should have taken his temperature much earlier yesterday. But I knew it wasn't anything so bad might be that's why I didn't. Owh earlier yesterday during the Subuh prayer hubby nearly stepped on Ihsan while waking up. Gee the split second incident was so terrifying. Yet Alhamdulillah Allah secured him from any hurt. Lesson learned. Next time we should be more careful, more alert, and never take things for granted. Huh! what a day for Ihsan. Yet, speedy recovery, baby! :)

Autumn 2010 Is Finally Setting In

2010-09-24T11:26:00.001+09:00

Brrr! It's so chilly! It has been raining since Wednesday but luckily the rain had stopped during yesterday's evening. As of now it's quite windy outside. The weather has changed quite tremendously. Only on previous Tuesday the weather felt so hot and I just thought seemed like the autumn would be very late this year. Bow after 2 days it looks like the autumn is finally really setting in! I brought Ihsan for a walk outside just now and he was gleaming and happily walking around. We enjoyed the sudden gush of wind slapping our faces. I showed him how to kick a rock too and he really enjoyed that. At one point he wanted me let go of his hand and walked fast although wobbly. But I still guarded him closely because I was afraid he would fall onto the ground. There's full of stones there. Previously when it was hot I rarely brought him outside because I felt lazy to keep changing my clothes before and after the walk. It's quite a hassle what with the hot weather. I would always end up all sweaty at the end. But since it's cold now, I'm already fully covered and only need to put my scarf on before going outside.

By the way only on last Wednesday I started to reorganize all the clothes in the cupboards although 50% more have yet to be done. But I haven't really put aside all the summer clothes since I thought it's gonna take some more times until it will be really cold. Even we still used the aircond on that day. But wow now I find myself all covered up with sweater and socks. Even it was so cold in the morning that I thought of wrapping my head and ears with beanie and heating my feet in front of the heater! Looks like I need to get done reorganizing the cupboards all over again fast. Especially not forgetting storing the fans and taking out the heaters and kotatsu instead. Owh it would be nice to keep warm under the kotatsu :) Hihi bila panas sibuk nak aircond bila sejuk xtertahan2 pulak nak keep warm :P However, the funny thing is Ihsan still sweating a lot that he drenched his hair and pillow while sharing thick woolly blanket with us. Like yesterday when we were having our day nap, I couldn't sleep because my feet felt so cold as like the coldness trapped inside me although I was all wrapped up in the blanket. Then when I needed to bf Ihsan I felt that he was really warm! So curled my feet and hands around him. I felt as like sleeping beside the heater and it was nice! hihi :D

Anyway on last weekend we didn't go anywhere since hubby went to Tokyo and only came back on Sunday night. Luckily Monday was public holiday but we just went for grocery shopping in the evening because hubby only wanted to catch some sleep and rest. Then on Tuesday suddenly hubby took leave because he said he wanted to again get some rest. But we also went to the skin specialist during the noon to get Ihsan checked. On Wednesday hubby started working as usual and I also decided to start reorganizing the clothes in the cupboards. That's actually one of the things listed in my To-Do-List before going back to Msia. I found out I got many things to do but I don't want to wait until it's too late for me to get everything done. Since we are going back for quite a long time so I want to leave the house in order. However on Wednesday after coming home from work, hubby told me the latest news regarding this. His attachment to Msia and thus his training course might be delayed. Now what?! :P

Hubby said because of the machine operation yad yada yada we might be going back to Msia during early November until March 2011. Then he might continue with his training course from April 2011 till May 2011 in Japan. Only then Ihsan and I might go back to Japan that is on June 2011! That's total of 7 freaking months staying in Msia! For the fact that we are planning to go back for good on August 2011. Why not say if we (Ihsan and I) just go back for good already this coming November?! Furthermore June till August is summer in Japan and I think I don't mind to pass that. Sigh... Owh don't get wrong. I'm excited about going back in fact I felt a bit disappointed when hubby said it might be postponed. But I already panned long ago how to spend our last autumn, winter and spring in Japan. Plus I'm having mixed feeling too about going back for so long. If it's only 1 to 3 months, that's still okay. But if it's more than that of course it's not gonna be so comfortable living in others' houses. Actually I have started to find some solutions in easing us during our stay in Msia soon. Like, I have surveyed for baby car seat, toys, fence etc for Ihsan since it's gonna be problem to bring everything from here. But if it's 7 months stay, I might need to consider more than that and change my plan instead. Because I have many things planned for Ihsan like toilet training, self eating, Al-Quran reciting and etc.

Adoi banyak nyer nak kena pikir. At this point of time the more I'm thinking of this matter the more I feel like releasing of my stress. I don't really bothered about it anymore but more towards accepting the fact and get ready for it. After all, what choice do I have anyway? By the way yesterday I got a plastic bag full of foods stocks from the trainees' houses. They all have gone back to Msia already last Tuesday. So yesterday the obachans came to clean the houses and knock on my door to tell me to take the foods. So I went over there to choose which I wanted including some which has been opened. I took almost everything except a few which has expired or not in good condition anymore. As much I need to clear my own food stocks but I couldn't let the new foods stocks being thrown away. Obviously no one would want them and that's gonna be a very big waste. I didn't want to give bad impression to the obachans too. Anyway, I already have a few targets in mind to give away some of the foods to :D

There are so many things tossed inside the plastic bag. Siapa nak? :D

There are rice, cooking oil, sugar, salt, curry powder, turmeric, tea sachets, chicken stocks, sup bunjut, dried chillies and many more.

Yesterday I found many friends racing to buy the Air Asia promotion tickets to Japan. I wished I could do that too so that I would have company to go back to Japan soon instead of traveling with Ihsan alone. But I couldn't mind about buying the ticket at all because our date have yet to be confirmed sheesh! Hopefully cepat2 la bosses ni confirm already. Nak cerita kat orang Msia pun senang. If not selagi tu la dok tanya bila nak balik. Penat nak jawab hihi :P

Can't Wait For Tomorrow

2010-09-18T22:37:00.003+09:00

We are left alone the 2 of us at home. Hubby went to Tokyo with the trainees during the noon and they will only be back by at least tomorrow evening. The trainees will be going back to Mesia very soon so hubby is acting as the tourist guide who brings them for sight-seeing. They wished to go to Tokyo and hubby kinda felt responsible to bring them. They reached Hachioji in the evening and parked the car somewhere there. Obviously because the parking fee in metropolitan city especially Tokyo is exorbitantly expensive. Furthermore to us, it seems impractical to drive in Tokyo because the traffic light is like at every 100m along the journey. It's really time consuming to even reach very near destination. Furthermore, no doubt the train line in Tokyo is super efficient. So why bother driving? Unless you have a small baby in tow definitely it's more convenient to travel by car.

Ops hubby just called and apparently they are at Tokyo Tower, taking pictures. I thought they were already somewhere and about to call off the day. I was imagining hubby at a road side in his sleeping bag hahaha! :P He said there are still lots of people there. But they have yet to decide where to spend the night. Actually they don't have a specific plan. Earlier during the day they went to Shibuya doing window shopping and enjoying the night live atmosphere in the hustle bustle of big city Shibuya. As for tomorrow only then they will be heading to Akihabara, thei main destination. Funny thing is at the moment they will be like homeless people and will sleep at anywhere possible. Hubby could check in into hotel but he couldn't left the other 3 persons behind. The trainees are on tight budget, so that's why. I'm sure there are a lot of other travelers like them. Even during the day, we could see a lot of them everywhere. Well looking at the bright side, I bet hubby and the trainees are having a fun and adventurous time there in lively Tokyo. I'm sure there are lots of interesting things to see there. All I wished is they will stay safe, that's all.

Somehow it struck me just now during the day once hubby left. I started to feel tensed realizing that he will be distant from us. But I tried very hard no to lose control. Or else Ihsan would surely get the wave and that's the most thing I wanted to avoid. Luckily I'm succeed and Ihsan is already sleeping peacefully. I managed to get everything done smoothly and even played with him. Perhaps I can stay composed at least until hubby gets home tomorrow, plus Ihsan won't make fuss that testing my patience. Somehow back to what I felt just now, that reminded me of our very long stay in Mesia soon. I might have mentioned a few times before although not specifically (because we couldn't confirm yet) that will be going back to Mesia very soon. It will be in the middle of October which is next month. And it will be a very long one especially for me and Ihsan. Hubby will be attached to Mesia branch for 3 months and after that he will straightly continue with training course in Tokyo for 2 months. Because of that Ihsan and I will prolong our stay in Mesia for 5 months in total! 5 months is not a joke! That's nearly half of a year already.

Although I wished I could spend my last 1 year in Japan as optimum as possible but of course I'm happy to go back to Mesia. But I didn't expect it's gonna be that long. Plus I prefer staying at my own home with my little family. I find it a bit uncomfortable to stay at my in-law's or even at my own parent's house for a very long time. No, I don't have problems with them and they even more than happy to have us staying at their house. But I just feel that I'm so used staying at our very own crib, that's all. You know, things like it's more privacy, our crib is already baby-proofed, Ihsan already got many toys to play with, there are a lot of baby paraphernalia that I use everyday that really help assisting me managing Ihsan, I can wake up whenever I wish, I can do whatever I like, I can do things on my own ways, I can cook using utensils that I'm used with and towards all the teeny-weeny stuffs etc. Maybe because I'm one fussy lady so that's why everything seems matters to me. In fact I will miss most of the autumn and winter this year! I wanted to roll myself on the snow bed! I wished I could move our crib to Mesia. Maybe I should ask Doraemon or Aladdin's genie to help me out :P Well honestly... actually I think all of that don't really matter. What bothers me at the first place is realizing that we will be apart from hubby. That's the top reason that made me feels pressured.

I just realized that hubby is like my support system. So I always feel as like I couldn't function well if we are not together. Just like earlier today suddenly I felt stressed. It was kind automatic although I didn't mean to feel that way. It was a while before I could collect my composure. I know it's just the state of the mind. I know I could survive. Well, I know I can lah actually. But this particular matter is what I'm really weak at the most since like forever. It's hard for me to change my mind setting and thus not to be emotionally disturbed about this. I know I shouldn't really think about this too much and just go on with it. By hook or by crook I will motivate myself and program my mind full with positivity later. But as for now I just want vent out whatever I'm feeling inside. I just want to whine and pour out all the negativity. Let me be until I'm satisfied :D Sheesh I hate being apart from hubby. Especially now we have Ihsan. Even he might not mind at all but I do mind I have to take care of Ihsan without hubby. Although there will be others who could help out but it's not the same. Hubby understands his son more than anyone else. That will be easier for me to handle Ihsan. Last but not least, hubby understands me the most too.

Ihsan's 12 Months Milestones

2010-09-15T21:07:00.003+09:00

I feel soo lazy to update hence the silence. So now I'm gonna go straight on Ihsan's milestones as of until August 21st, 2010 but first below are some pictures of him few days before his 1st birthday:

Destroying the flower.

