Al-Fatihah To Our Beloved Ahmad 'Abid Qiwaidir Bin Abdul Latif

Honestly I really don't know how and from where to start. Alhamdulillah, I had safely given birth to our first child, 'Abid on Wednesday, May 14th, 2008 at 8.09 a.m in Iida Municipal Hospital, Iida City, Nagano-ken. Alhamdulillah, highest gratitude to Allah too that 'Abid was more than perfect and so beautiful when he was born..... only that Allah has fated that it was enough to borrow 'Abid to us for 38 weeks and 1 day only. As of today, it has been a week since I gave birth to 'Abid and it also has been 5 days since his burial in Yamanashi-ken. Truly, this has been the most difficult time in our lives but no matter how hard it is we keep striving to recuperate ourselves. As weak servants of Allah, sometimes it is hard for us to believe of what had happened and I do confess that I was really devastated upon accepting the reality. Especially when 'Abid and I sailed on a very smooth pregnancy and we both were healthy. Even the doctor couldn't confirm the exact reason why healthy 'Abid was born stillbirth. Only Allah knows best. We were so confused indeed. It is so surreal to us moreover when everything took place just like in the blink of an eye. Nevertheless, deep down in our hearts we already accepted the fate bestowed upon us right away after we received the never expected news. Maybe this is what is best for us and 'Abid. Somehow maybe we should be grateful as we and 'Abid have been the chosen ones to be bestowed by this wonderful blessing by Him. Even if 'Abid is still alive..... someday he will still be taken away from us..... only that we never know how and when. Now 'Abid had already gone..... in the best way a man can think of. What more can we ask? That is what we think of everyday every time we feel like missing 'Abid to the bits.

Although we wished 'Abid as a child as the one who would send us to the cemetery someday, Allah had decided that it was going to be the other way round. It is really hard indeed... but we never thought that Allah wants to present us an angel who will be waiting for us in the hereafter instead. There are so many things that we have learned along the way of what had happened. I pray that this will teach us to be better Muslims with better faith from day to day. There are hikmahs behind of what had happened which we have yet to discover. I pray that someday we will be able to get into jannah..... to meet our beloved 'Abid that we miss during each and every second of our hearts beating. I pray that 'Abid is now placed at the best place in heaven near to Allah. I pray too that 'Abid will always pray for the well-being of us, the parents so that he can manage to get us to be at the same place with him. Even though we never got the chance to shower our love to 'Abid like most parents do, but we feel so grateful that Allah gave chance to us to perform jenazah bathing to 'Abid in the bathroom, to wipe 'Abid after being bathed in the bedroom, to buy the white clothes for kafan at the suppa, to cut the white clothes for kafan in the hall, to arrange the kafan clothes in the hall, to kafan 'Abid in the hall and put jasmine smell perfume on 'Abid..... all by ourselves alone at our home. Also the chance given by Allah for Papa himself to bring jenazah 'Abid on a 2++ hour journey alone to Yamanashi-ken, for Papa to dig 'Abid's grave alone himself, for Papa to lead the jenazah prayer for 'Abid, for Papa to carry and bury 'Abid in 'Abid's grave and for Papa to lead do'as recital for 'Abid at 'Abid's grave. We still can't believe it that we actually really did experience those things. We will never forget such a very magnificent experience Allah and 'Abid had presented us with, Subhanallah! Alhamdulillah, with the help from Allah we manage to perform our responsibilities during our last moments with 'Abid smoothly. Even though there might be flaws at here and there but that were the best that we could do and we pray that Allah will accept our deeds.

Here, I would like to take the chance to express our highest appreciation and gratitude to those who have involved either directly or indirectly along the way during the process of managing jenazah 'Abid from the beginning until the end and for all the words of sympathy and encouragements which always keep us warm in the hearts and help us gain back to ourselves.....

