I Have Moved!

Finally it really happened. Since past few weeks I had been updating my new blog but up until now I haven't finished reediting the archives and a few widgets in the blog. But that's not really a big deal and I'm gonna do those one by one when I feel like to. I found out that my new blog platform doesn't support Ph*tobucket and since I used that a lot before, most of the pictures in the previous entries especially the slideshows don't appear as how they should. This is actually the most dreading part for me because I hate to do this kind of editing. I can just ignore all the previous entries but that will not make them look nice and I hate that too. If can... I want to make everything look perfect from the beginning, at least to my eyes ;P I'm gonna still maintain this blog anyway, for me to refer to the updated blog list and I have been thinking that to turn this blog to my link list blog. Well... I haven't really decided yet.

Anyway, I have told a few people the link of my new blog. Keep it hushhh ya! As for others I have been waiting for the right time to reveal/give it to you guys. But this doesn't mean that the firsts been informed are more important compared to those who haven't yet, or whatsoever okay. I even haven't told to my best friend yet about the existing of the new blog. So please don't feel offended at all. After all my blog isn't that interesting or special compared to many others pun.

Actually... instead of putting the new link here... I'm thinking of to make it the other way round. Who wants my new blog URL, please leave me your email address here in this new entry so that I can give it to you. If you don't want me to publish it, don't worry just tell me not to. I intentionally do this because I wanted to know whether there is any other silent reader following my blog. I found some blogs whom stalks this blog (and even I do the same too hehe:P). I just think it might be nice that we could be friends. So, mind coming out from the hiding?:D To my frequent blog readers, please leave me your email address too so that I can inform everyone in one go. Senang keje.

I won't email you the new link right away but please be patient okay. Honestly, I still gonna put the new link here but that's gonna be ages from now;P Tataulah bila... next month?... next 6 months?... next year? hehe:D Itupun pandai2 la carik where it is hidden hehe;P

That's all tah-tah! Leave me your email if you want to. I don't mind at all, seriously.

I'm Back Home Safe & Sound

We reached our home sweet home on last Sunday, 11th January 2009 at about 12.30 p.m after 22 days PACKED holidays in Mesia. Our holidays seemed to turn out not as what we imagined and wished earlier obviously due to the short holidays and even far from reaching our expectation. Yes, 22 days IS a very LITTLE time to do everything we needed and wanted to do. But somehow Alhamdulillah we managed to settle almost all the important stuffs within the short time frame and of course we were happy and enjoyed our holidays to the max nevertheless.

Despite of that, we sacrificed alot on our own plans in order to consider more on the families. We were happy if they were happy, so that's why. If only it could be prolonged to be a 3 months holidays instead of 3 weeks, I would definitely say SATISFIED already. However gotten to meet all the beloved ones back home was far more priceless moments rather than whining over what I didn't manage to do or EAT or where I didn't get the chance to go. Unfortunately we didn' get to meet EVERY important persons in the families (there were a few numbers of them) though to be exact due to the distance and obviously the short staying (again). But we pray for longevity to all of them and us so that perhaps we can meet up finally someday, InsyaAllah.

What more to meet ALL of my friends since I needed to give more priority to the families first. I only managed to steal some moments to meet a few friends. Even that were done in the same time when I was on other missions for example meeting my friends while doing my own express shopping and bringing my SILs together for some bonding times. That's in other words is 3 in 1. If I didn't do it that way, there would be no more other time left to do each of the said things. I'm so sorry to those whom I had promised to meet up, to whom who wanted to meet me and to whom I didn't contact at all. I did try to organize so that I could squeeze some times for you guys but I just couldn't. So please forgive me. Perhaps there will be next time for us someday. We can't ask for EVERYONE to understand but to those who do... thank you very much.

Anyway... due to the hectic schedule, I can remember everything I do for all the 22 days holidays in Mesia. I'm gonna write a journal of the holidays soon so that you can see how busy we were that at the end of the day (EVERYDAY!) by 9.00 p.m we were already knackered and just couldn't wait to hit the pillow. But... we could only storm the bedroom usually by midnight and feeling dragged for tomorrow to come! We woke up early on next morning at like 8.00 a.m (had to) and the latest was 10.30 a.m (couldn't help ourselves already) and started the day which full with new agendas waiting to be carried out.