In deep sleep. Aman kejap dunia Mama hihi :P

Seluar hilang ntah ke mana. Tengok2 je dah xde dah :D

Muka tengah pikir nak kacau Mama. Memang dia datang kacau pun lepas tu :D

Ye Ihsan panjangnya cerita. Mandi je lah! :P

He weights about 8.2kg and 72cm of height. Looks like his weight is going up and down like yo-yo. I bet that's because of his activeness. Although he doesn't eat too much but I always ensure he eats regularly and gets sufficient nutrients. As for height he doesn't seem to get taller fast. Still, perhaps he is gonna be taller than us hihi. Maybe I should give him more milk :P
He likes to eat biscuit and bread.
I have started giving him fresh milk during breakfast and diluted juice during lunch or dinner. He is still learning to like those drinks. But most of the times he prefers plain water.
He has started to walk but only a few steps at a time. He always eager to try but not confident enough to prolong with more steps. But I don't worry at all since I can see that he is working hard in mastering the skill.
He still loves to eat on long straps and label of any kind. I believe it's gonna be long before he finally grown out of this habit.
He stops on whatever he is doing whenever he hears song of any kind.
He babbles a lot although I have yet to hear his 1st perfect word. But I could read him since he makes particular babbles during particular times or for particular needs.
He likes to scream hysterically continuously without reason especially when excited.
He is getting cheekier everyday. Like when he knows I'm angry he would give me a kind of smiling face and stop doing the thing I don't like.
He is kind of lone ranger and not that friendly. He prefers to mind his own business.
I can see he is getting independent. I could leave him to play by himself while I cook in the kitchen (of course with supervision from time to time). He also doesn't demand to be held all the time.
He is quite resistant. When we scold him he rarely listen to us or get scared and cry. Even if when we pinch him. But once he cries, he demands a lot of coaxing.
He could follow movements when I show him but usually would do it depend on his mood. Sometimes it lasts for a few times or days. But sometimes he refuses to do it at all.
He likes to shake his head when he is angry, sad or even excited.
He likes to disturb the stove button when I'm cooking. So I need to switch on the fire a few times because he keeps switching it off.
He doesn't afraid of stranger. Anyone can hold him unless he is already not in the good mood.

Hmmm that's all I could remember at the time. If I were about to write every single thing about him, I'm sure I won't be able to stop at all :D

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri 1431H

2010-09-08T10:29:00.007+09:00

Malam ni akan ada pengumuman raya. Most probably raya tahun ni akan jatuh hari Jumaat ni. Kalau betul nampaknya esok adalah hari terakhir berpuasa. Tapi Mama Ihsan awal2 lagi dah raya hahaha! Baru je hari tu berangan dapat berpuasa penuh. I boleh berangan macam tu sebab since breastfeeding Ihsan ni period cycle kadang2 lewat seminggu or 2 minggu. Tapi nampak gayanya since 2 bulan lepas dah on time semula. Takpela hopefully esok boleh la sambung puasa sehari lagi. Rasa macam baru je masuk Ramadhan tapi pejam celik tengok2 dah nak habis dah. Nak kata Ramadhan tahun ni dimanfaatkan sebaiknya hmmm takdela seoptimum yang mungkin. Tapi rasanya better lah compared to last year. Takpela yang penting harapnya takdela berkurang berbanding tahun2 sebelum tu and yang penting sekali bereterusan la even dah habis Ramadhan nanti.

Kalau ada yang tanya persiapan untuk sambut raya honestly kami xde buat apa2 persiapan pun. Kuih raya satu pun I xbuat. Teringin tu memang teringin tapi my oven kalau buat cookies hasilnya xcantik sangat. Plus take time nak siap sebab oven kecik. Lagi pulak my mixer xkuat sangat takut karang rosak terus. Masa buat cookies a few times before this pun dah ada macam bau2 motor dia nak terbakar. Sebab tu la I rasa xsemangat sangat nak buat kuih. Lagipun maybe sebab xde siapa2 pun yang akan datang beraya ke rumah kami ni. So I xdela terasa keperluan nak buat apa2 persiapan tu. If not segan gak la kan kena la buat hihi :P Tahun ni sama macam tahun2 lepas my mom and mil hantar kuih tunjuk2 from Msia. Itu pun separuh I dah ngap. Hubby bising je takut raya dah xde kuih hihi :P Tapi this year kira ok sket la masing2 ada baju raya baru. Selama raya kat sini tahun sebelum2 ni xpenah lagi I sambut raya pakai baju kurung. Tahun ni hubby siap bersamping and Ihsan pun gonna celebrate his 1st raya dengan 1st baju melayu raya! :D Harap2 sangat dia xcabut songkok dia tu nanti.

InsyaAllah raya ni kami akan g beraya di embassy. Selama bertahun2 dok di Nihon, ni la 1st time nak merasa raya di embassy. Saja2 je sebenarnya sebab bila lagi nak merasa sambut raya kat embassy. Lagipun kebetulan timing raya dekat dengan weekend. Then memikirkan ada Ihsan so terasa la nak sambut raya sket. Compared to last year ikut2kan kami xdela sambut apa pun. Setakat masak ala2 juadah raya untuk makan during meal times. Tu jela hihi :P Honestly I takdela rasa teruja sangat nak sambut raya. Sama je macam tahun2 sebelum ni. Maybe sebab already set in the mind yang kalau raya kat Msia confirm sangat meriah. Tapi even raya kat perantauan takla semeriah di Msia tapi bagi I best gak la. Bila lagi nak merasa raya di perantauan. Bila lagi nak merasa raya yang tak macam raya hahaha! :D Tapi ni I jela sebab tempat I ni xde komuniti Melayu lain. Yang ada pun jauh sket. Kalau orang lain kat Nihon ni ada je yang dapat sambut raya dengan meriah. Apa2 pun masuk kali ke 5 raya di perantauan ni banyak hikmah and pengajaran yang I dapat. Semuanya pengalaman yang mematangkan :)

Ada orang kata kat I jangan sedih2 sebab tak dapat sambut raya kat Msia. Honestly I nak tergelak bila orang cakap macam tu. Bukanlah nak berlagak. Tapi memang I xrasa apa sangat lah. Memang lah teringin raya di Msia yang mana confirm lagi best berbanding kat sini yang xde apa2. Maybe sebab dah biasa sambut raya di perantauan so I rasa macam dapat prioritize apa yang lebih penting disebalik maksud puasa and raya tu. I rasa asalkan dapt minta maaf dengan family masa pagi raya and I tau semua orang yang kita sayang sihat and happy dah cukup kot. Selebihnya kami sambut sendiri2 kat sini secara sederhana je. Tapi xdinafikan I rasa lagi sedih tak dapat makan makanan yang sedap2 masa raya kot hahaha ingat makan je! Dari dulu macam ni :P Kalau nak kata rindu kat family tu. Sama je kot hari2 lain pun rindu. Kalau nak kata sedih tu actually lebih kepada sedih Ramadhan dah nak berakhir. Ntah tahun depan diberi peluang lagi ke tak untuk mengharungi Ramadhan.

Especially since 2 tahun ni jauh dalam hati rasa sedih bila Ramadhan dah nak berakhir sebab ada sebab. Kalau sebelum Ramadhan tu tertunggu2 je Ramadhan datang. Maybe sebab selalu kiter dengar bila Ramadhan roh2 diberi kelonggaran untuk bebas. Wallahu'alam. Tapi xdinafikan I rasa seronok and terfikir2 macam. Terfikir2 yang 'Abid datang dekat. Mengharap jugak yang 'Abid akan datang dalam mimpi which is selama ni xpernah pun. Ada juga terfikir 'Abid tetiba ada depan Mama ke hahaha! Tapi fikir2 balik ish xpayah la. Karang ada yang pengsan. Tu dah benda lain dah tu. Bukan 'Abid pun. Tapi Qarin dia je kot. Kalau bukan Qarin pun jeng jeng jeng apakah dia? Hahaha xsanggup la Mama nak menghadapi situasi begitu :P Xpelah even 'Abid xdatang dalam mimpi Mama masa Ramadhan ni. Hari2 lain pun boleh datang. Hopefully Mama dipanjangkan umur untuk merasa Ramadhan next year. Dapat la Mama rasa 'Abid datang dekat. Walaupun sebenarnya maybe Mama je perasan sorang2. I still want to believe that you would be near to me seeing me, seeing us at home. Wallahu'alam. But who knows, InsyaAllah. Yang penting Ramadhan ke tak I will always keep praying for you every day and night. That's the only obligation left for me to carry out for you.

Sometimes terbit juga rasa sedih because I wished I could do more for him. Bila dah sedih tu mula la terfikir berlebih2 yang xmunasabah which then menambahkan lagi kesedihan. Xde keje betul. Dalam menangani perasaan on this very particular matter ni I rasa cara I lain xsama macam hubby. So most of the times we very rarely talk about it but at the same time we made sure ourselves we never forget to pray for him every time after prayer day and night and before sleep. Actually I also I wished I could visit his place more often. Tapi disebabkan keadaan xmengizinkan so I asyik pendam je la hasrat tu. The reasons are first one is because tempat tu jauh sket so xdapat la nak g slalu. And the biggest reason is sebab Ihsan kecik lagi. Bukannya xboleh bawak baby. Tapi tempat tu sunyi and ada kawasan perkuburan agama2 lain. Ada big Buddha statue. So I xberani nak ambil risiko bawa Ihsan g sana. However at least sebelum balik for good I akan pegi and bawa Ihsan sekali for him to see his late brother's place. After raya ni InsyaAllah hubby will go to 'Abid's place alone. At least rasa lega sket kot even I xdapat ikut.

Ops dah menyimpang jauh. Actually nak ucap selamat hari raya je hahaha! :P So... Selamat memanfaatkan hari2 terakhir Ramadhan kepada semua yang membaca blog I ni. Moga dapat diteruskan amalan walaupun Ramadhan dah berakhir nanti. Moga semua kebaikan yang kiter buat samada sikit atau banyak, diberkati Allah. Maafkan segala salah dan silap samada secara sengaja atau tak, samada kiter kenal secara langsung atau tak. Maaf zahir dan batin. Semoga berbahagia dihari lebaran. Hati2 di jalan raya. Kepada yang memandu, memandulah secara berhemah. Even I xdrive but I nak share my prinsip, biar lambat asal selamat. So sabar banyak2 xyah nak pecut2 macam orang dah xtahan nak terberak hihihi :P (I slalu cakap macam ni kat hubby bila ada orang drive laju2 xsabar2 or xsenonoh on the road). Lastly, Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri! :)

PS - Ihsan's 12 months milestones xupdate lagi. Lepas raya la nampaknya :P

Ahmad Izzul Ihsan's 1st Birthday :)

2010-09-01T01:28:00.004+09:00

It has been 10 days since Ihsan's 1st birthday. But I couldn't seem to find suitable time to update on this particular important moment in his life. I can't really put myself into sleep at night since past few days and this is very annoying and surely tiring too. This cause my daily scheduled affected a bit and thus I don't really have time to blog or blog hopping. However, I determine to get this done by this time.