Thanks to the medical teams especially midwives, Tabata-san and Ichikawa-san in Iida Municipal Hospital who had gave their best to help save me safely delivered 'Abid and never stopped giving their concerns and encouragements to me,

Thanks to Farhan, friends and Yusuf-san in Yamanashi-ken who gave their best in helping hubby to manage jenazah prayer and burial for 'Abid form the beginning until the end,

Thanks to Kak Azra and husband in Asakusa for assisting us with all the information of the right way in managing a jenazah,

Thanks to Murni, Kak Sofea and Kak N for all the information given which makes easy for us to find way on managing jenazah 'Abid,

Thanks to dear friends, blogger friends, silent readers and all others for all the wishes of sympathy and encouragements conveyed.

Thank you so much deep from the bottom of our hearts to all of you very wonderful people presented by Allah during our hardest time of lives. Please accept our apology too for all the hassles that we have caused to some of you. Although to some of you we never met yet but we are so touched by the concerns conveyed. All your efforts given might be small to you but you never knew how much those efforts given were really meaningful and brought huge relieve to us, Alhamdulillah. It is more than words can say of how much we really appreciate the kindness of you guys..... I am speechless I must say. Only Allah can repay back all your kindness with the best blessings from Him. Maybe some of the said people don't even know the existence of this blog but I pray for all the best wishes and may Allah blesses all of you with more blessings and guides in life, InsyaAllah. Please help pray too that we both will always be strong, patient, and can gain fast 'recovery' so that we can get back on our knees as soon as possible, InsyaAllah.

'Abid Sayang..... you will always be missed by Mama and Papa forever, Al-Fatihah.

The Tenth Check-Up At Week 36

..........Transferred from My Little Munchkin & I


Ahhh~~~ Now only I manage to rest a bit and blog about the check-up I attended this morning. Today's check-up appointment was set at 11.10 a.m and it all ended at about 1.15 p.m. Right after check-up at the hospital, we headed to a kombini to buy milk and onigiris because I was already starving even though I have already eaten in the morning before going to the hospital. I straightly had lunch by the way at that time. Then we stopped by Cainze Home, a DIY superstore to buy a few stuffs needed to be used while packing our things since we are moving out tomorrow. Just now I have just finished cooking for dinner and tomorrow's morning siap2. Before that, hubby and I have started to pack few things into the boxes and bags. Now hubby is out to get and settle few things and so we are going to continue with the packing tonight since the removing process will be done on tomorrow's morning.

Now back to the check-up. The hospital was quite packed today most probably because of the Golden Week holiday which has started since end of this week until early next week. At the maternity clinic too today only I could see many wives accompanied by their partners. Well, my check-up report for today is back to not so good to be heard. My sugar in urine got very high to '++++'. It was 4 '+s' this time while I managed to get '-' for the last time. My blood pressure reading was back to the normal range today but as usual it didn't go down much from the abnormal high blood pressure line. My weight seems to be a bit funny this time... I checked last night using the home scale and I got 57.5 kg. That means I didn't gain much since the last check-up which was only 57.2 kg. After having dinner at a sushi restaurant I checked my weight again and it shown there on the scale the weight was 57.8 kg. So, I was confirmed that I really actually didn't gain much weight since the past weeks and of course I was happy. However this morning after having my breakfast cum lunch, my weight jumped to 58.8 kg! That was about 1 kg extra than last night and of course I was shocked! Lastly while at the hospital, my weight got down a bit at 58.5 kg. So, that was what written in the report book lah. This time I don't believe the one written in the book because I knew I'm actually a bit lighter than that hihihi! It seems soo logic though because I am having constipation right now so that might be the cause of the sudden extra weight gained. I'm gonna check my weight again right after my visit to the toilet later :D Tak puas hati betul lah huh!