Now I'm home... and I have almost nothing to rush for. I already feeling boring, lonely and empty on the Sunday night, only hours we reached home. It was so much felt that way perhaps because of the drastic transition of vast different situations. But I knew the feeling not gonna last long. I'm happy to be back home again where everything seems normal, serene and peaceful as before (but so COLD and everything is WHITE arghhh!)... where there are only me, him and the life around us to revolve about everyday. Life is simpler and more laidback in here. So now I can have all the rests and time for peace of mind as much as I need :)

Last but not least there were so many things that have been happening in our lives lately. Well... after all 2008 held so many major circumstances in our lives... full with both laughters and tears. I'm wishing for more happiness to come in 2009 and we (hubby and I) will be a better us with stronger faith and patience from day to day, InsyaAllah. Anyway I will be back with more stories perhaps soon. But not in here. It's gonna be in my new blog. I'm now in my process of editing and reorganizing everything in the new blog and I will definitely meet you guys there... when I'm ready :)

I think I have had enough to be within this blog. I need a new escapade and of course a new spirit thus that's why I need a new platform.

I'm Tired But Eager :)

I always feel very excited and can't wait to update the blog whenever I have interesting things to blog about. But unfortunately sometimes when I already reached the middle of the entry, suddenly the mood faded away. That's the time when I would hit the 'save now' button and logged out right away. This cause me to always have a few drafts in my folder and usually... most of them would be gone obviously because I would delete them right after I logged in again later. This entry is also one of them but fortunately I didn't decide to make it vanish so now I'm doing some editing and updating on it ;P

Anyway I'm quite tired today. In fact since last weekend my days have been pretty occupied in a row. I have just done with about 85% of packing the luggage and spring cleaning the house. Now my shoulder is aching and I will have to ask hubby to massage me again tonight. Today's weather isn't really sunny and it was drizzling early in the morning. So now there are damp clothes hanged all over the wall and the hall smells laundry detergent. Perhaps tomorrow the weather is going to be fine since I really want our little crib to be left in a perfect condition. By the way last night I had a nightmare of kids being chased by adults and once the kids captured, they were physically torched violently. The dream was really terrifying and it was vivid too! I hate vivid dreams and I still have them every once in a while up until now. It started once I got pregnant before... and if you don't know vivid dreams is also one among the many pregnancy symptoms. So... I'm quite knackered already by now since I was busy running for my life and witnessing blood spattered everywhere. Luckily I wasn't slaughtered though because I suddenly woke up with my heart pounding very fast and my mouth kept reciting all the prayers came across my mind. Glad that I had been saved ;P Memang boleh buat filem lah mimpi tu!

Actually it shouldn't be that hard in preparing to go back soon. But it is kind of my habit to clean up everything from scrubbing the toilet to washing the teddy bears whenever I'm going to leave the house even for a night. I really mean it everything... no any corners in the house is excluded. You have the idea right? So that's why I'm pretty occupied during these past few days and I'm soo tired!!! Arghhh!!! Hubby said that why I should take all the troubles myself and during his time he cleaned up the house too but it didn't have to be like the idea of my house-cleaning. But I replied that he should be grateful that I wanted to ensure the house to be in great condition so he actually should be supporting and making things easy for me but not questioning me instead ;P ;P ;P Anyway my idea of perfect house cleaning includes cleaning the kitchen clothes to opening new air freshener to rearranging everything back to its' supposed positions to cleaning up the fridge to checking the food stocks to picking up EVERY STRAND OF HAIR I found lying on the floor and so on heeeee~~~ ;P

However... I had quite an interesting thing happened last weekend. On Friday hubby had party and he came back quite late. So I slept late too upon waiting him to come home. While on Saturday we went to visit our friends in M*tsumoto since they just welcomed their first bundle of joy on last 3rd December. We arrived there at about 2.00 pm, left at about 4.15 pm and finally reached home at about 5.45 pm. Our distance is quite far from each other you see... but truly they are the nearest M*lay couple to us. We brought along some of our still new and unused baby stuffs because I thought we don't know when we will be having a baby again plus some of the things couldn't be kept for so long. So I better gave to them whatever could be given so that they can make full use of the stuffs. Not forgetting that we brought a few presents especially for the little one too which we bought like a month ago? before the baby actually popped out from he mom's tummy :D As an overall I hope they like the very humble gifts from us.