So, on Saturday, August 21st, 2010 marked 1 year since Lil' Munchkin No. 2, Ihsan came into our lives. Finally I got the chance to celebrate the birthday of a son. One of the many wishes I had been dreaming to achieve. Although sometimes it still feels a bit surreal because I still couldn't believe I manage to come this far. But I'm glad for this chance and one of my longing wishes has been granted. Alhamdulillah! Looking back from the day I was confirmed that I conceived of Ihsan. Honestly I felt so relieved and speechless once I saw the double line on the pregnancy test kit. It was really a moment with full of emotions. Because at that time, I desperately wanting and waiting for him. I conceived Ihsan only 6 months giving birth to late Lil' Munchkin No. 1, 'Abid. And I'm glad I didn't wait too long to try again. Because Ihsan brings along plenty of sunshine into our lives since then after the rain :)

My pregnancy with Ihsan had been quite an easy one. Although while carrying him, I constantly felt pressured but I was quite calm, focused, prepared and highly spirited almost all the times. Alhamdulillah the delivery process was much easier and surely we came home from the hospital smiling during this time. I must say that it was one among the most precious moments for me to experience. I still can remember the journey of bringing Ihsan home was all so familiar because I actually did experience that beforehand. The time, the weather, the traffic and all was quite similar. Except surely it was fated to be the other way round. This time I could put my baby in the infant car seat where he slept so soundly in it until we reached home. Throughout the journey I could see his peaceful face. I could hold his tiny fingers. I could touch his warm delicate skin and feel his chest going up and down. I smiled all the way back home. There was mixed of emotions in me. Yet I felt so blissful and relieved. Although I'm sure aware this time we were brought to put more definitions into our own parenthood dictionary. It was indeed felt like in a dream :)

A few minutes young! :D

Alhamdulillah for the past 1 year Ihsan has been quite an easy baby. It wasn't hard taking care of Ihsan. No major thing took place, as far as I can remember. Although of course there were challenges like some episodes of worrying when he got sick, all hells breaking loose when he really tested my patience so on and so forth. But all I could say is everything went on as smoothly and very ordinarily. I think , that's because we had been quite ordinary parents and child ourselves too. Although I do aware there were some flaws at here and there but I believed and in fact I'm proud that we have tried our best in bringing him up since the first day he was born. There are new things we discovered everyday and being with him made us learned a lot. The past one year has been amazing and we are expecting more happy surprises to come in coming years! :D

Now let me recap back on Ihsan's birthday. Months before his birthday and even until the actual day itself, I couldn't stop re-thinking and re-planning how to celebrate his birthday. I thought of getting party hats for each of us and blow some balloons but at last we decided just to celebrate his birthday in a very simple way. There was only a birthday cake followed by cake cutting session! I put a new shirt on him which actually meant to be worn during raya later during the cake cutting session. We kept singing and wishing him happy birthday constantly too. On the night before his birthday I baked a carrot cake for him. At first I thought of making a sponge cake layered with cream but I changed my mind during the last minute. Because I thought of making a more special cake than a normal one. Furthermore I just made the former kind of cake during hubby's birthday last month.

Earlier on the day of his birthday we woke up late and he was the one who woke up first. We slept late on the night before. Well, obviously I was busy preparing for his birthday cake. Anyway after awakened by him, we sang the birthday song for him in bed. He was as cheerful as a lark. I always find him the cutest when he just woke up in the morning after sufficient peaceful sleep. I like his smell at that time minus the stinky and loaded diaper of course, his refreshed look, his wide eyes and his smelly mouth. Well, he just smiled listening to us singing the birthday song. Not that he understood what it was but of course because he was happy being entertained, as usual :D After that we made ourselves because we already planned to go out to Nishimatsuya to restock some of his stuffs. We just got out for a while and once reached home I directly cooked chicken rice. Furthermore because we were going to receive visitors on that day.

Only after breaking fast we held the cake cutting session. Truly, it was indeed a struggle to get his cooperation. He didn't bother at all about the cake. All he wanted was just to watch his Baby Einstein videos. He made fuss when I stopped the videos and switched off the TV! We are the ones who were busy trying to capture the important moments. It was kinda funny because we are the ones who were overjoyed whilst the birthday boy couldn't care less! After some hard works on taking proper pictures and videos which included lots of wriggling and a bit of crying in the middle, we managed to pass the birthday song singing and cake cutting. Phew! I gave him a taste of the cheese topping on the cake. He ate it with weird face. Since he didn't spit it out so I'm sure he liked it. But that's all! He didn't care to eat more. I tried giving him some of the cakes a few times after that but up to this day he didn't mind at all about the cake. He just ate a bit before crushing the rest with his palm and pressing the pieces on the carpet :)

The birthday boy!

The birthday cake!

Carrot cake with cream cheese topping. The recipe is a keeper!

For his birthday present, I managed to get him a new book on the past couple of weeks. The book is in Japanese and it's about counting 10 caterpillars. I think the book is very interesting because besides it is colorfully illustrated, they are actually 10 appeared caterpillars in the book and the last page got pop-up too. Honestly in my mind there is list of stuffs that could be a great birthday present for Ihsan but later I thought, I should make book as compulsory birthday present every year! Furthermore we still can get the other things during other times. By the way I wished to get Ihsan a potty training set, a push car, educational CDs and etc later. Papa, please take note :D Owh by the way, Ihsan also got advanced birthday present of jinbei which he wore during hanabi matsuri previously if you noticed. It is actually from our friend in Hiroshima. Thank you Kak Sophea, Sarah-chan and Mahdi-kun. Also after celebrating Ihsan's birthday, we got visitors from Shizuoka, Uncle Neko, Auntie Ida and Nabilah-chan. They brought shape sorter set for Ihsan. Thank you too! Now, we both are planning to celebrate Ihsan's birth once again coming soon in Msia with the families, InsyaAllah.

Compulsory birthday present - book!

Anyway I always feel that Ihsan's presence has brought up our hope once again. He brings a lot of smiles into our lives. Although definitely he never can be the replacement to his late elder brother. But at least he has helped us ease our missing towards 'Abid. I'm grateful for the blessings of both sons towards me. I love them both dearly. And if it hasn't been fated to be this way, I might not have a baby angel waiting for me in Jannah and a cheeky fast growing baby that never fails to fascinate me every day both at the same time! Alhamdulillah Ya Allah... for You know what's best for us and Your plan surely is the best always :) In my prayers every day I never stopped praying for my sons. And for Ihsan, I pray that he will grow up being a good person to himself, his siblings, families, friends and society. May Ihsan be a Soleh son who will never forget praying for us always and as a good caliph to Allah. May Ihsan will always succeed in whatever good deed he is working on during his life and blessed until the hereafter. Only all the best wishes to my Ihsan. InsyaAllah. Amin. Happy very 1st birthday baby! :D

"It has only been 1 year. We are sure looking forward for more years to come being with you. Celebrating more birthdays with you and surely there will be more adventures coming along the way in between too. May Allah lend you to us a long as He can. And may Mama and Papa could breath as long as at least until we could see you grow up being a faithful Muslim who is succeed in life and perhaps until the hereafter. For that, may we are always being under His blessings and guidance all the time in nurturing you to be one. InsyaAllah. Amin. The journey we had to go through wasn't easy until the day we got you. For that, we really cherish and grateful for your presence into our lives. Mama Papa loves you whole-heartedly more than words can say."

7 Ramadhan

2010-08-18T14:53:00.005+09:00

Wah panas betul 2 3 hari ni! Betul2 terasa bahang. Dalam rumah dah rasa macam duduk dalam sauna. Maybe sebab nak hujan. Kat luar pun dah ada bunyi guruh tu. Nasib baik la summer dah di penghujung. Xlama lagi dah slowly akan sejuk balik. Lega! Yesterday hubby dah officially keje balik. Cuti Obon tahun ni hubby cuti 6 hari je started from Thursday last week sampai la last Monday. Tapi xrasa sangat macam cuti pun sebab hubby sokmo busy dengan macam2 hal. 3 hari je dia betul2 duk rumah rumah tu pun ada gak la hilang sekejap2. Haih pasrah je la labu! Nak buat macam mana kan. Kalau dia saja2 tu lain la citer memang nak kena la hihi ;P

Hari Khamis cuti bermula hubby g Nagano-shi amik visa and re-entry visas kami yang dah siap. Kuar pagi and lepas Maghrib baru sampai rumah sebab guna jalan biasa je. Jumaat kami dok di rumah je. Sabtu hubby g Tokyo sebab ada hal . Kuar pagi and after Maghrib baru sampai rumah. Ikut highway tapi sebab jauh kan lama gak la nak g balik. Hari Ahad kami dok rumah je jugak. Hubby je g pulangkan buku Ihsan kat library pastu kemas rumah sket2. Hari Isnin baru kami kuar. G Jusco beli groceries, g Daiso beli a few things and lastly singgah Cainze Home. Semuanya beli barang rumah. G Daiso tu sebenarnya nak cari party hat untuk birthday Ihsan Sabtu ni. Tapi xde plak. Xpela xyah la kot. Ingat nak concentrate on buat birthday cake je bagi sedap and cantik, InsyaAllah! :D

Anyway masa g Jusco tu ada budak sibuk nak jalan. Bising je jerit2 nak kuar dari trolley. Padahal bukannya pandai pun berjalan sendiri lagi. Setakat berdiri tegak tu boleh lah. Mama Papa plak nak cepat2 nak balik xkoser la plak kan nak pimpin budak kecik tu bertatih. Orang sibuk lalu lalang nak ambik sayur. Dah la dia berjalan 2 3 langkah pastu sibuk nak duduk kat lantai. Cepat2 Mama pilih2 sayur. Haa cepat2 la pandai jalan nanti boleh jalan sendiri okay? Kalau dah boleh jalan nanti senang sket petang2 Mama suruh lari kat luar rumah tu. So malam boleh la tdo awal Sekarang ni dia jarang dah tdo awal. Kadang2 tu sama2 dengan kitorang masuk tdo :D

Hari ni dah 7 Ramadhan. Sekejapan je. Pejam celik esok dah raya. Semalam tdo lewat sebab alter baju raya Ihsan. Besar gabak. Tapi itu pun dah saiz 1. Dah memang paling kecik hihi. Tapi I cuma lipat and jahit jelujur je kat kaki and tangan. Kalau nak potong sayang pulak nanti dah besar langsung xboleh pakai dah. At least kalau lipat je boleh la pakai lagi tahun depan2. Tinggal nak alter baju I plak. Actually baju I tu baju my mom. Dia beli untuk dia la pakai g keje tapi kecik pulak. So dia bagi kat I sebab I cakap nak baju purple. Tapi kalau I pakai besar pulak. So dia dah kecik kan. I cuma tinggal nak pendekkan sket labuh baju tu je. Baju hubby je xyah alter sebab dah just nice.

Xsampai 1 minit pun dia pakai songkok ni pastu dia campak. Tapi hopefully raya ni dia nak la pakai. Excuse sepah2 kat belakang tu ek and lubang kat tingkap tu. Itu memang Ihsan la punya keje. Mama and Papa dah xlarat nak pertahankan tingkap tu.

Masa hubby cuba2 pakai haritu siap dengan songkok and samping dah nampak macam pengantin pun ye jugak hihi. Dia kata dia memang boleh pun nak kawin lagi. Ada lagi kuota. I cakap kat dia ha pegi lah. Nanti I yang tukang siapkan dia nak g kawin haha! Actually tema kami tahun ni purple. Ihsan punya baju warna purple muda. Hubby warna brinjal purple. I plak purple maroon. Tapi kalau nak diikutkan I punya baju xmacam purple sangat lebih kepada maroon. Aiseh dah lari la. Tapi xpela since my mom dah hantar pun so pakai jela apa ada. Lagi pun bukannya nak beraya sakan sangat. Syarat je. InsyaAllah tahun ni kalau raya jatuh on Saturday kami plan nak raya kat embassy then beraya kat rumah Murni :D

Ihsan 'tolong' Mama kemas barang2 yang baru sampai.

Hari ni untuk berbuka I xyah masak. Cuma tambah pape yang patut je hihi ;) Sebab semalam dah masuk for 2 days terus. Semalam masak kung pau chicken dengan sayur sup suhun fucuk campur kentang, kobis bunga and fish cake. Tadi dah siapkan semua kat dapur tu. Potong buah pear je and susun pinggan segala. Air pun air kosong sejuk je hari ni sebab ada lagi sket baki air green tea botol and teh o. Lagipun dah banyak hari minum air manis. Minum air kosong jela pulak. Kuih muih apa semua xde. Malas dah la nak buat. Sebab hubby sekarang ni jenis makan sikit2 je. Nanti xhabis buat memenuhkan fridge tu je sampai dah xmuat nak menyimpan. Pastu I yang jenuh nak habis kan. Nak makan kuih or kudapan makan jela kuih raya and biskut yang melambak tu. Itupun setakat hari ni I je yang dah sentuh hubby xsentuh langsung pun lagi.