Regarding the baby, well... again the doctor said the baby is quite small. His weight is now about 2.159 kg only. The ideal weight for his age now is supposedly be about 2.700 kg at least. She did double check on every part of the baby to be confirmed. Well, of course the machine isn't that accurate lah kan but then there is really the possibility that my baby is indeed quite small. He is progressing good and in a healthy condition but his weight gain progress is a bit slow by 2 to 3 weeks late. The doctor also checked the baby's leg bone length and it was also a bit small than it should. This time, not the usual doctor did the check-up on me and the check-up also was done at other maternity clinic special for pregnant lady who is about to give birth. The abdominal scan was done for quite a long time than usual and the doctor also seemed quite concentrated scanning and taking notes on the baby. Owh yes, this time memang doctor banyak focus kat muka baby aje. Tapiiiii sebab scan tu bukanlah 4D scan sooo we still didn't get it to understand the image or even see the face clearly. Adoiii geram je rasa hihi! Yela orang excited kan nak tengok muka baby. Takpela... dah tak lama lagi leh jumpa baby, InsyaAllah. So here are the pictures of him. Banyak doctor captured sebab dia asyik gerak2 je sepanjang scan tu so susah nak dapat yang clear sket hihihi ;)

Both are pictures of his face but a bit covered by his hand.

The left picture is his face too but it is not clear because he was moving. The right one is also his face.

As usual right after that we preceded with the consultation session with the midwife. The midwife highlighted on my high sugar level again of course... ahhh bosan~~~. She said, might be there is problem with my bile or kidney that causes the sugar I consumed to be processed quite slow. Thus, this causes crowd in my blood stream and eventually causing my blood pressure tends to go over the limit too. The baby is small might probably because my blood circulation is not so efficient thus causing the baby not to receive enough nutrients he needed or by other words the nutrients don't all get to the baby. She said all these based on her analysis on my previous results pattern lah kan. Even doctors and midwives sebelum ni pun cakap macam tu based on the results pattern. Come to think of it... well I really don't know but it might be true. Tapi they all cakap my condition xperlu dirisaukan sebab might be jugak actually takde pape. Honestly I did consume sugar a bit more than for the previous check-up but I never go over the limit. Makan sket2 je pun. Then only last night I ate a piece of cake at the sushi restaurant. Hubby cakap sebab I was degil nak makan jugak2 cake tu semalam sebab tu gula naik. Pastu curik ais-krim hubby sket n then minum orange soft drink... padahal dia yang bawak balik n tayang2 makan depan orang sapa tak teringin kan??? So you see, even if I eat makanan manis sket je pun my sugar in urine level will definitely shoot up. She also told us that the baby's weight will slightly decrease right after birth...that I already knew... tapi if bila lahir2 je berat memang dah ringan... so macam ada harapan la nak kena tahan lama stay kat hospital. She said, only when the baby's weight passes 2.4 kg baru bleh kuar hospital. Alamak... of course I'm worried sebab sekarang dah minggu 36... mana tau 1 week or 2 weeks lagi ke baby dah nak lahir sempat ke berat dia nak naik kan? I definitely don't want to stay kat hospital lama2 huwaaa! Then... the midwife suggested for me to have my bile or kidney checked right after that because of the earlier said reasons.

So, we waited lah to see another doctor at the usual maternity clinic I visited before this. Punya laa lama tunggu last2 baru sampai turn. Jumpa doctornya 5 minit je tak padan tunggu lama2 ceh! The doctor asked lah whether I wanted to straightly proceed with the check-up or not. Sebab dia kata, sebelum ni my sugar level was '-'. So, boleh jadi jugak sebenarnya takde pape pun. Might be sebab ada makan benda manis2 baru2 sebelum check-up tadi sebab tu sugar level tu tinggi sangat. After discussing with hubby, I decided not to go on with the check-up but just to wait and see first how it is going to be during the next check-up. Andai kata tinggi jugak, baru check. Hmmm... honestly mestilah risau jugak sket kan tapi macam dah malas laa nak amik kisah sangat. Baby pun so far sihat je... itu yang penting... cuma kecik sket. But then again la I will strictly banned all sugar intake terus this time. Orang lain lepak je makan macam2 benda manis hari2 masa pregnant tapi I'm not that lucky lah nampaknya huhu. Padahal asal2 before pregnant pun I'm not really sweet-tooth pun. Maybe badan memang jenis sensitif kot hmmm. Yerrr bohsannya. Better be safe than sorry kan untuk mengelakkan any complication. Then... in order to improve my blood circulation... I will have to take the chance of moving out and in of the houses beneficially lah. Masa ni even though dah sarat sangat I will still try to exercise by mengemas rumah keh keh keh! Might be jugak because sebelum ni asyik duduk aje and tercongok depan komputer aje keje kan sebab tu lah blood circulation tak lancar sebab tak active and darah tersekat kat kaki. I have mentioned about this pun dulu sebenarnya masa check-up bila ntah tapi still keje duduk aje jugak depan komputer :P