This is what's interesting :D Owh it's a baby girl and she was soo adorable that hubby and I took turn to cuddle and kiss her! ;D At first we were scared to hold her in our arms but after seeing her parents doing it then we got confident a bit. And to N*sah if you are reading this... we were actually quite dragged to leave because we were already addicted to N*ha-chan! :D Fortunately we are not living that close or else I would be knocking on their door every there and then! N*ha-chan we definitely miss u lots! Hope we will meet up again some times soon. Please don't grow up too fast okay because it weren't enough for us seeing the fresh-out-of-the-oven you! :D To N*sah and hubby thanks for having us and sorry too that we been there for quite a long hours, 2 hours and half to be exact and actually constantly HOGGED N*ha-chan which came much to her annoyance. If only she could speak surely she would say, "Ummi walid please save me!". Hihihi gomen-ne N*ha-chan ;P Then on Sunday was the day we started doing spring cleaning in the house.

Now on another matter... actually it has been quite some times I have been thinking about moving to a new blog. I started pondering about this since months ago. As much as I love Bl*gger but I think I'm starting to feel boring within the medium. I want a new platform.. with a new environtment which eventually will rejuvenate me more to blog. Plus lately I have came across a few blogs which mentioned about Bl*gger blogs beeing suddenly disappeared. So... I think maybe I shouldn't procrastinate any more longer and moved already, should I? What do you think... should I or should I not? Honestly... I'm thinking to use W*rdpress because it has the private protected entry function. I think that's cool. Although I don't actually write everything regarding my life in the blog but sometimes I like to hide a few things I wished to write. That's why I named the blog The L*ttle S*cret at the first place because I just spilled only a few shareable secret (not really) with public. Like in Bl*gger now... it doesn't offer such function thus I can't filter the readers for some particular entries. Some times I don't feel like sharing the story with EVERYone because... ntahla... saje ngengada ;P Again... although I don't actually write very personal things in the blog. What you read in my blog are only about 20% revelation from my real life. Even some things sometimes I needed to edit a bit for example kalau tak marah I'm going to write it macam marah sangat2 or kalau sedih I'm going to write it macam gembira je including sometimes exaggerating alot ;P and etc.

By the way I think this is gonna be my last entry for this year. I'm not sure whether I will blog once I reached home soon. If I have the kerajinan then you will be able to read my new updates. But I think I would rather fill my times filling up my tummy with glorious foods *perghhh!* rather than updating the blog ;P This also might be my last entry in this blog. I might have moved after this. Who wants my new link? ;P I'm gonna tell to anyone who wants but I warn you it is not in closest times to come since I want to organize and edit my new blog first. But... the whole idea of moving might also not happen. I haven't really decided yet actually.

So... anyway I want to wish everyone Happy N*w Year 2009 and happy holidaying. We will be going back on this Saturday and I'm praying for our safe and smooth journey N*goya-KL-N*goya InsyaAllah. Please pray for us too okay :) We will be boarding S*IA so we are going to transit in S*pore. That will be about if I'm not mistaken 10 or 11 hours dreading journey sighhh~~~ :(

Lastly... as usual here are pictures of what I managed to cook previously. And... I definitely gonna TEMPEK all the pictures of delectable foods I will be having soon buat tatapan kawan2 ku tercinta di N*hon. Don't worry I'm gonna eat for you guys. *evil grin!* Silalah menangis sekarang ;P ;P ;P

Jya mata!

It Is Warm Today

So that's why I'm here blogging right now ;P Lately I've been not in my blogging-self mainly because of the cold weather. Since today the day is quite sunny and bright thus I should grab the chance to do some updates. Actually, i need to sit facing the wide window because here is where the PC located at. During lower temperature day I need to put my feet facing the heater which situated at my right side because of the coldness. I can't stand to let my feet freezing. So it is pretty hard since I need to twist my body and of course that's so uncomfortable position for me to blog. I need to be in good mood and comfortable before I start thinking crucially on updating my blog. Yeah I know it shouldn't be that crucial merely just to update about what had been happening around me but I guess it is because Engl*sh isn't my mother-tongue, so that's why ;P Furthermore I usually blog in long hours and yeah I don't know what takes me so long to produce an entry ;P