So dengan rasminya I umumkan I xbuat kuih raya tahun ni. Macam la tahun lepas2 I buat pun haha :P Sebab kuih 'tunjuk' and kuih 'terbang' dah siap dah. My mom and mil hantar. My mom hantar instant foods untuk Ihsan sekali dengan barang2 lain yang I pesan including my baju for raya and kuih raya. Sebab haritu kan Ihsan xnak makan. Tapi sekarang dia dah nak makan la. So xpela instant foods tu boleh guna untuk travel, breakfast, snack and bila Mama malas hihi :P Mil plak hantar kuih raya and baju raya hubby and Ihsan. So rasa nya memang boleh sangat bertahan sampai raya kuih2 tu sumer :D Maaf la ye xdapat nak share resepi kuih raya. Lagipun memang berat hati nak buat sebenarnya sebab leceh oven kecik. Nak siapkan 1 adunan kuih tu siap nak kena divide to a few batches. Lambat nak siap and membazir letrik je. Malas nak tunggu sebab xsuka!

Btw hari tu I ada buat tuna bun ni. Masa tengok kat blog Ibu Aina rasa teringin plak. Pastu ada refer MyR untuk refer gambar. Sedap bun ni lembut je. Tapi sampai hari ni ada lagi baki 1 biji sebab xsempat2 nak makan. Yelah bila dah buka puasa dah kenyang. I sorang je plak pulun makan lagi la lambat nak habis. Seb baik simpan dalam fridge if not dah lama rosak. Ni I copy resepi from Ibu Aina and here is the original link kalau nak refer gambar cara nak shape kan dough tu. Thanks to those yang share recipe :)

Tuna Bun

Ataupun bun bunga.

Bahan-bahan (12 biji):
120ml Susu segar
50g Telur (I guna 1 biji)
300g Tepung roti
3 Sudu besar gula
1 Sudu kecil garam
60g Butter
1 Sudu kecil dry yeast

Topping:
2 Tin tuna
1/2 Biji bawang besar
Mayonis
Cheese

Cara-cara:

Masukkan semua bahan untuk buat roti ke dalam breadmaker. On kan. Tunggu siap
Bila dah siap, keluarkan angin dan bahagikan kepada 12 bahagian. Buat bentuk bulat dan rehatkan selama 10 minit.
Buat bentuk panjang lebih kurang 30-35cm dan buat macam bentuk ikatan.
Buatlah silang-silang sampai bertemu kedua-dua hujungnya. Buat sampai habis roti. Biarkan naik 2 kali ganda.
Sapukan roti dengan telur. Campurkan tuna, bawang, cheese dan mayonis. Letaklah dibahagian tengah roti.
Bakar dalam oven dengan suhu 180C selama 10-12 minit.

Okay lah selamat berbuka untuk hari ni! Korang berbuka apa hari ni? :D

Salam Ramadhan 1431H

2010-08-12T11:32:00.004+09:00

First of all, I think it's still not too late to wish Salam Ramadhan to all my blog readers. Ceh macam la ramai orang baca blog ni kan. Padahal bape ketul je. Maaf kalau ada salah dan silap yang xsengaja malah disengajakankan (wah sengaja tu!) sepanjang kiter kenal dan xkenal (yelah kalau dah silent reader macam mana nak kenal kan? ;P) samada dalam blog dan diluar blog. Semoga Ramadhan kali ni dapat dimanfaatkan sebaiknya berbanding tahun2 yang lepas. Even hopefully dapat la diteruskan bila Ramadhan dah habis nanti. Bukannya masa Ramadhan je nak pulun buat amalan tapi habis puasa pulun melagho plak hihi. Ingatan untuk diri sendiri la ni ye. Xde kaitan dengan orang lain yang di luar sana samada masih hidup atau telah mati :P

I also nak wish happy summer holiday to my friends in Nihon. Ramai yang dah start cuti since last weekend lagi kan. Tapi my hubby baru start cuti hari ni! Itu pun today macam xde beza je sebab he went to Nagano-shi to amik visa I and Ihsan yang dah renewed together with our re-entry visas. So esok la kot baru betul2 rasa macam hubby bercuti. But esok dah already Friday. Orang lain dah habis setengah holiday dah. Anyway... before that, on Wednesday last week kami sempat g tgk hanabi lagi. This is the biggest in Matsukawa town. Ramai sungguh umat manusia. Puas hati la tengok compared to masa matsuri sebelum ni. Yang matsuri tu ala bape ketul je fireworks nyer. Buat cukup syarat je. Then on last weekend jugak right before puasa I sempat la kemas rumah sikit2. On Saturday pagi2 lagi we went to skin specialist sebab nak amik my ubat tangan dah lama habis. Then balik rumah terus cabut2 semua langsir, basuh and sidai. I vacuumed skali sliding doors and windows. Banyak betul habuk. Kat situ susah nak vacuum betul2 sebab selama ni ada langsir kan. Selalunya setakat mana boleh nampak and campai je la I bersihkan. Then I kemas Ihsan's storage boxes. Ada barang2 dia yang dah boleh simpan. Then petang tu pasang langsir balik.

Hanabi yang tengok Ihsan ye sebab dia tdo! Sekuat2 nyer berdentum-dentam dia boleh tdo.

On Sunday plak we woke up late. Dah bangun je terus siap2 and pegi momo gari at a farm dekat dengan rumah ni. Tapi peaches nye dah xbanyak habis rupanya. Pastuh mahal plak tuh fee per person and ada limit masa 1 hour je. Peach pun tinggal yang dah last2 a few pokok je. Xbanyak yang betul2 ripe. So kena pulun gak la mencari yang ripe. All in all okay la best jugak sebab first time kan. At least dah merasa sekali tapi cukup la pasni g budou gari plak ke xmerasa lagi. Tapi bagi I yang paling puas hati and berbaloi is ichigo gari (strawberry picking) and ringo/nashi gari (apple/pear picking). Memang puas hati sangat makan. Murah pun ye. Tapi dengan syarat jangan g kat farm yang ada limit masa. Anyway lepas momo gari tu kitorg g shopping sket kat Shimamura then g Jusco for grocery shopping pastu balik. On Tuesday plak the day before puasa sempat la vacuum2 kemas rumah lagi. Actually ada lagi yang xbuat but xpe la boleh buat pelan2 nak dekat raya nanti.

Momo gari

Alhamdulillah Ramadhan kali ni I dapat puasa. Tahun lepas sehari sebelum puasa bersalinkan Ihsan. Jadinya sepanjang bulan puasa tahun lepas I langsung xamik tahu dah pasal Ramadhan ni. Hubby pun pandai2 la sahur and berbuka sendiri segala. In fact siap jaga anak bini lagi berpantang. Syabas lah tu my dear hubby. Banyak pahala Abang dapat puasa tahun lepas ye? hihi :D Tapi even I xdapat puasa tahun lepas Allah bagi peluang untuk buat ibadat dari segi lain pulak. Yelah jaga anak pun ibadat jugak. Tambah2 first time jaga baby sendiri2 pulak tu. Mana nak jaga emosi and fizikal sendiri. Ni la yang paling susah. Mana nak jaga baby lagi. Kalau ingat2 balik hmmm rasa macam xsangka pun ye I survived. Yelah what choice do I have pun? Nak tak nak kena survived kan jugak! :) This also means if ikut kalendar Hijrah Ihsan dah pun 1 year old! Alhamdulillah :D

So puasa kali ni bertiga dengan si kecik ni. Masa first sahur yesterday Ihsan pun bangun jugak. Actually I dah bf him. Tapi dah sebab waktu sahur I xde la tggu sampai dia betul2 nyenyak kalau tak nanti lambat. So bila I bangun dia pun terbangun sekali sebab dia rasa xde orang sebelah dia. Ihsan ni kalau nak tau dia tdo mesti parking betul2 bawah ketiak Mama and muka ngadap Mama. Tangan pun kdg2 peluk Mama. So sepanjang kami bersahur Ihsan pun mengikut jela ke dapur. Tapi nyer dia dok membebel2 and sesekali merengek2. Itu yang malas nak dengar tu. Yelah dia ngantuk kan nak ajak orang tdo la tu. Sampai la habis solat Subuh baru dia tdo betul2. Nak Mamaaa jugak!

Today dah 2 Ramadhan. Alhamdulillah hari ni nyaman je sebab hujan renyai2. In fact dari yesterday lagi. Walaupun semalam basuh kain berlambak and hari ni xdapat nak sidai kat luar, but it's okay! Sebab apa? Sebab pagi tadi kami terlepas nak sahur tsk tsk! :P Xsedar alarm berbunyi. Sedar2 je elok2 tgh azan Subuh. Dan2 tu jugak risau alamak macam mana ni? I bukan risau apa. I risau sebab dok bf si Ihsan ni. I takut by evening nanti I dah melepek. Hmmm xpe2 so far I'm still good. Maybe i's just the state of the mind. I should think that I will be okay throughout the day. Cuaca pun ok sedap je so membantu gak la kan. Yang xmembantunya penat dok ulang alik mengangkat Ihsan ni haa! Xdok diam ada je projek dia. Nak panjat meja la... nak tepuk2 tv la... gigit Mama la itu la ini la. Haih sabar ye Mama!

Tadi pagi tanya hubby camner dengan nasi goreng tu sumer takkan nak buang? Hubby kata berbuka nanti makan tu je la semua habiskan dulu. Simpan dalam fridge je. So maknanya hari ni dah xpayah masak untuk berbuka. Tambah sket2 je apa2 yang patut. Kalau ikutkan plan asal hari ni nak buat pizza. So pizza buat esok je. Btw yesterday kitorg berbuka dengan nasi goreng sambal belacan, ayam tandoori, salad timun and tomato with sesame dressing, banana coffee muffin, buah pear, air sirap selasih, warm green tea and kurma. Muffin tu I buat banyak2 sekaligus kelmarin then wrapped and simpan dalam fridge. So tahan lah untuk dessert for a few days. Nak makan panaskan je. Tapi hari ni ingat nak tambah buat bun apa2. Jap lagi nak cari recipe. Buat yang simple2 je untuk makan sahur esok nya. Anyway puasa tahun ni I ada lah azam sket2 dan harap2 dapat la buat. Alah bukan susah pun sebenarnya senang sangat pun. Tapi bab nak disiplinkan diri tu yang payah. Xpe2 mesti buat! :D

Okay la selamat berbuka and menunaikan badah untuk semua ye. Rajin2 la share juadah berbuka. Boleh I cedok kalau xde idea nak masak apa :D

Sight-Seeing In Matsumoto

2010-08-04T09:01:00.001+09:00

Last Friday hubby took leave from work and we went to Nagano-shi to renew my visa and Ihsan's and apply for our re-entry visas. We left home at about 11.00 am and arrived there during the noon. But it took just a short time at the immigration office. One of the bestest thing about Japan is everything is efficient and fast. I'm sure one of the biggest factor is because in everything they do especially working, they do it seriously. Hopefully Msia kiter pun soon akan jadi mcm ni lah. Bila tu? hihi ;P After that we made our way back to Matsumoto because we were gonna spend the night there at Nuha-chan and parents' place. During our journey to Matsumoto we just stopped at kombini for prayer and then went to Jusco near Nuha-chan's house area to have our very late proper lunch plus actually we were gonna need to kill some times. We needed to wait for Nuha-chan's father to arrive home from work first before preceding to their house.