Before I forgot, while discussing with the midwife we also asked about the placenta again. She wasn't really confirmed but the way she explained as like it can't be brought back lah. She said sebab law negeri ni kata xbleh tanam2 anggota manusia dalam tanah... it is illegal. Then selalunya diorg akan kumpul banyak2 then bakar. Lepas dah bersoal-jawab punya lah lama pasal benda ni...because we really insisted seboleh2nya nak la bawak balik gak kan hihi... so seboleh2nya hubby tak nak la mengalah... tunggu sampai dia kata TAK BLEH haa baru senyap hahaha!... then the midwife suruh tanya doctor. But then bleh plak we totally forgot to ask about that masa jumpa second doctor tu ceh! Yela dah penat tunggu lama punya pasal. Takpela... next week we will try to ask again. Come to think of it yelah kenapa selama ni kitorg tak tanya doctor terus ke kan senang? Takpe... ada masa lagi. Kalau dapat, Alhamdulillah. If xdapat nak wat camner kan tawakal je la.


Continued on Saturday, May 3rd, 2008


Haahhh I'm so tired and sleepy and hungry too. Not really that tired actually but because of the heavy body, it causes me to slow down with the movements. I don't want to force myself in order to avoid any unwanted injury or complication. We have just settled removing all the big stuffs in the house into the new home. Last night we slept at about 1.00 a.m after packing the things. So just now in the morning at about 7.15 a.m the trainees and Namiki-san came to help removing the stuffs into the new house by using Namiki-san's pick-up lorry. At about 8.00 a.m every thing was already settled. Sekejap je siap! Now cuma tinggal barang kecik2 je nanti angkat sendiri dengan kereta and tinggal nak kemas rumah lama ni. Tak sangkanya last night was our last night sleeping in this house. I'm gonna miss this house surely. But for the baby goodness we have to move out into a bigger home. By the way, the baby excited semacam je since check-up yesterday. Active betul! Tatau la nape suka nak pindah rumah kot? Ke suka g hospital? Padahal dia tatau Mama dia tengah geram dengan dia kenapa berat dia tak naik nih grrr! Hihihi! ;D

I think that's all lah for this entry this time. Owh yes... regarding the GBS infection thing... rupanya takde treatment apa pun semalam. Masa on the labor itself baru kena buat treatment tu. Huh lega... Tak suka la kena2 check banyak sangat sana-sini. Well, I really hope sebenarnya takde pape la and I'm healthy. Malas sangat2 nak go on with the check-up sebenarnya. Will really watch out my sugar intake this week. Lil' Munchkin... Mama xkisah la baby nak kecik ke pun takpe senang sket nak bersalin asalkan sihat wal'afiat, InsyaAllah. Mama takdela pecaya sangat dengan estimated weight doctor cakap tu. Dah nama pun anggaran kan. Tapi kalau boleh biar la lebih 2.7 kg or reach 3.0 kg sebab Mama takmo dok hospital lelamaaa huwaaa! Huhu xsabar nak tunggu check-ups seterusnya! As of today, dah 24 days je lagi towards the EDD! Yay xsabar nak jumpa baby! ;D ;D ;D