I'm so eager to go back holidaying soon. In fact I've started doing some preparations for this such as cleaning up the kitchen a little bit and checking the food stocks which nearly to reach expiry date. I need to use those foods in my cooking or bake something in order to finish them and by this Sunday I've planned to do spring cleaning in the house. I hope hubby is going to give full cooperation on that day ;P It is not that he is not such a helpful husband except that sometimes he likes to do things in his own pace which would affect what I've planned and needed to do. I've instructed that he will be handling the kitchen simply because I think he is much reliable in that area (I can make full use of him ;P ;P ;P) while I'll be cleaning up the rest of the house. And of course I can't wait to pack the luggage woot-woot! But that will have to wait until next week. However I'm already worried because it seems like the souvenirs for families are like... so many and that's already gonna conquer at least half of the luggage space.

Owh yeah Happy Aid*ladha to all. How's your raya? Hope that it was benefited wisely. Not merely to enjoy with all the foods and new clothes. But the message that lies behind the holy day is what was important. Although actually I didn't perform the Aid*ladha sunat prayer and in fact we lived the day just like any other ordinary day ;P. Hope that we understood what Aid*ladha really means. One more thing is... I came across a few blogs of M*slim bloggers. Some of them commented about the practice of slaughtering the animals. Some said that they think it looked violent to slaughter the animals in the public and they pity the animals. Well, I really can't agree with them. This practice isn't simply be done because of the passed down traditional culture but it is summoned by Allah to Prophet Ibrah*m.

I think the animal are much grateful and proud to be the chosen ones to be slaughtered with the name of Allah rather than died in a non-Islam*c way. They actually died in an honored way. So we shouldn't really be pity for the animals. But this doesn't mean M*slim doesn't pity road killed animal victim or hates animals for examples. And after all the slaughtering of course should be carried out in a very proper way fulfilling all the terms and regulations as stated in Islam*c teaching since one of the reasons is to minimize hurt to the animal. There are reasons why the slaughtering is carried out in the public and why the slaughtering practice being done at the first place (I'm not gonna list them down though) and if I'm not mistaken we are even encouraged to go see the practice. Well... after all who am I to talk about this? But I don't think any M*slim should let his/her mind be affected by the way of non-M*slim (only a few non-M*slim) thinking regarding this or anything that had been stated by Allah. By saying that M*slim is violent and slaughtering animals during Aid*ladha as a proof that Isla*m promotes terros*sm is such a SHALLOW thinking. Sometimes I wonder don't they think how they can get to eat the burger, steak, sausage and so on first before starting accusing others ridiculously? *rolls-eyes* :P :P :P

Anyway this month so far has been a month full with surprises and joy. Congratulations to all my friends who had given birth to cute, healthy and not forgetting miracle babies. Congratulations too to some friends who had just found out that there is bun in the oven on the way! Owh I admit it I really envy you guys and happy for you of course! :D Although I've experienced the wonderful phase of life myself. But now I'm wishing my late 'Ab*d is gonna get baby sister or brother soon too someday, InsyaAllah. Don't even dare to ask about this though and don't even think of it :P I think maybe I miss all the beautiful moments I had before. It was indescribable! After all Allah knows best what's actually best for us. So I'll just keep praying and trying ;P To a few friends who are going through a very difficult moments in life... please keep holding on! There are surely reasons behind what had been fated. May Allah grant them with patience and strengths to go on lives.

On other thing... after months of none M*lay-movie-watching moment together, we finally managed to do so last night. Actually we watched S*pi on the night before but since we started late so we managed to watched about 3 quarter of the movie. So last night we continued to watch the remaining. Honestly I've watched the movie a month ago through a blog. Even though I didn't concentrate while watching it for the first time but truly to say I was really moved by the movie. Seriously I would give 4.5 out of 5 to it. I even think that it is much better than C*nta. I told hubby about the movie and suggested that we really should watch it together. Before we started watching the movie I had warned him to concentrate and keep silent. However there were many interruptions from him and so much comments and questions too. I told him to shut up and just watch since because we were actually in the cinema (as if) so we couldn't make noise. In between when there were touching scenes in the movie he started to kiss, hold hands, hugs and say that he loves me and so on (dia memang slalu macam ni kalau tengok movie ada part2 romantic) which actually came much to my annoyance. I told him again okay okay let's just watch and concentrate until one time I just hugged and totally ignored him until the end of the movie. Thennn only he understood why I didn't answer his comments and questions (I didn't want to spoil it!) plus of course I wanted him to feel all the emotions as in the movie. Sigh... so much of a quality movie time together huh?! Cuba kalau dia tengok One P*ece anime episode ke kalau langit runtuh pun confirm dia tak sedar kot? :P :P :P