Actually our original plan was to spend the night somewhere because we wished to go for sight-seeing and then visit Nuha-chan and parents during our way back home. I wished to go for momo gari (peach picking) and visit himawari park. However, we couldn't find anything interesting to visit around that area during this time. Even if there were, the places are a bit out of our actual route or the places we wanted to go are still not ready to be visited yet. The peaches in here are yet to ripe and the himawaris are yet to bloom. So we thought we just would stop by at their house to pass the baby crib but unexpectedly they insisted us beforehand to spend the night at their house instead. Saje2 je lah to spend time together.

Anyway, we had a great time at their house. We had warm chat over delicious foods and Ihsan too got to play with Nuha-chan. Well... actually Ihsan was more on minding his own business hihi :P But that's already expected since he is still learning to socialize. On the Saturday, after having breakfast the hosts lead us to Wasabi Koen. The place was nice and it was thronged with people too. We just walked around the place and taking pictures at the same time. Then we had wasabi ice cream and bought a pack of prawn wasabi senbei and wasabi chocolate. We didn't spend long time at the park because it was scorching hot and we were all already sweaty. After that we made way to a shopping complex and I managed to buy a birthday present for Ihsan. By that time all of us especially the kids were already tired especially because of the hotness. So we decided to get back to their house. We had lunch and pray before finally saying good bye to the hosts.

It was enjoyable indeed. Yelah bukan selalu jmpa org lain. Balik2 tetiap hari tgk muka masing2 anak beranak je. Thank you very much to Nuha-chan's family for the great hospitality. InsyaAllah we are gonna meet again very soon after raya perhaps :D We straightly left for home and arrived at about 4.00 pm. By then I was already knackered because actually I wasn't really in a good health. I caught some cold since the Thursday before. So after unpacking the stuffs I lied down in the room. I thought hubby would look after Ihsan but he dozed off way before me. Ihsan was playing in the room and gladly not long after that he joined me to sleep.

At Wasabi Koen. with traditional Japanese farming house, I think. Not sure what's the purpose of that kind of house. But it has water wheel attached on it. Maybe it's actually a water wheel house.

With wasabi!

The wasabi is planted in rocky soils in clear and clean moving water. In the background are baby wasabis just planted.

Wasabi chocolate.

Prawn wasabi senbei.

On the week before that we had a dip in the river and on the week way before, we went to enjoy matsuri and hanabi down the village. The Ramadhan is gonna arrive very soon next week and by then I don't think we are gonna be going for sight seeing or anything until the end of Ramadhan. Well... we could. But with the scorching hot weather and by night we are gonna be busy preparing for breaking fast and do what we normally do during the night of Ramadhan, so it will be more comfortable to just spend time at home. However I still feel that I don't want to miss momo gari and seeing himawari flower. I'm afraid it's gonna be too late if we wait until after Aidil Fitri Celebration. Talking about Raya now I'm thinking of making Raya cookies soon. BUT... there is big but there. Nah... will think about that later. Puasa pun belum ni apa citer kan?

Owh talking about coming Ramadhan I feel the need to do some preparation too. Although I'm not actually sure just what I need to do anyway. But I think at least I should clean the house. Which means, wash the curtains and wash the toilet until gleaming. Well... I think that's all. There are other things but I think we don't have much time because Ramadhan is just so around the corner! Btw you might be wondering why I must wash the curtains because usually we heard people wash curtains right before Raya arrives. Well... suffice to say I just want to laze myself from any extra house chores during Ramadhan because I just want to sit still (yeah right) and make full use the time of holy Ramadhan, InsyaAllah! Harapnya lebih baik la dari tahun2 lepas. And not forgetting we are not gonna celebrate Raya at home. Even if we do make preparations for Raya saper sgt la yg nak dtg beraya pun ;P Furthermore it's not the same celebrating Raya abroad compared to in Mesia. Even if we are in Mesia, I prefer to celebrate the day moderately. Guna apa yang ada je dah la xyah membazir. Wah bini saper ni baik nya! Tapi betul lah we all ni simple je ;P

Tonight there's gonna be hanabi somewhere near the village. Hubby thought of bringing us there. Perhaps everything is gonna be good (my mood will be good, my baby will be all good, I can settle everything especially with the cooking early and the weather is gonna be good too), hence we can fully enjoy watching hanabi :)

Ihsan's 11 Months Milestones

2010-08-03T00:07:00.000+09:00

Ihsan turned 11 months young on previous July 21st, 2010. As usual, time didn't permit me to blog or at least I was stuck with words hence the delay on the update hihi :P Anyway, I really can't believe it he's gonna turn 1 very soon! :D Now without further ado, I'll just go straight on his milestones but before that; enjoy his photos in the past 1 month:

Ihsan's 1st hanabi.

Ihsan's 1st matsuri in Matsukawa village. Xsure plak apa nama matsuri tu :P

Ihsan with books! Books borrowed from the library and including one book present he got from the city hall since he has passed 9 months old, Alhamdulillah :)

Ihsan mandi sungai.

Ihsan reading Alif Ba Ta.

Ihsan is now 70 cm tall and his weight is starting to increase again after being stagnant and even decrease a bit since the past 2 months. So he is now about 8.1 kg. The funny thing is... I can see that his weight mostly go straight to his tummy. His tummy growing big very fast compared to other part of the body. Now I have a 'buncit' baby in the house hihihi :D
Ihsan's appetite is getting better. Nowadays he always interested with foods and eats regularly. He likes to try on new foods and not being so fussy anymore. Since the past 1 month his appetite is slowly back to normal, Alhamdulillah.
He has 5th teeth coming out from the bud. So I can see him chewing on his finger sometimes.
I still feed him with blended food during heavy meals because obviously he still doesn't has many teeth yet to help him chewing. Plus, it helps making feeding time shorter. But I do give him finger foods in between meals for him to nibble.
Ihsan is becoming more spoilt from day to day. He really loves to be pampered. When things doesn't go according to his way he will nag, get angry, scream or cry very loud. If I don't coax him fast, he will sulk and it takes long and hard time to sooth him.
Nowadays he is mastering the art of throwing tantrum!
He still prefers Mama than Papa. I'm like his 'bantal busuk' and he is addicted to me. He loves 'wrestling' on me, bite me, hanging on my back, pulling and eating my hair, rolling on me, hitting me, snuggling and nuzzling me and so on.
I can't be gone for long time or else he will start making fuss. So although not all the time but usually I will cuddle, hug, kiss and rub him first before leaving him. So that he will have his secure meter lasts long enough until I get back to him.
He is like my 'shadow' because he follows me wherever I go although not constantly.
He can't see me sit peacefully because he will keep coming to me for attention or at least I have to join by just sitting next beside him.
Ihsan now can stand by himself although he is yet to make his first move.
He loves if I bring him for a walk outside the house. He insists me to put him down and walk him (tatih).
He was down with cold last 2 weeks and we had 3 consecutive restless nights. Papa brought him to the clinic on the weekend. It was his first outing with Papa alone and they survived it :D Due to the cold, he also got mild diarrhea and painful nappy rash. But Alhamdulillah it all fully healed after a week :)
We brought him to see his first hanabi when there was matsuri held in this village last 2 weeks. He wore jinbei on that night :D
Last week we brought him for a real dip in the river. He loves it although most of the times he seemed silent all the times obviously because the water was cold! :P
He loves book so much that a book can make him occupied quite longer than on his toys and I enjoy reading for him.
Nowadays I no longer back-carrying him while cooking obviously because he is getting heavier and he also refuses to sit in the carrier. So I let him roam freely from the living hall to the kitchen while I cook. But not all the time considering for his safety and the type of job I'm doing in the kitchen. If he is in the hall, I will ensure he sits on the couch so that I can see him from the kitchen and I will keep checking on him constantly.
Nowadays he likes to push the stove starter buttons. So I have to always remember to lock the stove button for safety. He also enjoys using the mouse scroll, and hitting the left and right click button with his fingers. The latest, he likes to play with the fan button.
The first thing he does in the morning right after opening his eyes, if not my hair, he will turn to the traditional Japanese paper window and play with it. Now there are already 2 big holes on the paper window. I can see that I no longer bother anymore. Xlarat! :P
He likes playing with mirror obviously because there's his image on the other side ;P
He shakes his head especially when there's things he doesn't like.
His long time habit is still there that is picking on small and fine thread-like things lying on the floor and eat them especially hair! He also bites on the couch cover that is a little bit fury.

That's I could think of right now. Next month is gonna be update on his very 1st birthday, InsyaAllah. Owh my baby is not gonna be so baby anymore! YIKES!

Families

2010-07-26T00:33:00.001+09:00

If you noticed, I extremely rarely mention anything related to our families. In fact I don't really share personal stuffs in blog. Although there might be a few at every here and there. To some it might be nothing but I don't know I don't feel comfortable being so open. I don't like the idea the whole world knows every single thing that's happening in my life. Owh now I sound like I shouldn't have a blog at all at the first place! This also explain why before this I feel uncomfortable to put our pictures in the blog. Nowadays I still feel the same about that every once in a while although not that much. Anyway, I think I really put my blog's title to good use. So if you think you already know so much about me just by reading my blog, you are just so wrong. There's only bit and pieces of my life shared in here. So, you only know some 'Little Secret' from me, remember that! :)

Now... back to my title. I suddenly feel like writing this because the other day, July 14th, 2010 was my little brother's birthday. He turned 15. I didn't call home to wish him since he was at the hostel anyway. But I told my mom to wish him 'Happy Birthday' for me and I hope my mom didn't forget that. She went to send a birthday cake to him during the weekend visit. Very manja one this little brother. He's my baby brother but he's already grown up as a tall and slim young teenager with pimples on his face yet quite a good looking one :D I suddenly felt that I missed him. Not that I didn't miss him before this but on that particular day I felt quite different. Well, it was his birthday so obviously I kept thinking about him more on that day than any other day. Might be because I suddenly realized that he's really getting bigger. Much bigger than long time before.

I still remember when I officially following hubby to live with him in here, the families were at the airport sending us including my little brother. He was in standard 5 at that time and he looked so different from he is now. Of course la kan duh!~~~ :P Back then he was a little shorter than me, with short hair, very chubby with round face just like a teddy bear. Then I only went back to Malaysia again after 2 years and I was so shocked in disbelief that he looked totally different from before. Not that I didn't expect it but might be I didn't use to see him like that. The thought that struck my mind when I first laid eyes on him again was, "Mana A.D yg dulu tu?". I kept repeating the question to myself. Only after a few days I could accept the fact that my little brother wasn't so little anymore. Honestly I felt so sad and I really missed the childish him yg busuk2, masam2, bulat2 and comot2 tu. Only then I realized the time I lost with him. I nearly cried when I told my mom about how my brother looked so different than the last time I saw him.

Well... that's life. And it has to go on. Same things goes to other member of the families. They changed and many things have taken places in their lives. And I lost the time with them too. Although I realized that's very normal especially that I have my own family now but I do miss them and how I wish I could be there to share more of the memories in the making in their lives. I wished I could be in the picture too. Well... what's important is I learned to cherish more the time I have with the people I love especially families. I miss and love all of them and they are always in my prayers. Perhaps I will be seeing them soon and we will be reunited again as one complete big families, InsyaAllah :)

Still... I don't think I'm gonna write more about families after this. Not that I don't care, think and love them. In fact they are always in my mind and prayers all the times. But I think that's just not me. So, I will stay to keep about them to myself. I pray that may our beloved ones at home are always healthy, happy, successful and may Allah will always makes ease in whatever they are doing and shower them with His blessings and guidance from being astray, Amin :)

Fried Tuna Sandwich

2010-07-20T21:02:00.007+09:00

Dah lama xshare recipes kt sini kan? Bukan apa... xtau la why I memang pemalas tahap gaban bab nak salin2 recipe masuk blog ni. Rasa macam buat homework plak hihi :P Amik foods pics pun dah jarang sangat2 sebab everyday sibuk dok amik pics Ihsan je.