When She Looks Like A Teddy Bear

Apparently... the title above has got nothing to do with what I'm going to babble about today. Truly, I can't think of a good title to write so that one still can make do of it because up until this moment since last night I have just realized how much 'gorgeous' my looks have transformed to since the past 9 months hihi :P You got what I mean right? It is just that I hate looking at myself when I wake up from sleep and whenever I'm wearing my in-house attires especially sweater. I look like a pear or balloonfish rather than a teddy bear. I tend to look simply fugly. Every time I look at myself in the mirror I would think of what does hubby has in mind every time he sees me like this? I feel bad of myself but I just ignore it most of the time. Malas lah nak kisah sangat... tak larat lah nak melawa2 bagai. Anyway the good thing is I look kinda cute in a sememeh way, adorable, huggable and sangat sedap, I think ;P Well, hubby said that himself many times and I myself thinks the same too. Orang dah cakap macam tu... kiter iyer kan aje lah. I am 'cute' like a teddy bear hohoho ;P But tatau la if dia tipu only or perli2 je kan. Even if he were just lying pun I don't mind lah since at least he knew that I be like this because of him jugak kan. Berani ler dia cakap tah pape grrrrr hihi ;P

Actually I'm still not in the mood to blog today. I simply lost passion to write in my own blog regarding other things... except anything related to Lil' Munchkin in his blog. So that's why this blog is kinda neglected. I have so many things to tell but every time when I started to write... I only managed to go halfway before suddenly I clicked the 'save now' button and logged out. There are a few drafts in the folder now and just gonna be forgotten soon. Worse, most of the time I would just stare at the blank screen or just clicked the 'delete' button right after I finished the first paragraph. Anyway today I'm kinda force myself to update since I might not be able to go online for a few days. Last night hubby said that we are going to move out this weekend so the internet might not be available for a moment. I hope it's not going to be so long and the longest perhaps for as long as 1 week only. I totally can't live without internet. Who can by the way??? :O Actually, the most important thing are firstly we are in the middle of applying visa to Japan for my mom so we need to update each other between mom and us from time to time. Selagi visa ni tak settle I don't think I can duduk diam and tido nyenyak lah. Secondly, I don't have hand phone... kesiannyaaa bini sapa nih???... so it is going to be a problem for me to call hubby during emergency. Nahhh... really small matters only. I'm sure I can find other ways when I really need to do those 2 things.

Yes, it is confirmed that my mom is coming; InsyaAllah. Her visa application is now on the way to the embassy in KL and we need to wait for like 7-10 days to get the confirmation. She is in Kota Kinabalu you know so she has to use travel agent instead of doing things herself. That's very convenient actually in many aspects and it seems like the travel agent only charged very little for the service provided, cool! Or else it's gonna be sooo leceh and she has to work too. Actually there is J*apan Embassy branch in KK buttt because my mom is originated from Peninsular so she can't do it in KK. What do you guys think? I still pikir benda2 macam ni macam soo ridiculous lah. Menyusahkan je. After all she is Malaysian jugak kan? Owhhh sungguh tak bleh diterima oleh akal ku yang waras nih! Anyway after been contemplating 50-50 the thought of whether to let my mom comes or not, at last we decided for her to come. I just think that I'm afraid I can't be that strong after giving birth. By that, means I won't be able to think rationally and more sucked up into my emotions most of the times. So... that's going to be very bad for hubby, baby and myself. Furthermore, we need things to be very manageable at that time or else many problems will arise. Some more... I really miss family and I can't be sure whether we really will be going back for holiday early next year or not. I can't bear to wait any more longer. Last but not least, I am dreadfully and miserably crave for some foods. So, my mom can help cure my food craving disease if she is here soon. Honestly, I miss foods more than I miss my family. Yes... it is that bad.