By the way I made cinnabon last weekend after days of procrastinating. I need to finish up the cream cheese plus I really crave for some (no I'm not pregnant). However due to some wrong technical methods my cinnabon turned out quite upside-down and soo messy. But you never judge book by its cover. The taste of it was soo yummy that once the combination of sour cheese and sweet cinnamon plus the so soft yet chewy dough combined on the taste buds, would make me craving for more! You guys should try it, really! I got the recipe from here. Here is the picture of my cinnabon. I really didn't do justice to its taste, did I?

I thought of answering the tag given by Kak Azr* but after looking back at it... I think I may save that for next entry. Obviously because I don't think I can give short answer to each questions ;D

Patiently Counting The Days

It is about 8 degree C at the moment. The weather is gloomy,very windy and actually drizzling too. So it is pretty cold outside and... inside hurm~~~ The autumn is going to an end and soon the winter is gonna sets in. Last week unbelievably it had already been snowing. So of course I was shocked with the sudden freaking cold temperature. We ended up spending the whole day around the heater. Apparently on that day the whole west J*pan from north down to the south received heavy snow due to the cold wind from the northern hemisphere blown down from above. Fortunately it had been snowing very little and the snow melted once it reached the ground on that day in our place. Compared to other places in the west side which got their soil all whitish covered with thick snow.

Somehow living in single unit house made the atmosphere in the house much colder. Sometimes I feel like living in a cool box, really. I wonder how am I gonna face the absolutely much bittering cold coming winter with bountiful snow. It's gonna be like living in the freezer by then. I'm sure I would rather let myself grilled and burnt on the heater rather than shivering in coldness. Imagining myself as a grilled Y*mame fish. Mmm sedap dimakan ;P Even at this moment of time I always get myself covered in my beanie, 1 t-shirt and not only 1 but 2 sweaters, a tight inside of my pant and a pair of warming socks hubby got for me from the pharmacy. Not forgetting that he bought me a tube of warming cream too. That's how crucial I already am within this phase of coldness. Besides, I feel fat within these layers of clothes.

Yesterday was quite sunny and I must say that I was quite relieved. Actually I think I'm starting to catch cold. My nostrils and throat feel hurt. Last night I was sneezing a couple of times and blowing on runny nose. A few days back hubby got the same symptoms too and on Tuesday he was down with cold. He came back as early as 10.00am since he couldn't stand the tiredness once the cold set in. So I was playing nurse and doctor for him until yesterday. He got quite an earful from me of haa tulah... jangan buat tu... kena buat ni... tula degil... dengar ke? and so on. Poor my not-so-little Baby Bucuk! Well... I nagged because I was worried sick and I cared a lot for you, that's why. So just live with it and let me be me okay ;P Now back to me... I think I got this from hubby. Who else?! I hope it is not worsening to real cold what more down with flu. Owh I just got to know 2 days ago while Googling how to prevent and cure cold and flu that cold and flu are actually different sicknesses but only their symptoms are quite the same. However flu is usually followed by fever and more severe compared to cold. Now hubby is playing doctor for me and he nagged me to take the medication. I haven't taken the pill yet because I don't like it. Don't tell him!