Anyway there are 2 recipes I want to share today. The first one is Fried Tuna Sandwich. Actually it doesn't have a specific name so I made that myself. Furthermore I think that's the most suitable name which best portrays the food itself. This food is originated from MIL's kitchen hihi :D I could say so because I never found it anywhere else before that. I had lived with the in law quite some times so I managed to learn cooking some foods including this one. I always helped MIL preparing this sandwich especially for breakfast. But it's also suitable for tea, brunch and picnic. By the way, you can alter the recipe according to your taste. I like mine with thick tuna filling. Sometimes I add in some chopped onion. I usually eat the sandwich with Maggi chilli sauce. There were a few times I ate the sandwich with Ayam Brand Chillie Tuna and such. But I love the simple one the most as in the recipe below. So remember, the key here is prepare the filling as you like so that it will turn out delicious for you. This is a pretty simple recipe and you really should try some time.

Fried Tuna Sandwich

Ni baru buat Sabtu lepas semata2 nak ambik gambar and put it in the blog hihi :P Sorry la xnampak tempting langsung pun. Masak cepat2 sebab masing2 dah lapar aummm! But don't underestimate its' taste hihi :P

Ingredients:
10 Sliced white bread
2 Tuna flakes/chunks in oil in cans
Mayonnaise
White pepper
Margarine
3 Eggs
Salt

Methods:

Prepare sliced breads and cover only 1 side of the breads with margarine.
Separate the tuna from the oil in the sink and put the tuna into a bowl. You can also skip this but your tuna filling mixed will be a bit runny.
Put in some mayonnaise, white pepper and salt to taste. Mix them until combined.
In another bowl, put in egg and stir with a bit of salt.
Take the sliced bread and spread the tuna on the side covered with margarine. Pair it with another bread. Then cut the sandwich into 4 equal pieces.
Heat the pan and put in 2 tablespoons of margarine.
When the pan is ready, dip the sandwich in the stirred eggs just until covered and instantly fry it in the pan.
Fry on medium fire and keep turning the sandwich so that all side is fried.
Prepare more stirred eggs if not enough and always scoop in the margarine into the pan when the pan is dry.

Now the second one is the recipe that I used for hubby's birthday cake. I followed the Fruit Roll Cake recipe by Kak Yani from My Resipi and made a bit alteration on it. I used roll cake recipe instead of sponge cake because 'm satisfied with the taste and the outcome of this recipe. So here's the original recipe I copied from the website for future reference and some note on alterations I made on the recipe at below.

Fruit Roll Cake

Ingredients:
4 Biji telur
60g Gula halus
3 Sudu besar plain yogurt
60g Tepung gandum
10g Corn starch
Esen vanila secukupnya
*200ml Fresh cream
*15g Gula aising
*Vanila esen secukupnya
*Buah-buahan secukupnya

Methods:

Heat the oven at 170 degree C. Panaskan oven ke 170C. Alaskan dulang dengan kertas minyak. Sediakan meringue - pukul telur putih dan gula sehingga kembang.
Dalam mangkuk lain, pukul telur kuning, esen vanila dan yogurt sehingga sebati.
Masukkan adunan no.2 ke dalam meringue. Pukul dengan perlahan-lahan.
Masukkan pula tepung gandum dan corn starch yang telah diayak. Kacau perlahan-lahan dengan spatula.
Tuangkan ke dalam dulang. Ratakan adunan tadi. Bakar selama 12 minit
Keluarkan dari oven dan sejukkan.
Masukkan fresh cream, gula aising dan esen vanila. Pukul sehingga jadi krim yang keras. Simpan dalam peti sejuk sebelum di gunakan.
Bila kek sudah sejuk, sapukan krim tadi dan letaklah buah. Kemudian gulung.
Balutkan kek dengan cling film. Simpan dalam peti sejuk lebih kurang 1-2 jam sebelum dipotong.

Note: I added in 2 tablespoons cocoa powder and cut out the same amount of tepung gandum in order to make the chocolate cake. Then as for the whipped cream, when the cream is about to form, I put in 4 tablespoons of cocoa powder mixed with 4 tablespoons of water and continue beating using mixer on high speed until done. I got a pale chocolate colored whipped cream. I made it th-is way because I don't have brown coloring. Also, to make a good meringue for the cake, you can refer here to read how. This is important in order to ensure that your cake will spring as it should.

Of Birth & Death

2010-07-19T14:18:00.007+09:00

I'm sure many of you have read the latest news regarding the couple whom just blessed with a set of quadruplet after 7 years of waiting. The babies are all identical girls. This is rare. But the faithful and patience of the couple somewhat has been paid off. May the parents will be able to nurture their quadruplet to grow up as solehah and successful persons despite whatever challenges they might be facing, InsyaAllah. Perhaps others who have yet to be blessed with a child will take this as an inspiration to keep making efforts, praying to Allah and lastly leave it to Allah because He knows what's best for you. Maybe Allah has stored a better future with full of surprises for you, InsyaAllah. So never give up to keep trying. I pun berangan nk dpt kembar. Memang lah cabarannyer lagi berganda2 nak jaga anak2 tu tp yg penting xyah bersalin byk2 kali haha! Uish teringat sakit bersalin sebelum2 ni adoi... :P

Anyway... that's not what I really meant to talk about. But upon reading the news on Berita Harian website, I scrolled down then to read the comments left by the readers. No doubt of course the page was already swarmed with mostly happy and well wishes for the couple. However, my eyes caught 2 comments that I thought sounded like sour grapes. One reader mentioned at the end of her comment with '...besar perbelanjaan dan tanggungjawab anda berdua...' while another one started her comment with '...tahniah dan takziah dicucapkan... bla bla bla... takziah diucapkan kerana bakal memikul tanggungjawab yang besar...'. After reading both comments my reaction was like, WTH?! What's wrong with these people?!

I'm sure the parents both are very well aware of their obligations towards their children. Of course it's not easy to bring up even 1 child and what more getting 4 newborns all at the same time! Although in the Quran Allah has already mentioned children and wealth are trials from Allah. But that doesn't mean they (read: children - as what I want to highlight in here) are some kind of burden. It's up to us on how well we are able to deal with the trial bestowed to us or by other words how well we are able to carry out our responsibilities towards the children. And if we are wise enough, the children will come and feel as blessing that makes us happy!

I wonder what's the particular 2 commentators have in their mind exactly. Maybe this is nothing to some and might be the commentators themselves didn't mean to be sour grapes. But couldn't they make their wishes sound sweeter like '...semoga Allah mengurniakan rezeki melimpah ruah dan diberi kemampuan untuk membesarkan anak2...' and '...semoga Allah sentiasa memberi kekuatan kepada anda untuk menggalas dan menunaikan tanggungjawab yang besar...' so and and so forth. There a dozens other ways for you to sound more positive instead of leaving sarcastic comments.

Allah knows what the couple are capable of and that's why they are qualified to be blessed with such gift. Owh well... no wonder the commentators don't get to be blessed with quadruplets because they already seemed to look at it as a burden and obviously they are far from being qualified to receive such blessing. Am I right? Itulah orang kiter ni kalau orang ditimpa musibah pun ada yang nak menambahkan lagi kedukaan for example cakap, '...itulah banyak dosa kan Tuhan dah bagi balasan...'. Bila orang dikurniakan rezeki lebih ada pulak yang cakap ayat xboleh blah bunyi macam dengki je macam kat atas tu lah. Yelah mungkin diorg xbermaksud begitu. Tapi biasa2 kan lah diri pikir positive and wish yang baik2 je dekat orang xboleh ke?

Now... on a totally the opposite matter. I just got to know that one of the blog owner that I have been reading, Onebreastbouncing, has just passed away. Innalillah. Semoga Allah menempatkan dia dikalangan orang2 beriman. The writer had breast cancer since a few years ago. But lately until recently her condition was worsening despises of on-going treatments received. I have been reading her blog only once in a while but I felt something when I noticed she hadn't updated her blog since a few weeks ago. Deep down I prayed to Allah that hopefully at least things would be made easy for her and Allah would lessen her burden. But now she is already gone. Although I don't know her personally however it still feels awkward to digest the fact that the other day she still lived but now she is back to The Creator. Upon reading the latest news of her, it came to my mind I have yet to know when my turn is coming... where and how. Am I ready?

Anyway... may Allah blesses her soul and may the dearest people she left behind will always be strong to go on life. Al-Fatihah to her.

Papa's 27th Birthday

2010-07-15T01:48:00.011+09:00

I owe this special entry to my loyal blog stalker. I'm sure he must be grinning ear to ear while reading this. Yes Yang... sila lah baca senyap2 lagi ye ;P On Friday, July 9th, 2010 hubby turned 27 years old. So on the day before that I managed to bake a birthday cake for him. It was an ordinary chocolate sponge cake layered with peach in syrup and covered by chocolate whipped cream. I kept remembering that he likes cheesecake and cake that covered by cream or topping. I was quite sure which recipe to follow for the cake and the cream frosting except for the decoration on the cake. There were so many beautiful example that caught my eyes but due to lack of ingredients and obviously skill, so I thought I dare not to ruin the cake instead. So despite of numerous reference on the internet beforehand finally that was the best cake I could come out with on that day. But at least now I know how to make rosette using correct technique although the rosettes I made as in the picture are far behind from perfect :P

Hubby's 27th Birthday Cake :)

Papa is cutting the cake while the son is still digesting what is going on. Rasanya dia baru bgn tdo. Xingat plak. That's why mcm blur je tu.

Inside of the cake.

Actually it is the recipe for Fruit Roll Cake but I altered the recipe a bit to make the cake as above. I chose this recipe because it's actually tastes just nice and contained only a small amount of sugar. So it's suitable for hubby who is on diet. By the way, hubby was on leave on his birthday because he needed to go to renew his license. He went out early in the morning and only to come home at about 7.00 pm. It took long time because he needed to attend a 2 hours class plus the place is quite far from home in another city. At first I thought of making a small celebration for him by preparing some special dinner. But he supposed to go for barbecue with his department's colleagues on that night. So after wishing him 'Happy birthday' on the night before, I helped him to cut and marinate some chicken and beef. But turned out he didn't go for the barbecue because he reached home quite late and it was raining heavily anyway at that time. Actually he was already reluctant to go since earlier but since his colleagues insisted so that's why he thought of going. If only I knew, I would have preceded with my own plan hihi :)

So we cut the cake only after he came home and after eating some of the cake he went for barbecuing with the trainees at the house behind instead. So I didn't cook on that day because hubby sent some chickens and beef for me. Furthermore we got plenty leftovers in the fridge so I thought we better finished up whatever we had first. I plan to make something nice tomorrow because it's gonna be Friday and he's not working on this Saturday. I plan to make some chicken chop. It's my first time anyway and I really wish it's gonna turn nice :) You see, I haven't made the chicken chop yet but gonna published this later so that I can put the chicken chop picture in here :D

My first attempt making chicken chop. Resepi main hentam :D

This year's birthday although very simple but felt totally different for me. I didn't know what's hubby might have in his mind. But I felt so happy and bliss seeing him celebrating his birthday with our beloved baby, Ihsan in the picture and especially the part when he cut the cake while holding Ihsan was extremely priceless :) His 26th's birthday last year was a happy one indeed. But I kept remembering his 25th birthday on 2 years ago which felt very somber to me. I don't know about him but his expression somehow did tell the same. Just in case you didn't get the idea... it was 2 months after I gave birth to our late first child, 'Abid. So of course his 25th birthday held in a totally different environment not as how I had imagined and wished long before that.