During last times... I dealt with the J*apan Embassy 3 times and I did everything myself from A to Z. I went there accompanied by either friend or sister-in-law. Although everything managed to be settled in only 3 days but those particular weeks before going to embassy until the moment I managed to get hold of my passport stamped with valid visa, were the most excruciating moments in my life. Bak kata tido tak lena... mandi tak basah okeh. This is also the reason why I dare not to live far away from each other with hubby anymore. Well... tak la susah mana pun but I really hate doing transaction, dealing with documents, dealing with officers at the counters and that sort kinda things. So stressful! Pernah sekali my visa wasn't approved without any reason. I supposed to get 3 months visa but I only got 15 days padahal my ticket was meant for 1 month stay. When I asked for the reason the officer said something like this, "Susah nak paham. Lain orang lain pikir dalam kepala lain perangai. Ini boss nombor 1 (duta). Takpe nanti I mintak dekat boss nombor 2 (duta lain). Tomorrow you come again". Then only I got my visa valid for 3 month, phew! Kentut ayam betul! Macam la kiter hinginnn sangat nak stay lelama kat N*hon yang buhsan nih :P :P :P Bleh blah! That's why I also don't like going to bank, post office, do payment at the cashier counter and so on. But these are exceptable la jugak kan. Tak suka pun I still do those things occasionally. Kalau tak susah la nak hidup. All in all I just hope semua urusan my mom akan dipermudahkan jalannya, InsyaAllah, Amin!

Hmmm what else to talk about? I'm feeling sleepy at the moment even though it is now already 5.15 p.m. I just can't sleep at night and last night I only dozed off after Subuh. Lately I am soo not energetic in doing everything. Thus making my everyday life seems more dull, duh~~~ I don't experiment recipes especially baking cakes because I have to avoid myself from eating sweet stuffs. I don't really have appetite to eat too especially towards nasi putih berlauk. Because I can't take it to eat my own cookings anymore. I really want to eat some other things but it is either I don't know how to make it or even if I do have the recipe... again back to what I said earlier. If only hubby pandaiii masak kan best? I also don't have mood to read especially books and I have been abandoning my reading materials since last week. Somehow I feel a bit guilty about that because reading is simply very beneficial right? So, I try to replace that by reading via the net but most of the time I tend to only blog hopping from one blog to another keh keh keh! But hey I gained plenty useful information too along the way. So okay lah tu kan? Usually at the end of the days, I would be feeling like don't know what else for me to read or browse. Everything seems not interesting to me. I have read numerously about pregnancy, baby, breastfeeding and so on for already 9 months and now I just feel like I can't force any more input in me or else it is like I'm going to puke! I bet this is also because of this pregnancy thing lah... maybe I'm just tired of everything already... with the waiting... with the preparation... with the on-going fatigue... and so on. Now I'm whining... I'm sure there will be times when I'm going to really wish that the baby can be put back into the tummy once he is born hahaha! ;D Prior to that... let's just enjoy lazying myself within this 1 month left ahhh~~~! ;D

Owh hubby just got back just now and he is already out again to have a look at the house we are going to move in. Betul lah tu jadi kot pindah weekend ni. Err... this reminds me to take pictures and videos of our current house. I'm gonna miss this house lah since this is the first house we are officially starting our lives as husband and wife. Barang2 apa pun tak kemas lagi. Takpe... nak pindahnya sekangkang kera aje. The trainees will be helping too. Berani lah tak tolong... nanti apa2 mintak tolong hubby jugak kan hoho :P So this weekend I'm going to toss all the small2 things into plastic bags, paper bags, boxes or baskets then starts arranging them back in the new house later. Sempoi je kan? Kotak hapa ke mende pun xde lagi nak pack barang. It's okay lah since our stuffs tak banyak pun. But then I have to monitor on how, which stuffs for them to carry and where to put lah if not pening kepala jugak nanti nak susun balik kalau diorg mixed-up everything. Obviously at the end of the day I am the one who is going to arrange everything back to order lah kan sebab I am the manager of the house. So yang kecik2 tu sure lah haku kemas sendiri... kalau tak... rimas nanti sakit mata tengok kalau tak menepati citarasa! By the way honestly I'm really looking forward sebenarnya with this activity berpindah-randah ni. Reason being? Because I want to exercise and do more movements... even though I know mengemas rumah di saat sarat bukanlah safe and efficient exercise pun sebenarnya hohoho :P But don't worry... I will always remember my limit and try to be safe all the time. I hope by doing extra movements ni like...berjalan2 di dalam rumah aje... insyaAllah senang nak bersalin, Amin :D