Talking about this reminds me of last year's winter when I was about 5 or 6 months pregnant with late Lil Munchkin. I was down with severe cold and flu. It was really one of the most tormenting moments in my life and miserable too! Owh it was hubby too who brought back the virus. I feel angry every time I remember about this because I don't understand why I wasn't given medication to cure the sickness when we went for check-up. Perhaps it was because of our fault too that we didn't insist and due to miscommunication the midwife and doctor thought it wasn't severe. Despite of the truth that I was in agony to catch every single of my breath every night. I cried in the middle of the night and slept in sitting position since lying down would only make me suffocating myself. Well my Hubby Bucuk being the forever great sleeper he is didn't realize what was happening at that time since he slept like a log until the morning. In fact he didn't know many things I used to do when he was asleep since the midnight until dawn. Of course now he already knew. Anyway... last time it took quite some times for me to recover. Since then I am so prone to catch a cold up until now. Maybe the immune system in my body hasn't been so good yet. Perhaps next time if I ever catch a cold or flu again when I'm pregnant I'm going to pester the doctor to prescribe me some medications by hook or by crook! Ayang, please take note of this!

The left side of my head and neck felt hurt too last night. Fortunately it already subsided a little especially after very helpful massages from hubby. Thanks Ucuk! XOXO :D Great thing about him is I can always bug him and be like a baby whenever I feel want to ;P ;P ;P I love being pampered especially when I don't feel physically or emotionally good hmmm~~~ Hey he too lurves being a baby okay ;P That's surely one of the things we share in common. By the way I always got headache at one side of my head especally on the left side since 6 months ago. Luckily most of the times it was just mild headache and it happened very rarely nowadays. Hopefully this is only because of wrong body posture and position or because of the settling hormones in the body. Hmmm, whatever.

Since it is already getting cold day by day, this is the major cause why I found it is so hard for me to blog at the moment. I'm experiencing brain-freezes, fingers-freeze, feet-freeze or by other words everything is getting freaking freezing on me and all around me :P :P :P Owh no! The heater is runned out of gas! Why now?! No, I won't fill the gas. I would rather stay freezing and wait hubby do the task for me ;P It's his job! Siannn lah siapa jadi husband dia ni? ;P Anyway I have listed down some things to do before going back holidaying in Msia. Some of them are of course souvenirs hunting for the families which will be done starting this weekend and spring cleaning the house like to clean up the toilet, kitchen, fridge and so on. I must make sure to leave the house looking gleaming, glowing, and refreshing filled with lovely fragrance so that it will welcome us in the most pleasant setting once we set our feets into the house later :D That surely gonna help us rejuvenating after the long hours journey. By the way, the first thing we wished to do once we reached the KL*A is to storm the K*FC. Arghhh I can't wait! :D Just so you know, I dreamt of eating K*FC's chicken a few nights ago goshhh! This is what happened when you have been away from home for so long. It has been 2 years plus since the last time we got back.

My foods-hunting list ;P

What else to tell? Well... nothing interesthing has been going on lately. Day in day out, everything is pretty much so mundane. I can't share everything in the blog so that left me with almost nothing ehee :D Owh yes, I was craving for cinnabon the other night. In fact I was salivating to sleep! It was all out of a sudden. No, I'm not pregnant duh~~~ and please be warned that is the LEAST favorable tease I wished to recieve. I planned to bake it on the tomorrow of the day but only to realize that the yeast had already finished once I had everything already readied on the table. So, I made some apam pisang instead. Very easy and yummy! Still, I'm planning to bake some cinnabon in time to come since I have like many more days to survive before I reached home soon. Sigh... I really want some!

Some foods.

Whereas these are a few pictures I took when we went up the hill near our village a fortnight ago. Living in this mountainous village make it common to be surrounded by mist and fog. But this is the picture of moving evening cloud during gloomy day. It was raining earlier in the afternoon. So the cloud was quite thick and low and on its way evaporating towards higher altitude. I never thought that I could actually get into the cloud. Seemed like another one of my dreams had actually come true. I DID get into the CLOUD! But... you can't actually jump from cloud to cloud, still. Those cartoons in TV are liars! ;P Actually, we wanted to capture last scenery of autumn from above the hill but we couldn't because the scenery was all vanished hidden within the cloud.

See how the moving cloud nearing the village below the hill at behind of us.

The mountainous autumn view in front of our house.

Sigh... since now the sun sets as early as as at 4.40pm... I use to feel very lonely and boring when it is already dark. I feel like I have to wait longer until hubby comes home from work. Perhaps this is because I'm not feeling well so I'm becoming more cranky and clingy towards him. Ucuk, please bear with me! *smooch-smooch*.