Anyway Yang... although I'd wished you earlier but now I want to wish you again Happy 27th Birthday! You're old! :P But I wish to celebrate more of your birthdays in years to come. Perhaps someday we could witness 100 candles on your birthday cake the same number as your actual age, InsyaAllah. Who knows right? :) I wish you for longevity so that you will be able to give more to the unfortunate, constant good health so that you will be able to pray more to Allah and perform more good deeds, better faith and taqwa, be a great son, brother, husband and father whom will be an inspiration to your own children. I wish you happiness, success and all your dreams would come true. May you are always under Allah's guidance and blessing, Amin. We love you much. And please or should I say must (ugut ni! berani lah kalau tak, kan?) loves us extra much in return hihihi :D

PS - Btw this entry was done on last Thursday, July 15th, 2010. I xletak recipes for the cake and chicken chop but if anyone nk bgtau later I bagi.

Ihsan's 10 Months Milestones

2010-07-15T00:12:00.007+09:00

On June 21st, 2010 Ihsan turned 10 months young. As of that day his weight was 7.9 kg and although I think after 3 weeks the number hasn't changed much due to his activeness. Whereas for height, he was 69.0 cm tallllllll. Anyway, I really hope he's getting tallller fast. I keep believing that there's talllllll gene hidden somewhere in him haha :D So far until today I've witnessed every single thing that my baby has been able to achieve. There are so many of them that sometimes I missed to notice tiny little surprises my baby had presented me. Now I'm gonna list down my baby's progress as of until about 3 weeks back. Yelah by next week Ihsan dah nk masuk 11 months young dah pun :D

Ihsan can:

Cruise very well from one place to another and crawl in between when there's no furniture to hold on to.
Stand without support momentarily but have yet to make his first step.
Babble a lot.
Squat.
Climb up to higher place and get down by himself wellllllllllllllllll.
Draw my hand to his mouth or cheek when I say 'Salam' and make the particular sound of kissing like 'Mmmuahhh'.
He understands a few words like 'Come here', 'Let's go', 'Don't', 'Dame', 'Matte', 'Amboi', 'Biasa dia tu' and a few others.
Have yet to wave his hand when I say 'Bye-bye' although he kinda gets the idea what does it means despite of numerous teaching since a few months ago. Same thing goes to 'Clap your hands' and when I sing 'Cak cekur genggam gamit'. He refuses to do them by himself and just stay stillll waiting for me to do them together for him by holding his hands.

Ihsan likes:

To pick paper, tissue, plastic, smalllllll things and strand-like thing like hair and eat them.
Pulllllllll Mama's and Papa's hair and eat them.
To rollllllll in bed.
To rollll on our bodies.
To bite our shirts and our arms.
To bite any kind of labelll.
To step on, hit or throw his toys away.
To play with himself in front of the mirror.
To grind his teeth.
To get excited when we make the sound 'Eeeee eeeee' or he will do the sound himself when he's excited
Vacuum cleaner.
Wire.
To read book.
Red color.
Not forgetting the PC :P
Commercial nestum. He can eat a lot without much hassle.
To be picky on homemade foods.
Junk foods. He willll cry when I refuse to give him some. I need to hide from him whenever I eat them.

Ihsan dislikes:

When Mama says 'Bye-bye' and hide under the blanket when he refuses to sleep. He will come nearer and starts rolllling over on me and cry then if I stillll refuse to come out.
Playing hide and seek when I hide myself in a lllong time or he doesn't get to be able to see me.
When Mama is gone for a long time. When he can't find me anywhere he will start to cry and say 'Emm maa' continuously.
When we don't give attention to him and he will start to make fuss.

Welllllllll I think that's all I could think of right now. I end this entry wiith a few pictures of him during his Month 10 :)

It was so hilarious at this time. He was so engrossed with the pegs that we enjoyed making him looking like this :P

See his mouth? He just had some prune.

Sleeping on Papa :)

His first time going to river.

'Praying' with Mama.

Behaving in his car seat.

One of the many sessions bullllying him haha :P

Mama pos jela balik Mesia hihi :P

My Baby's Top Obsession

2010-07-14T00:46:00.015+09:00

In about a week Ihsan is gonna enter 11 months old dah pun hihi :P But I have yet to update on his 10 month young milestones. A bit late this time. I'll try to update soon. I've been procrastinating because I feel so lllazy to blllog. I think it's due to the gloomy weather. It has been raining constantly lately. The grey and cool atmosphere made the situation somehow so comfortable to laze myself. Although actualllly I haven't gotten the chance to do that especially when there's an active baby cum toddler in the house. Furthermore nowadays pantang la Mama goes near to the PC, Ihsan will surely follow from behind and he's very fast! I can say it's already chronic hihi :P Among of the list of things he's obsesses about, the PC and it's gang is on top of the list nowadays. He's really attracted to the PC and everything around it. Kalau Ihsan kecik2 dulu boleh la Mama update blog while breastfeeding him or putting him to sleep. Tp skrg ni xde makna nyer!

Amboi2 xsedar Mama kt belakang :P

And now I just discovered there's something wrong with the L key. It's either the alphabet doesn't come out at allll or it will come out repeatedly. You might have noticed it already I guess. It's quite annoying. Now I need to keep correcting the spelling. Everyday pantang terlepas pandang je he willll surely clllimb up this PC table. This table is very low, the usual table usually found in every Japanese house. Once he's on the table, Ihsan likes to hit or keep pressing the keyboard with his palms and sometimes even sit on the keyboard. So this is hasil kerja anak kesayangan Abdul Latif. Hubby hasn't realized about this until just now and he was bengkek je that he said, "Eee nyampah la..." while testing on the key haha :P I have said before xlama lagi arwah la kot ni. But somehow I really hope not! So keyboard, please hang in there! :D

Gotcha! ;P

We couldn't reallllllly do anything about this. Welllllllll... I'm sure actually we could... but it's quite a hassle. We should have turned the house more baby-proofed. But we couldn't change all for exampe this PC table and everything related to it. There are many factors that caused the PC clan is stillll here in the same way. If we change this we have to change this, this, this and this also. And if we change that, we have to change that, that, that and that too. Not forgetting every possible new problem that might arise from the change made. Every single thing relates to other thing. Moreover since we are going back for good soon, so we thought we should just make use of what we already have.

Buat muka xbersalah.

That's why it always ended up by Ihsan being scolllded after numerous times of warnings especially by Mama. Because Mama is the one who most of the times stays at home with Ihsan. Actually it's not at alllllllll Ihsan's faulllt. It's a common thing for a baby his age being super curious about everything around him. It's just a phase. Somehow honestly I feel glad witnessing him being active, normalll, healthy and getting cleverer each day! :D Yet... sorry la Ihsan... Mama and Papa couldn't provide a better environment for you to freely explore without limit. This is all we could give.

Very concentrate! Mcm paham je. Yes peep. Sit on your keyboard like this for better performance :P

Sometimes I couldn't helllp thinking if only we are living in big house. I could provide special room for Ihsan to play, a separate room for the PC and Mama's and Papa's stuffs and etc. But as long as we are living in Japanese house yg sekangkang kera ni there willll aways be many things restricted. Ni yg buat kadang2 rasa xsabar nk balik for good hihi :D Xpela nnt baik Mesia boleh a buat mcm tu. In the meantime Mama and Papa wil always have to be very patient, especialllly Mama because she is the one who needs to get Ihsan down the PC table like 10 times in every hour :P That's why at the end of the day sometimes I feel myselllf turning into banshee hiiiiihiiiiihiiiii! Haa that's the sound of banshee mengilai haha :P

Mmg xboleh tgk org senang. Sian Papa hihi :P

Anyway I realllly hope Ihsan willll grow out the habit very soon before more damages done! Not only I feel tired of having to need to bring him down the PC table constantly tapi penat berkuntau dgn dia dpn PC ni and Mama's hair also alllllways becomes the victim. Besides biting my shirt he would also pullllllling and eating my hair constantly just to worsen my hair fallll problem. Makin nipis dah rambut ni tsk tsk! Wokey lah xlarat dah nk bersilat. Mencabar betul selagi I don't hit the publish button :P

What A Day!

2010-07-04T23:12:00.004+09:00

Finally I have my own sweet time although it's already nearly midnight. Today was quite rough. Well... actually it was more because of I'm feeling quite emotionally and mentally tired resulting me snapping at every little thing. Today we woke up rather early at about 5.30 am since hubby was going for a trip to Nagoya with the trainees. Even Ihsan also already woke up at that time. We continued to sleep after hubby left. At about 8.00 am Ihsan was already woke up and he kept going around the room and constantly coming to me and nagging to me to wake up. He kept rolling over on me, patting me, pulling my hair, biting me, burying his face on my pillow and so on. But I dreaded to wake up just yet and continue to shut my eyes. I managed to doze off although not that peacefully with the hope that Ihsan eventually would want to get back to sleep again later.

Then at about 9.30 am I realized that he came to me asking for milk. So I pulled him towards my side. Just when I thought he finally would want to join me, my hand touched something wet and cold on my pillow. I turned my head and I thought what the heck is that yellow thing on my pillow??? I instantly thought Ihsan vomited in bed but I thought something wasn't right with the vomit. Then only I realized it was Ihsan's poop! I immediately sit up and saw poop on Ihsan's back and some traces of the pie at here and there in the bed. I felt like crying there and then! Of all days why must it happened when hubby wasn't around?! I was not in the mood remember? I went into bed very late on the night before and today when it was still morning my day had already been spoiled. I felt hopeless! Yet I knew somehow I should settle the little fella, myself, the poop and everything in the bed. Urghhh! I braced myself!

So I brought Ihsan to the bathroom. We took bath. Then I took off all the covers in bed and got them clean. The tough part of course to drag the heavy mattress into the bathroom. I only cleaned up the part that got dirty. Finally I hanged everything outside to dry. Of all the days, luckily today was quite sunny. Indeed, I still had Allah's mercy. Alhamdulillah. Actually Ihsan didn't poop that much pun. But since he couldn't stay put, his diaper londeh sikit. I noticed that he might has slipped at the edge of the bed so that's why his poop spilled out at the back.

I felt vulnerable and irritated today. I'm not sure what's the cause that made me feeling that way but I do realized the cause that triggered me to being unhappy. It's actually nothing pun. But biasalah. No need to tell the details here karang ada yg cakap laa itu je ke? :P Eh suka hati aku lah! Eh tetiba :P Despite of already being moody, I had hard time feeding on Ihsan. Actually again it's nothing pun but the mood somehow made my patience also running low too. Susah betul nk bg dia mkn. If I secured him on his chair he would struggle and don't want to eat at all. So I let him go free. But he couldn't stay put in one place and it was so annoying having had to follow him and at the same time cajole him to open his mouth urghhh!

To add more, the whole day he kept climbing the PC table and seriously I already lost count of how many times I needed to take him down in order to save the PC from being damaged. I blocked the table and etc with stuffs but he still tried to climb on them. If xdpt meja PC he climbed on other things plak. Penat! Honestly there was slight thought deep in me hoping him to fall down hard. Gee, nauzubillah! Of course I didn't wish that to happen though. Kena beli laptop much sooner la agaknya kot? Other than that, today he bit me twice on my arms. Sakit! :( Then during in the kitchen he was so determined to terkam on kain lap kaki under the sink which is obviously terribly dirty. God knows what's on the kain lah kan. He played with the segregated sampah and tried to eat them. He played with onions and ate the skin that I needed to stop doing the dishes and dug his mouth. Nasi xnk mkn tp benda tah apa2 suka plak dia nk mkn. Xpaham betul!