Actually... I want to to tell something here. Usually during the times when my blog seems to be silent is most of the times probably because of hubby and I were having fights :P The latest, semalam baru je baik itu pun I gave in even though sepatutnya diaaa yang kena made move dulu. Even though actually I don't think dia tau pun what at the first place I was very mad about and he said I started it some more??? He made me mad so of course la dia yang start kan???... Ada ke orang yang sesaja suka nak merajuk? By the way memang dia suka cakap I like to sesaja merajuk pun... ada ke? :P Anyway, "Ayang if you are reading this... I just keep and forget my hurt feelings in order just to be civil with you tau tak? Sebab I don't want to be burden with moreee sins because of mengabaikan suami and syurga di bawah tapak kaki suami some more kan... and I'm going to give birth soon so I don't want lah kena 'tulah' suami ke kan. But I'm sure it's gonna happen again if you don't want to tolerate or cooperate :P :P :P". Biasalah tu kan husband and wife gaduh? Tapi memang tak best okeh... nyampah :P Usually when we got into fights of course I would be the most miserable wife on earth and hubby might be the most person I hate in the entire universe! So if I tend to blog at that times, surely the entries were going to be very sensational lah kan. But of course I don't want to unintentionally memancing more readers to read my blog by publishing the so heart-wrenching (I was sad, remember?) entries. Siapa lah yang tak suka gossip and cerita2 macam ni kan? Elehhh ngaku je la.

Even though sometimes I do really feel like want to pour everything in my blog macam orang lain jugak tapi... I just can't lah. I always feel not right to do that. But maybe hubby also can read and actually know what do I have in my mind and heart kan? Maybe he also can reply by giving comment in order to stand for himself ke kan? That sounds interesting though. Unfortunately... I so know hubby isn't that kind of person especially when it comes to writing2 stuffs relaying heart-to-heart matter. As I always say to him... he is really the hati batu kind of person or... kepala komputer (sebab komputer mana bleh thinking secara abstract kan)... bla bla bla and it happens that he is a person who is more towards actions... caressing... pampering... hugging bla bla bla itu semua pass lah. But that are not enough la... you have to speak you know. Among the example of simple questions he always finds very heard to answer is when I ask, "What makes you want to merry me?" and usually his head starts to ache already and he simply answer, "Because you are cute" duh~~~ Bila tanya why you like me... what makes me special than other person or even soklan2 yang sewaktu dengannya... pun seboleh2nya dia akan jawab jawapan yang sama. Actually I'm expecting la answers like... "Because you complete me bla bla bla... accept me the way I am bla bla bla... understanding bla bla bla..." ke apa ke kan? Memanglah tak romantik pakcik ni haih! "Ehh Ayang, orang dah cakap banyak kali macam ni depan Abang kan? So takpelah kalau cakap dalam blog jugak kan?" Hihihih ;D

Dah tatau nak mengarut apa lagi. Perut pun dah sakit. Si kecik dalam ni macam dah tak sabar2 nak kuar tolak2 sana-sini. Lately slalu la sakit2. Memang cuak okay. Also not to forget, actually we went for sakura hanami on last 2 weeks at Takato. Memang best sangat. Tapi tu lah malas nak update blog. Somehow I have updated the story and uploaded the pictures in my Fotopages. I have joined Fotopages looong ago tapi baru sekarang nak maintain. So, welcome to my Fotopages - My Little Munchkin & I. Ermmmmm by the way, I might delete this link later because I'm not so keen with the idea revealing ourselves to the public. So if you happen to know my Fotopages nanti... fine lah tak kisah. But I don't feel comfortable for people who reads my blog to actually 'know' who I am. So nasib lah ye sapa sempat amik link ni n sapa yang tak sempat hohoho ;P

So as usual, here I'm going to end with pictures of foods I prepared recently.