Rasa nk picit tk tgk muka ni? Sometimes I intentionally make him cry because I feel so geram with him hihi :P

At the end of the day I already felt emotionally drained out. Especially after constantly yelling at Ihsan and having had to do and say the same thing on him. I hit Ihsan's legs and arms and bit him too. Tapi dia gelak je ahaha! Kalau nangis pun sket je. Mama plak yg rasa nk nangis tgk kamu! Yelahkan Mama buat xsakit pun. But do you know Ihsan, Mama geram sgt2 dgn Ihsan! Fortunately we did sleep together during the afternoon so at least I could give my soul some rest. Hubby got home at about 8.00 pm. He bought me a nice pink watch. No, it's not an expensive one pun. He bought 2 watches for himself and 1 for me. Each harga 1000 Yen je hihi ;) But since I was not in good mood my reaction didn't do fair to his kind thought towards me. Sorry Yang. But I like the watch, though. Thanks ye. I love you, mmmuahhh! :)

Yesterday was raining for the whole day. Xbest betul weekend ni sbb mood xokay. By the way, honestly Ihsan had been the victim to my moodiness today hihi :P Siannn baby Mama. But gladly I didn't go with my emotion that might lead me to do something I would regret. You know Yang, I couldn't really say what was actually went wrong. But my life is very mundane. And the norm could be killing you know. So when things don't go according how I wished them to be, I will easily feel sad and depressed. Sometimes I wished if only there would be a day just for myself without having to worry at all about anyone else except about myself and doing whatever I wished to do. Yeah, keep on dreaming. Nite-nite!

PS- Is watching National Geographic on the TV at the same time. It's showing about monkey. Just now there's a sick baby monkey slowly dying because of disease. So heart-wrenching looking at him! When he already died the mom still picked him up and carried him around. How loving is that and how sadddddddddd!!!!! Yet there's people dumping babies everywhere like garbage. How evil is that?????!!!!! Ihsan Mama loves you so much! (Although you always drives me nuts).

Ihsan's 10 Months Check Up

2010-07-01T21:47:00.015+09:00

On Monday, June 21st, 2010 Ihsan turned 10 months young and on Wednesday, June 30th, 2010 we attended Ihsan's 9 to 10 months check up at the city hall. So hubby was on leave that day. The check up was held in the morning and we were the second last to arrive. Honestly I kinda really looking forward for this check up because I was excited to see Ihsan's reaction being among other babies. I thought it was quite interesting la jugak since baby masing2 dh besar2 n active. Jadi most of the times during the check up session I realized all the mothers didn't really concentrate listening to the explanations. Because masing2 busy monitoring and being fascinated dgn gelagat each baby. Including us! hihi :P Kesian plak tgk officers tu mcm ckp sorg2 je hihi :P The check up session as usual started with bacaan buku cerita, explanation pasal perkembangan otak baby, explanation pasal pemakanan baby, eating session and lastly consultation ikut giliran. We were the last to leave since we were among the last to arrive plus ada byk sgt queries berkaitan dgn Ihsan punya coming check ups and immunization schedule.

Throughout the session the officers scattered toys in the middle of the hall so babies masing2 pn apa lagi busy dok mengutip toys la. Ada babies yg sgt friendly habis dia pusing and tegur semua org. Ada yg buat hal sendiri. Ada jugak yg moody. Si Ihsan dia buat hal sendiri. Xde plak dia nk tegur2 other babies. Even ada je babies lain yg tegur2 and pgg2 dia. Dia tepis tgn diorg ada la. Eceh jual mahal ke? :P Ada one time tu, sorg baby girl duduk parking betul2 membelakangkan Ihsan. Dh la dgn muka ayu and rambut toncet kt atas. Pastu kt blakang rambut kembang mengurai plak. I ckp kt hubby mcm ada chance je Ihsan nk g tarik rambut budak tu. Skali ahaa mmg betul pun! Tp nasib baik I sempat tahan Ihsan drpd tarik. Dia sempat genggam je. If not xpasal2 je anak org tu nangis hihi :P Spjg sesi check up tu Ihsan xde la g jejauh sgt. Dia keje kutip and baling toys. Itu pn toys yg dkt2 and beberapa jns je. Dia ni mmg jns attracted to 1 toy je. So I dok tgk je takut dia campak toys kena kt babies lain. Selain tu dia busy dok aimed anything yg berkaitan dgn kertas. Dia ni mmg mat kertas! Suka renyuk and mkn kertas. So I pn asyik la nk kena control dia drpd menyambar dokumen2 org lain. Dia g jejauh pn sbb nk terkam buku2 and kertas org punya.

I perasan xde pun baby yg dh pandai jln sendiri lagi. Rasanya paling2 pun sama mcm Ihsan la dh meniti or berdiri sendiri or bertatih. Ada jugak yg dh ada byk gigi. Over all kebanyakannya lbh krg sama jela cuma ada sorg je baby mcm delay sket. Dia ni dr dulu sama gang la dgn Ihsan sama2 kecik. Tp xsure la plak why dia sorg je masih meniarap and belum pun melunjur ke depan. So yesterday the officers bg perhatian lebih jugak la kt dia. Maybe dia sbnrnya xde masalah cuma perlukan push or help je kot. If mmg ada problem pun elokla dpt detect awal2. Sian plak tgk mak dia mesti risau and pressured even all the times dia nmpk cool je. Sian jugak tgk baby tu nangis2 masa officers cuba ajar dia utk melunjur. Xpela esok2 boleh la tu. Bila dh pandai terus teradvanced plak ke. Mana la tau kan. Then masa eating session Ihsan mkn sket je. Jenuh nk suap. Anak org lain siap mkn bertambah2 lagi. Sudahnya mcm biasa la Mama la yg kena habiskan. Masa check up tu I perasan jugak kalau compare Ihsan dgn other babies if skali pandang nmpk mcm sama je. Tp kalau tgk betul2 even diorg dh active tp isi lengan and peha diorg gebu betul siap berlipat2 lagi. Si Ihsan ni biasa2 je. Maybe genetic dan pemakanan diorg sama la kot. Ihsan ni Mama xleh nk buat pape la dh mkn pn setakat cukup syarat je hihi :P Xpelah janji Ihsan sihat Mama pun xsusah hati.

Over all Alhamdulillah Ihsan is progressing well as he should. Although kalau tgk graf pembesaran Ihsan tu mcm biasala dr dulu lg dia punya graf tu bhgian bwh. Tp masih dlm range normal. So definitely there's nothing to worry about. After the check up we went to Nishimatsuya shopping baju Ihsan. Sungguh sakan Mama merembat. Ini baru ada baby boy sorg pun dh rambang mata. Kalau shopping utk baby girl lagi lah 2 kali ganda! Tapi bila dh beli baju Ihsan byk2 ni I rasa mcm for next baby pun nk boy jugak :D So that baju2 Ihsan tu boleh guna balik. Mostly semuanya masih elok2 lagi hihi :P Well... mana2 je lah. Lambat lagi pun nk plan for next baby even hati rasa dh xsabar nk bg Ihsan kwn! :P If tgk dlm gambar tu ada jugak beli 2 pistol air. Ni Papa la ni. Kononnya nk bg Ihsan berendam dlm pool. Tp kt Nishimatsuya xde jual pool. Maybe kena carik nnt kt BabiesRUs la kot. Ada jugak beli Anpanman tamborine. Ini pun Papa la yg nk. Sbb nyer during the check up earlier hubby ada tgk sorg baby ni pandai tepuk2 main tamborine. Blk rmh penat la ajar Ihsan. Tp dia jns main ambik brg campak ambik campak haha! :P Yg lain2 tu baju je la... 4 short sleeves t-shirt utk pakai dlm rumah, 2 overalls, 4 shirts for outing and 2 pants for outing. Blk rmh Mama yg hati berbunga2 terkinja2 mcm Mama yg dpt baju baru. *Tq Papa, I love u!* Eh tetiba haha! :P

Hasil rembatan IHSAN! Buktinya tu tgk tgn Ihsan tu xsabar2 nk main. Hihi Ihsan plak yg disalahkan :P

Honestly I xajar la anak I pakai baju branded2. I xkisah ada brand ke xde brand ke. Asalkan cantik di mata and jahitannya kemas dan yg paling penting murah I akan beli. Kalau on sale lagi lah harus I rembat. Xsemestinya murah tu xde kualiti. Haritu balik Mesia ada jugak beli baju Ihsan kt Tesco. Byk je yg elok2 tp kena la pandai pilih. Alhamdulillah kulit Ihsan pun elok je xde plak berkudis semata2 sbb pakai baju cap Tesco. Baju2 tu pun elok je lagi xlusuh and xkoyak pun even dh dipakai berulang2 kali. I xnk ajar anak I high maintenance. Byk lagi perkara yg lebih penting perlu dirisaukan drpd risau2 pakai baju ada brand ke xde brand ke. Xperlu jd brand slave sampai kan nk jejak pasar malam, kedai mamak or pakai baju cap Mydin pun geli-geleman. Cukup lah bersederhana. Kalau dia ada duit byk pun I nk dia tau ada byk lagi cara yg lebih berfaedah utk dihabiskan duit tu. Kalau sesekali tu xpela setakat utk reward diri sendiri ke. Tp tu pun jgnlah sampai membazir. I perasan penyakit brand slave ni sgt berleluasa kt Mesia. I berani ckp sbb I pn bknnya xpenah dok Mesia. Ni nnt nk blk Mesia dh. Tp ni pendapat I la. Org lain lantak korg la I xkisah pun. Eh dh tersasar plak :P Ok lah nnt smbung lagi dgn Ihsan's 10 months milestones. Anak ku dh tgh dok mkn buku sambil nangis2. Kejap2 tarik2 and mkn rambut Mama. Seek for attention la tu. Nk kena g layan dia plak hihi :)

Tag Mrs. Happy

2010-06-22T00:52:00.006+09:00

Setelah sekian lama xjwb tag so hari ni I nk jwb tag. Ikut2 kan I ada melambak hutang tag. Tp mlm hari tu dh kutip balik satu2. Gigih browsed balik entry2 kt blog kwn2. Yg zaman tok kaduk tahun lps punya pun ada hihi. Tp xdela kutip semuanya. Mana yg terjmpa aje lah. Nnt bila2 sangap boleh bayar hutang tag one by one. Tag hari ni is given by Fith, Mrs. Happy. Tp kt gambar tu Mr. Happy hihi.

Adakah anda HAPPY sekarang?
- Generally Alhamdulillah saya happy.

Kenapa anda happy?
- Sbb saya xsuka sedih2. Lagipun xde benda yg buat saya sedih at the moment. Kalau boleh all the times nk happy je.

Apa benda yg boleh membuatkan anda happy?
Uish ada byk ni nk list down satu2 smpi esk pn ahbs ;P I bg 5 jela.

- When things go according my way.
- Org2 yg disayangi semuanya sihat, berkeadaan baik, dimurahkan rezeki dan mereka happy.
- Bila tgk balance duit dlm account hubby ada byk hahaha! ;P
- Bila anak kesayangan I buat perangai cantik manis yg menghiburkan hati.
- Bila dpt g jalan2 or g makan2 yg sedap2 :D

Pernah menerima TAG?
- Banyak kali.

Nyatakan warna yg anda sukai.
- Pastel colors.

Beritahu 9 orang yang akan anda tag. Tuliskan sesuatu tentang orang yang anda tag.
Wah ramai nya sampai 9 org. Nk list down sorg2 ni yg lemah ni. Xtau saper yg dh penah buat or belum. So, I tag sesapa jela yg xbuat lg n rasa nk buat tag ni. Sila2 lah ye ;)